My Biggest Fear

Chapter 45

3 hours later.

They thought I had been joking but I made it very clear that I wasn't, she is my daughter, my own flesh and blood.

I promised to explain everything once we get home and that's what I'm gonna do.

I need to get this weight lifted off my chest, I need to set my self free from all this misery.

I need to tell them the truth about everything, Erick also needs to know the truth about my whole life so that's what I'm gonna do.

I took up my phone and dialled his number.

"Hello". I heard him say.

"Ummm..hey, I know I haven't been completely honest and open about some things so I would like to share some things.. with you, so could you come over now, I wanna take you somewhere". I told him.

"Yeah I would love to, I'll be there in five minutes". He said and we hung up.

I got into come comfortable clothes, tied my hair and went downstairs.

"I'm going out for some time and don't worry, I'm taking Erick with me". I told Akeem and he nod his head.

"Akeem I'm sorry, I really am but I'll explain my reasons for the decisions I made. I'll explain it to each and everyone of you when I get back. I invited the others". I said.

"We need to know Maria but first you need to start by telling Erick about mom and dad because he is completely clueless". He said with a hint of hurt in his eyes.

That's what I was planning to do.

"Yeah, I'll see you later". I waved and went through the door where I was met by a very handsome Erick.

"I'm driving so lets go". I smiled at him.

We got in the car and we sat there for a while in comfortable silence before he spoke.

"We are we going?". He asked.

I started the engine and drove off.

"We're going to meet two people that I love dearly". I smiled weakly at him.

We drove for about ten minutes in silence and I was glad for it because I honestly didn't know what to say.

I pulled up at the cemetery and the confused look he had was very evident. I got out of the car and he followed behind me.

I walked until I reached the two familiar graves and I smiled.

My parents.

Erick came beside me and looked down at the grave but I couldn't tell what he was feeling. I just knew that I had to tell him.

"My parents died a few years ago. It was the worse thing that could ever happened. They were everything good in this world and I couldn't have asked for more. They took care of me very well and everything I learnt was through them. I loved them very much, I would give my life for them but I guess theirs was being robbed from them. They were at the bank the day they died. I was on the phone with my mom and we were talking, she said they would be home soon but unfortunately they didn't make it. We were talking and then suddenly everything stops. The place became so noisy and it was followed by gunshots. The sound of the guns echoed through my ears and I wish it wouldn't have to be that way. I called out for them over and over while the noise continued until the line went dead. At that moment I knew that were gone, I could feel it but I didn't want to believe it. We got the call and we went to the hospital. Akeem was so broken and so was I. When we got there, they were fighting for their lives, they didn't make it though. As we saw them, they left us. They left us without even saying the last words to us. I couldn't bare the pain, I was so hurt, so devastated, so broken and I needed fixing. Their death destroyed me, I wasn't able to feel because my body was numb. I cried myself to sleep every night, the feeling of losing them was unbearable. They were already gone but that's what I couldn't accept, I couldn't accept the fact that they left Akeem and I without help. Our hearts were aching and we were about to reach our breaking point but we fixed each other". I explained.

"I didn't tell you because I never wanted you to see how broken I am. I'm sad, I'm lost and I'm losing hope each day". I told him.

"Maria I'm so sorry, I had no idea". He embraced me in a hug.

"Things happen for a reason, I know words can't get you back your parents but wherever they are right now, I know that they're definitely watching over you. You haven't failed them Maria, you pushed through every situation and I respect you. You're a a survivor and that's what survivors do, they overcome the impossible. I know you're hurting sweetie, I know everything seems out of place without them but you'll get through this my love, I know you will and I'm here for you whenever you need. I just need you to trust me". He comforted me.

I smiled. I trust him more than ever. He's apart of me now, apart of my world and I would like to involve him in my life. He deserves to know about me, he deserves to know about my past and present life.

This is how I want things to be. I want him to be by my side and I by his.

I love him.

"I trust you Erick, I do. No more secrets". I assured him.

"No more secrets". He whispered as he placed a kiss on my forehead.

"Hey mom, hey dad. This is my new friend, his name is Erick. Dad I know if you were here right now you would read right through me and could tell that I had feelings for this guy and mom you would continue to ask me questions. I wish you were here so I could introduced him to you properly but I know you're watching us and I thank you for that". I spoke to my parents and Erick smiled at me.

"I'll see you soon". I told them and Erick and I walked back to the car.

"Lets go home, they're waiting for us". I told Erick as I started the car and drove back home.

Time to tell the other side to the story.