The boy with the crooked smile.

Heartache

I was sitting at home watching a random tv show. I was so bored but in my head thoughts were going round and round continually. I couldn't stop thinking about what Austin had said yesterday and how he had kissed me. Did that idiot really think he could get a second chance by making up stories. I sighed and tried to push the thoughts out of my head.

" Someone's depressed today" Hunter commented, as he entered the room.

" Like you care" I snapped.

" Jeez chill out " He said, throwing his hands up in surrender. I got up and stormed to my room to get ready for school. Lets just say I wasn't in a good mood today.

At school

We had History first and Mr Desmond was waiting with a huge heap of homework. Just what I needed right now. But my mood improved a lot when Jay came to sit next to me. We ended up just talking and being stupid all though lesson. He was making paper planes and hurling them at people. Mr Desmond noticed of course but he couldn't be stuffed telling us off. I guess he was pretty used to it by now. I spent almost all of English laughing and the bit I didn't I was being mad at random people because I kept being hit in the face by paper planes.

" You look like you've just survived a tornado" Jay said, obviously referring to the  fact that I had messed up my hair by getting hit by Charlie's ammo.

" Thanks bestie" I said sarcastically.

" In a beautiful way" He added.

" Oh yeah that fixes everything" I said jokingly, but I smiled in spite of his teasing.

" I need to talk to you at break" he said nervously. I didn't like the sound of that. Whenever someone said that it remained me of all the bad things I had done.

" Sure" I replied and hurled a paper plane at Rikki.

When the bell rang I gathered my stuff and waited outside for Jay. He came out a few minutes later. he smiled and we started to walk to one of our favorite spots underneath some trees behind the main building. Jay sat down under the tree and I joined him.

" Brooke?" He asked.

" Yeah" I replied.

" You remember when we met?" he asked

" Of course, we were four, you had just started at the kindergarten I went to.... You wouln't stop asking for my pizza"

" We've known each other for twelve years... I'm sorry about that pizza"

" Yeah, I'm glad we met. That pizza was kinda the reason"

"  Just proves pizza is awesome."

" Yep"

"You know when we first met, I thought- I knew you were the most amazing girl in the world" He said. I felt myself blush.

" Brooke, I love you" He said, looking into my eyes. I felt like someone had smacked me. I felt a weird fluttery feeling in the pit of my stomach.

" I love you too" I smiled " But I don't want a  relationship yet Jay. Austin hurt me enough already and I'm not ready for that to happen again ... I don't want to lose my best friend"

" You know I would never hurt you Brooke" He said pulling me into a warm hug.

" I know" I sighed. I had never realized how much I had always loved Jay. I had always had a crush on him . Since we first became friends but I had always tried to ignore it. I was scared that if I started dating my best friend that if we broke up we wouldn't even be friends anymore.

We stayed there hugging for ages. before we finally headed back to the others. As we approached Charlie gave me a knowing look.

" What?" I asked

" What was that all about?" asked Charlie.

" Nothing" I said quietly.

" You alright?" He asked.

" Yeah I'm fine" I lied. I didn't want Jay to know how much it hurt to keep it in how much I cared.

Jay wrapped his arms around me, I rested my head on his shoulder.

" Brooke come with me" He said letting go. I followed him to a safe distance.

" I'm sorry" I said.

" Brooke, no I'm sorry I shouldn't have complicated things."

" No, its fine Jay" I said and walked back to where Charlie and Rikki were whispering. They were obviously talking about me and Jay because they stopped when I approached.

" What are you gossiping about?" I asked. Already knowing what it was.

" Nothin'" Charlie said. Rikki elbowed him on his arm.

" Ow lay off" He said glaring at Rikki, he turned back to us. " Are you guys dating?" He asked suddenly.

" No we're still just besties" I said. I looked at Jay, he smiled but his eyes looked far away.

" Sorry Rikki wanted to know" Charlie explained. Rikki slapped him on the arm lightly. I sighed and sat down to eat.

After school, at home

I took the last suitcase outside and set it down outside beside Ryan's car. He had already packed most of his stuff into the boot of his car. It groaned under the weight. Ryan was moving to the other side of town and from there he planned to move to Ohio USA. To say I was jealous would a huge understatement. He came out closely followed by the rest of my family. I hugged him goodbye, I could feel myself tearing up. I knew he wasn't going far but I had never really been away for that long. I Said goodbye and he got into his car and drove out of the driveway. We all stood and waved until his car disappeared down the road.