My Biggest Fear

Chapter 39

Maria's P.O.V

"Victoria". I whispered in disbelief.

She searched my eyes trying to figure out that what she's seeing is really true.

"Mommy?". She finally spoke and tears rolled down my cheeks.

I wasn't dreaming at all. He found her, he really found her.

Where could Elena be? Oh Elena I'm so sorry!.

"Why did you bring her here!?" I shouted at him.

"Calm down sweetie, I just wanted to see my daughter, our daughter". He said as he pulled her closer to him and she flinched.

My heart picked up its pace, never ever have I dreamt that this day would come to life.

~flashback~

I had the baby two weeks ago, Victoria was born and she's beautiful. She only had my brown eyes, every other feature she has belonged to him, her father.

I couldn't bare it, I couldn't bare the feeling. Every time I looked at her I see him, I see the man who abused me, I see the man who have broken my dreams, I see the man that took away my innocence.

I am afraid to look at her, I'm afraid to hold her because I keep being reminded but I know I can't hate her.

She's my baby, she's my flesh and blood, she's my daughter.

For the pass few months I've been thinking about a lot of things.

What I am going to do after the baby is born?

Where will I go?

How am I going to recover?

I want to make the right choices. Elena and I have spoke and she has offered to take care of my child.

I'm not in the right state to care for someone because I need help, I need guidance.

She wants me to find me to find myself, she wants me to finish school, she wants the best for me.

When I found out I was pregnant I never imagined myself to be in this position nor in this place, far away from home but here I am.

I have decided to keep Victoria a secret until I find myself, I want to keep this hidden until I'm fully ready to accept my past, this is my truth to be told.

Elena will take care of Victoria while I go back home to seek help and finish my education.

I couldn't be more grateful to her for all that she has done for me, she's a good definition of what a mother should be like and I'm sure she'll do a good job raising my child.

I don't want to leave, I don't want to leave her. I want to take her with me but I can't. I can't yet for so many reasons.

I will be able to see her though, I won't run away and pretend like I didn't have a child. I will visit and try my best to love and care for her because she'll always be mine, she'll always be my Victoria.

~End Of Flashback~

"You know you're crazy right? You need help and you know it". I told him.

"Please take my princess in the other room". He told one of the men and they took Victoria with them.

"If you even dare put a finger on her I will end your miserable life". I yelled loudly.

"Now tell me Maria, why would I want to hurt my own child? Am I that stupid?". He asked and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Ha you're so funny. You expect me to trust you right? Oh hell no! If you could be so heartless to think of me in that way, who could have been your daughter then what would you do to your own!?". At this point I was furious.

"You have no idea what you did to me, don't you get it L.T?? You ruined my life, you destroyed my future, and for what?? You thought you were so horny than anyone else in this damn world!!. You raped me at 15 fucking years old and I've been angry ever since. I feel so tormented. Its like everywhere I go you're there, I can't do anything without thinking how you hurt me!. I did nothing to you, I did nothing to you. You knew exactly what you were doing, you forced yourself onto me, you did it forcefully. Were you even thinking about how things could be afterwards? No I guess not!. You turned my aunt against me, you made her think low of me and that I was a lying low life bitch. I Fucking Hate You!". I continued.

"Oh Maria, don't cry now. Don't you see how attractive you are? You're sexy and beautiful beyond your imagination and I still want to have sex with you and we will have sex, it's been so long". He said as he came closer and placed kisses against my jaw and I held it together.

"You're a psycho and might as well you kill me before you do what you want". I glared at him.

"You know Maria, I've been in prison for five years and for that five years I had someone watching you. I missed you baby, I missed every inch of you and you don't even know it. I got to know that you became pregnant and right then I knew I was the father, but I also knew that you hid it from everyone and then you call me heartless. How heartless could you be to hide your daughter from that brother of yours and you're friends. You are selfish and you're only thinking about yourself. So as I was saying, I escape prison with the help of my two wing men and as I came out, I began planning how to get you. I couldn't stay that long away from you babe, it was driving me insane. I saw how you were with that stupid boy Erick, he knows that he's never supposed to get in my way and he still tried to get you baby, I know that he loves you Maria. I knew I had to get rid of him and I still intend on doing that. So baby, I went for my child and I had trouble getting her from that sad old lady but don't worry she's not dead, she's just in the hospital. What you don't understand is this Maria, every since I met you, I knew you were the one and I knew that if I couldn't have you, no one else would. I would do any and everything just to have you by my side. You wanna know why that is? Its because I Love You Maria, I've loved you ever since the day I saw you and I'll be loving you for a lifetime". He whispered to me and in that moment I laughed.

I laughed bitterly but that stopped for a moment because a handwas connected to the right side of my cheek and it stung, it stung so hard.

"You slapped me?". I asked in disbelief.

"I just told you how I feel and you laughed? You laughed at me Maria". He said and I could hear a hint of...hurt in his voice.

"You expect me not to? You're a sick sick sick person and you need help so do me a favor and seek it. I will never love you, never". I told him angrily.

"You might not love me now but you won't have a choice when you have no one left but me, you'll beg me to take you Maria". He threatened.

I didn't even answer, there was nothing to say so instead I kept quite.

"I'll be ready for you in an hour for our slumber party. We're gonna make another baby". He said excitedly and I couldn't help but look at him in disgust.

"I'm gonna take care of some things princess, I'll be back for you, I won't keep you waiting". He said as he kissed my forehead and I bit back the urge not to blow up.

He then left and now I was left to go back in my deep thoughts.

Alone...