Y/N's POV
Today has been the worst day ever. I failed a major exam that I studied over 2 weeks for, I got fired from my job at Target,and everyone has been making fun of me for my weight. Something I'm really insecure about. I ran inside me and Gray's apartment crying my eyes out. I threw my bag on the ground and ran upstairs to the bathroom. I closed the door and opened the cabinet to grab my old "friend", the razor. I had been self harming myself since 8th grade because the bullying had gotten really bad but when I met Grayson in 10th grade, he made it a little bit better. Now we are both in college at UCLA and living in an apartment. Grayson didn't know that I cut myself and I wanted to tell him but I was afraid he was gonna break up with me and I couldn't risk our relationship. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw a disgusting piece of shit. I immediately started talking negatively about myself in the mirror. "You're a fat, ugly disgusting slob who doesn't deserve to be living on this earth. Just do everyone a favor and go kill yourself". I moved the razor to my arm and began to drag it along my arm
Gray's POV
"Babe I'm home!", I yelled expecting to see my girlfriend Y/N but I got no answer. "Maybe she's sleeping", I thought and walked upstairs. I didn't see her in our bedroom but I saw that the bathroom door was closed. "Babe? You okay in there?". Still no answer. "I'm coming in", I said as I opened the door and saw something that I never thought I would see. My girlfriend lying on the floor with a razor next to her and multiple cuts on her arms. "No, no, no. Baby please wake up. Don't die on me". I was trying to stay calm but I couldn't. My girlfriend was unconscious and could be dead. I called 911 and they said they'd be there in 10 minutes. I heard a cough. I looked down and saw Y/N open her eyes a little. "Grayson?". "Yeah, it's me baby. The paramedics are on their way". "I'm sorry Grayson". "It's okay princess. I love you". But before she could say it back, she shut her eyes again. I let out a sob as the paramedics came in and drove us to the hospital.
*At the hospital
Y/N's POV
I was awaken by the sound of beeping all around me. I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. I was hooked up to many machines and Grayson was sitting in the chair next to me asleep. I then started to remember what happened. The last thing I remember was me dragging my razor across my arms and blacking out. I realized I was gonna have to tell Grayson everything and started to cry. Grayson slowly started to wake up. "Princess!! You're okay. Omg, I was so worried about you. Please tell me what's going on, you know I'm always here for you", he finished as he hugged me tight. I took a deep breath and started. "It all started in 8th grade. I got bullied a lot because I wore braces and huge glasses and I remember one kid saying, "do everyone in this school a favor and go kill yourself", and so I tried. When I got home, I went and found some razors in a bag and cut my arm. My mom found out and immediately transferred me by high school. I never really stopped though until I met you. You made me feel wanted but I had the worst day today and felt unwanted. I'm sorry I never told you about it but I was scared you would break up with me", I finished as I let out a sob. Grayson just looked at me with endearing eyes. He walked up to my face and kissed me, it felt so different from all our other kisses. It felt like the kiss that could protect me from any bad thing in this cruel world. "Baby, I had no idea. I do wish you told me sooner but I'm just glad you're still alive. I thought I was gonna lose you. I appreciate you so much and you are so beautiful. Never forget that Baby". He kissed my forehead and laid next to me in my hospital bed.
