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HEY YALL! SORT OF A FILLER CHAPTER SINCE IVE BEEN GONE FOR A MINUTE. I PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE THIS STORY WILL NOT BE DULL FOR MUCH LONGER. I KNOW I KEEP SAYING THAT BUT I REALLY PROMISE THIS TIME! ANYWAY UPDATES MAY COME SLOWER, SLOWER THAN THE WERE BEFORE BECAUSE I RECENTLY GOT A NEW JOB AND IM ALSO DEALING WITH THE END OF COLLEGE SO THESE NEXT FEW MONTHS MAY BE A LITTLE HECTIC FOR ME RESULTING IN FEWER UPDATES. DONT FORGET TO GIVE MY NEWEST STORY, CLOSE, A READ AND TELL ME WHAT YALL THINK! THANKS FOR READING THIS LONG AUTHORS NOTE AND ENJOY THE STORY!!
-Dani
The days are becoming rough and restless, the twins are beginning to become harder to handle, Harry and I's relationship in going through the mud and I don't know how much more I'll be able to handle before I lose it. Ever since the day that I confronted Harry and told him I couldn't keep up this flirtatious relationship with him he's been so cold towards me. Only time he ever speaks to me if it's involving the kids and even then his words are short and to the point. We haven't even had a real conversation over the last three weeks.
I understand that I told him that we couldn't be the same way we were had he kept Jenna in the picture but I didn't imagine my words would be a reflection of how it truly played out. Through the grapevine I've heard their relationship has strengthen and gotten better since that day in his office. He took my words almost too literal and I really don't know how to feel about it.
Besides the kids, Harry was the only other aspect that I looked forwards too, being that I had such a dull and repetitive schedule. It consists of sleep, eat, work and repeat. Nothing more nothing less besides if it was involving the kids. All my girlfriends and I have suddenly drifted apart, while all them hang out with their friends and what not I'm stuck at home in my bed sulking over a bag of popcorn and a cheesy romcom. My sisters were busy with their own lives and I didn't want to burden them with my own trials and tribulations so I've kept everything bottled in to myself and cry every once in a while to release some pressure that has been building up within me.
I've caught wind that Harry abruptly introduced the twins to his family and they were ecstatic until they found out who the mother was. That's when all the sly messages started pouring in and the noticeable sub messages began; speaking of how excited they were to have learned of their grandchildren after all this time but making remarks and reposting subliminal baby mama posts. However, I've decided to keep it at rest and not open another can of worms, Harry's always being distant towards me and I don't need the weight of his families opinions weighing on my shoulders either.
My life seems as if it's turning to such a blur and I don't know how to stop it. Before Harry I somehow seemed to manage with the presence of the twins but lately they've been wanting to spend more time with Daddy, leaving mommy to be alone in her empty ole apartment. I really underestimated how much they brightened my life until my time with them was so limited, they're only here for half the week and they're at Harry's the other half, which honestly broke my heart when Harry and then brought the idea to me.
It felt like my heart was being shattered into a million pieces all at once, the weekends without the kids was already rough enough but upping the amount to three and a half days really killed me on the inside. But at the end of the day my children's happiness is my first priority so of course I agreed to the arrangement but only for them.
The work days dragged along with endless calls, meetings and running around to almost every floor in the building all day long. I didn't notice how lenient Harry had been in me when we were on good terms. He had let me chill out and do close to nothing compared to everything I'm assigned to on a daily basis now. I'm on my feet for a good portion of the day and I'm barely in his office, when I am it's for short moments and then I'm sent right on my way out to go preform other tasks.
My mental health has been deteriorating, my physically health has been declining and I know I haven't been taking care of myself like I know I should be.
My mind is constantly filled with thoughts of negativity and what if scenarios that spike the anxiety residing in me that I've tried so hard to ride of. I've barely been eating, I become more fatigue by the days and I tire myself out over the simplest tasks.
My house has clothes littered in every room and I barely have any food stocked in the fridge or the cabinets.
Hunger begins to get the best of me so I throw on some sweats and slides and head off to the grocery store. I instantly make my way to the freezer section since now and days I don't have the time nor energy to even think about cooking any type of meal. Lean cuisines and kid cuisines fill half the basket and as unhealthy as it is, it's all I'm really capable of making.
As I'm on the snack aisle finding foods for the kids the kids come back I hear a voice call my name. I search up and down the crowded aisle but no familiar face comes to view. "Jayde?" I look to my left and my stomach drops. The lavender haired girl comes walking towards me with a shocked expression covering her pale face. "Holy shit," She eyes my appearance and a sweet smile spreads on her face.
"Long time no see, Gemma." I muster up a forced smile just as hers falls from her face. "Dear God, Jayde. Are you alright?" Her smile turns into a look of worry as she takes me in for an embrace. She pulls back but keeps a hand placed on my arm.
"I've had better days, life's just been barreling down on me recently and it's been a lot you know." She understandably nods and keeps her piercing green eyes glued on me.
"Harry finally told the rest of the family about the kids and they lost their shit, they're overjoyed and love them so much already." Her sentence cuts off almost too fast as if she has something else to voice but decided to keep it in last minute. "Yeah, I know I've heard." I nervously chuckle and look anywhere but at her. It's sort of awkward knowing that their entire family practically despises me and that Gemma is the only one I've had some type of cortile relationship with. She was one of the first people I told I was pregnant and was there for me in place of Harry but after a while, communication between us became scarce and we no longer talked.
Her eyes dart behind me and widen but stay glued there. I angle a look over my shoulder and see Harry walking out way but once he spots who his sister is speaking to he stops in his tracks. I look back to Gemma and she flashes a sympathetic smile. "He told you." She nods.
"Everything." She drags out the whole word which notifies me that he did indeed tell everything my head falls back and I stare up to the ceiling. "Gemma you ready to go?" He stands a few feet away from me but does a great job to avoid eye contact. "I'll talk to you later, is your number still the same." I only nod. With one last hug and a message that she'll text me back when she gets settled in at home, she sets off down the aisle and disappears. As I turn back around the the fruit snacks I accidentally bump into someone and know I the box from their hand.
"Oh my bad, I'm sorry." I bend down to pick the box up and hand it back to the women."Mhm." A pair of thin lips are turned up into a devious smirk. "Trying to take my man didn't turn out how you planned now did it?" I almost begin to laugh at the audacity of this girl. "Excuse me?" She takes the box of fruit snacks from my hand and places it into the hand held basket nestled into the crook of her arm.
"Don't play stupid with me I know what happened when I was gone?"
"And you're still with him?" She confidently nods.
"Yes, cause at the end of the day he came back and chose me, something you can't say about him for yourself." I blankly stare at the blonde standing in front of me weather an outfit probably twice the amount of rent. "Jessa, get out my face." I'm surprising myself by keeping my computer but at the same time she is no treat to me whatsoever. She readjust the basket on her arm and takes a step closer.
"We're all a happy family now, the kids Harry and I and I don't need you meddling in trying to mess up our happy space." She clears her throat and takes one more step. "So I need you to stay away from him, if it's not work related or about the children do not speak to him at all. Woman to woman, you had your fun with him but that's over and done with, so I'm asking and telling you to leave us alone or it won't end good for you at all." Before I can even respond she sets off down the aisle and in the direction that Gemma and Harry left off too.
Crazy bitch.
With the way I'm feeling, I have every right to be petty and ruin Harry if she really want me to take it there. Especially since my children will be around her, and I don't take that lightly at all. If she pulls anything I will make her and Harry's life a living hell.
