Premeditated Pseudonym

21|Love Is What The Heart Wants

On Thursday, I woke up and got to work on time. I was proud of myself and I'm guessing, so was miss Bonnie. I did all I was supposed to do, without any interruption and before I knew it, I was on my way home. This was the fastest, least problematic day I have ever encountered since I started working here.

I got a taxi from my workplace to carry me home, so I didn't hesitate to get in. Along the way, he picked up some passengers that were also going in my vicinity. Continuing to our destination, a Mac truck swung out of a side road and almost hit us, luckily the driver was minding his business. As he swung out, he started driving suspiciously slow, so two cars behind us sped up and passed the truck.

The driver followed suit, but we were not as lucky as the other cars that went before. An oncoming bus, doing probably 80 miles per hour, nearly collided with us if it had not been for the driver's quick action to pull on the grass at the side of the road. The maneuver left the car smoking with two deflated tires.

We now had to search for another taxi or a maxi in order to reach our destination. It wasn't too long before we actually got one heading in our direction. I got home and my kids were surprised to see me since they didn't hear any engine close by. They all ran and hugged me, which is what I really needed at this point. Unknowingly to them, I could have lost my life in that vehicle a while ago.

I didn't want to reminisce on the situation, so I just decided to tell them how much I loved them. My heart was still racing a bit, so I decided to take a minute to relax. My dad had been sleeping since before I came so he was unaware of my arrival. As I lay on my bed, my phone rang. It was Rishidi calling, but I knew he said he needed space and it's only been a week.

He called to apologize to me for not understanding the situation sooner. He wished for us to return home so we can work things out as a family and continue living as a family. If I said yes he would come immediately, but if I decline, he would respect my choice. Before I answered, I asked him if he would evict me after any arguments in the future, but he reminded me that I made the move myself.

I really didn't want to move back to my father's house, but I wished he'd stop me as well. Men don't understand us women and sometimes I wish they did. It would make our lives so much easier if they would just talk to us before actually doing anything. I guess you can't have everything you want, so I'll just have to make do with what I have.

Mom always said, be thankful for the little you have to work with because there are many people on the outside that don't have any to work with at all. I always try to remember that in order to stay humble in this life, but sometimes too much occurs around you and you forget in a split second, which can escalate the situation.

I almost forgot Rishidi was on the phone waiting for my response. As soon as he said hello, I was startled. Then I told him to come get us, so he did. Apparently, he was already on the main road parked up waiting, because there was no way he could have been at home and arrived here so quickly.

As he arrived, he brought a single rose and an 'I'm sorry' postcard for me. I really believed he was sorry for the way he reacted, which was the purpose of the rose and card. I tried to wake my father to tell him we were going, but he was too deep in sleep, so I closed the front doors before we all got into the car and left for home.

It took us half an hour to arrive at the house and two hours to unpack our stuff neatly, where it was supposed to be. As I was finishing up packing my clothes into the wardrobe, Rishidi came up behind me and started kissing my neck and touching all the right places. I don't have to go into detail as to what happened next, but let's just say, I put a big boy to bed.

I left the bedroom and entered the living room, to make a phone call that I was meaning to make a while ago. Abby and Sabina hadn't heard from me in a while and I needed to check up on my girls. It seemed that I haven't missed a lot since last we spoke since they were doing the same as me. Work and home, no special dates as yet, well except for Sabina that has been getting serviced quite a lot as of lately.