Her name is Serendipity

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Okay? What-- i mean who the hell was that?! Seriously i have no time for jokes. Baby?! Really?! Grr.

Nagmadali akong magayos ng sarili at lumabas na. Halos ilang oras din akong nagtrabaho dito sa café ng maisipan kong magbreak. Kumuha ako ng iced coffee at umupo sa may gilid, kinuha ko din ang laptop ko at pinagpatuloy ang pageedit ng mga drafts ko. I actually have 2 on hold stories na hindi ko mapublish publish bescause i'm not satisfied with the ending. Happy ending pero bitin ganon, and i think that's the worst thing that happens to me everytime, doubts. Ewan ko pero minsan kahit alam ko na tama yung ginawa ko hindi ako satisfied, parang may kulang ganon. I was about to sip on my coffee when i heard someone speak behind me

"I am still lost..." Basa ni rica na may buntong hininga pa sa huli ng salita.

"Until when are you going to hide your feelings through writing? Huh? " she said as she sat down im front of me fixing her highlighted curly hair. She absolutely stunning. The highlighted violet hair, natural rosy cheeks, and her simple dress. Nakakapagduda ng kasarian pag tiningnan mo siya.

After observing her i looked at her with my raising eyebrows preparing my almighty mouth for starting our trashtalks.

"Until when are you going to hide your feelings through painting huh? " i asked with a sarcastic tone. Nginitian lang niya ako bilang sagot at umorder ng maiinom. These past few days i saw rica's paintings. It's sad to be honest. Kitang kita mo ang lungkot sa mga pinipinta niya. Sometime people tends to smile on the outside but inside? They are slowly dying and smile is the most unacceptable lie of all time. Never use smiles to hide your feelings because it's just a waste of time and energy, they will see your sadness in your eyes wether you're smiling or not.

"How are you girl? Ganda naten ngayon ha." She said jokingly while chuckling .

"Wow ha. Ako pa talaga yung 'maganda' hiyang hiya naman ako sayo ha. So what's up with you? I'm fine by the way." I said while observing her gesture.

"I'm not actually fine. Pero kakayanin." I held her hands and lef her tell me the story of her sadness.

Pero ako? Masaya nga ba ako?

Masaya nga ba ako kasi nakamove on na ko kay fred? O masaya ako kasi nandito na ulit ako sa pilipinas? Siguro nga masaya ako kasi nakamove on na ko at nakabalik na ko dito sa pilipinas pero siguro hindi parin ako buo. Maaring sabihin ko na masaya ako pero hindi ako buo. May mga taong sasabihin na masaya sila pero alam nila sa sarili nila na may kulang pa. May nawawala pa. And being happy won't fix that puzzle. Katulad nalang ngayon. Hindi ako buo dahil may nawawala paring alala saakin. Pagka ba naging masaya ako maalala ko yon? Hindi. Happiness is just a substitute to wounds. Happy or not we all have our wounds inside out heart that can't be fixed by someone or even a single smile but will be forgotten when you finally completed yourself. Ang isang tao ay nabubuhay bilang isang malaking puzzle na may milyon milyong mga parte at sa bawat dami ng nalalaman mo ay lalong lumalaki ang puzzle at lalo ka din mahihirapan na buuin, pero when time comes you will finally fix that puzzle and see what picture it holds plus, without noticing it, you are smiling, because finally! I got to see what i need to see. I can now live my life without any hesistations and be happy.

"EARTH TO SERENDIPITY! to the miss beautiful i mean." Di ko alam kung ilang beses ng nasabi ni rica yan tuwing lumulutang ang isip ko pero bat ba ko tinatawag na miss beautiful nito?

Napatingin ako sa nginuguso nitong si rica.

Unknown calling...

Message from: fred 🙅‍♀️

I declined the call at nakita ko ang mga pilyong tingin ni rica.

"Dala-Dalawa notification. Nako nako. Sino sasagutin mo diyan? Yung fred o yung rico? " sinong rico??

"Bish. Hindi si rico yung unknown hahaha-- wait?! Hindi ka manlang ba curious kung bat fred pangalan nito? " sabi ko habang nakaturo sa phone ko.

"Nah. It's obvious that he's alive ever since you told me that story plus smeraldo told everything na sinabi sayo ni fred kanikanina lang. " i feel betrayed. Hahahha. Joke. Love ko tong mga to. Pero di ko na mahal si fred haha.

"Girl. Umuwi ka na! Ako naman magtatrabaho dito, magchikabels tayo tommorow! Ciao! " she stood up as she wave her hand and sent me a flying kiss.

I was on my way home when i decided to buy a slurpee at 7-Eleven. Habang nakapila ako ay may narinig akong nagkekwentuhan.

"Alam mo yung sinasabi nila book daw nung famous na author?  Serena ba? Serina? Basta ewan! Di naman maganda kwneto! Sayang pera--"

Napalaki ang mata ko ng may naramdaman ako na naglagay ng earphones sa tenga ko. Aalisin ko na sana iyon ng tinakluban ng kanyang mga  palad ang aking dalawang tenga. Huli na ng mapansin kong nagvibrate ang cellphone ko kasabay ng pagtawag sakin ng cashier.

From: Unknown
Don't mind them. Wala lang silang magawa sa buhay. Magaganda ang gawa mo no! 

 i was about to get out ng hindi ko napansin ang sign doon na may basa at maari akong madulas. hinahantay ko ang pagbagsak ko ng may naramdaman kong may sumapo sakin, binuhat ako at itinakbo sa labas. 

i can't feel this shit again. hindi na ulit pedeng tumibok ng sobra ang puso ko lalo na't alam ko sa huli na iiwan lang din niya ko. who is who anyway?

i was about to get my pepper spray when he talked. 

"na-ah. na sakin ang spray mo." napatingin ako sa mukha nya. noong una ay inakala ko na si fred siya dahil sa muka niya pero nang marinig ko ang boses niya pumasok saakin na ay kakambal nga pala si fred.

iginayo ko ang aking kamay patungo sa bulsa at nagsalita. "So who are you this time? rico? oh baka naman sabihin mo ngayon na triplets talaga kayo? haha." i laugh sarcastically. 

"i never pretended to be someone. i was born as Rico James i will live as rico james mieniedes and i will die yours." pick up line na ba tawag don? i rolled my eyes in disbelief and faced him.

"Panong laro ang gusto nyong magkapatid? agawan kayo sakin sa umpisa tas iiwan nyo ko sa huli? ganun? then, let's play the freaking game of you two. basta pag natalo kayo titigilan nyo na ko." 

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always remember that you are loved. i love you! 💙💙