Torn

Chapter 12

"It's been a long day just go to sleep ." This was Luke's third time trying to get me to lay down and sleep .

"I don't want to sleep Luke . I just to watch YouTube videos and decide if I want to quit ."

" I think you should just sleep on it."

"Sleep on what Luke ?" I smirked at him at he just rolled his eyes at me.

"You're so dirty minded ."

"Yes I know that . I got it from my brother ."

"The one you won't talk to ."

"Yes but that's not the point ."

"I think you should give this a lot of thought and don't just think about it tonight and make the video tomorrow."

"How am I supposed to take care of two kids and keep up with a YouTube channel ?"

"There's loads of youtubers with kids ."

"Yes but they're all married and there's always someone there to help."

"Even if I'm not here you still have Regan and all your friend here, who I'm sure would love to take care of them for an hour or two ."

"That's true but I'm never gonna be able to keep up with all of it."

"I can always come home and help-"

"No ! You are not gonna come off tour because I'm having problems at home ."

"Is this about you thinking you're gonna ruin my career ?"

"Yes . When you get a break that's when you come home but not because I'm having a hard time ."

"I will come home when I feel like you need me and you're not gonna change my mind . I'll be here through everything ."

"Listen to this song for me ." I typed Miles Away by Memphis May Fire into search bar and played the video for him .

After the song he sat in silence for at least 10 minutes probably just thinking .

"I'm not sure what to say ."

"I don't need you to say anything . I just know that leaving me I had enough on you and add kids to the mix is even harder so I don't want you to do it to often ."

"Being away is harder ."

"I really don't like this conversation Luke ."

"I'm sorry but we have to talk about it at some point ."

"I know but let's not do it now ."

"Ok I have something we can talk about ."

"And what is that my lovely boyfriend?" I pushed the computer off my lap and faced him .

"Marriage ."

"That's a very broad subject Luke."

"Getting married Lydia ."

"Who's getting married ?"

"Us . We're getting married !" He was getting frustrated and it was so cute and funny at the same time. I sat up on my knees and took his hands in mine .

"Lucas Robert Hemmings will you marry me ?"

"No ."

"Well I guess we aren't getting married then ." I laughed and sat back down on the bed .

"I'm supposed to ask you so when I do act surprised ."

"I will be glad to ." I leaned over and kissed him on the lips before I went back to my computer . "You know you're cute when you're frustrated ."

"You're supposed to take me seriously in those times ."

"You're very hard to take you serious."

"That doesn't make me feel any better."

"Well then don't be so cute ." I pinched his cheek and kissed him again.

"Why can't you stop being so beautiful?" He pushed the laptop off of my lap and started tickling me.

"Luke ! Stop it ! Stop !" He wouldn't stop tickling me and I kept hitting him .

"Tell me that I'm the best boyfriend in the world and you love me so much you'll die without me ."

"Luke is the best boyfriend in the world and I love you so much that I would die without you !" He stopped tickling me and hovered over me .

"Your eyes are so pretty ."

"I could say the same about yours."

"No mine are manly not pretty ."

"Oh because you're so manly Luke." I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought him down to kiss me .

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"What are you you-"Calum and Regan walked into our room while me and Luke while we were in the middle of making out .

"You're already pregnant !" I hurried to pull the covers up over my body .

"Turn around Calum !" Calum covered his eyes and turned around . "Luke hand me my shirt." Luke picked up my shirt off the floor and handed it to me . We both put our shirts back and I went to the bathroom to fix my hair and makeup .

"Can't you hurt the babies by doing something like that ?" Regan walked into the bathroom with me .

"No . They wouldn't even feel it ."

"That's kinda creepy that you know that ."

"Just because I'm pregnant means I can't have sex anymore ."

"Basically ."

"That's not fair ."

"Tell that to your unborn children."

"Ok Regan ." I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the bed .

"Maybe you guys should lock the door next time ."

"Yeah that's the first thing I think about when I want to have sex ."

"Lydia !" Luke shouted at me from across the room .

"What ? It's the truth ."

"While we're still talking about sex, how did you guys have sex and hide it from all of us ?"

"Well when you guys weren't on the tour bus we did it there . So there was no way Kian would find us and you guys were always out partying ."

"Oh wow . I'll remember to tell the twins when they're older, that they were conceived in a tour bus ."

"Yeah, don't tell my kids that . Now why did you guys come here?"

"Oh I wanted to ask Luke if he wanted to go out for a beer ."

"I don't want to leave Lydia ."

"No you need to go and I need to spend some time alone ."

"Ok then . Don't make any rash decisions ."

"I'll try not to ." I kissed him before Calum dragged him out of the room.

"So it's just you and me ."

"Yeah but I think it should be you,me and some very sugary snacks."

"Oh I'll got get some at the little shop downstairs . I'll be back soon." She grabbed her purse and walked out the room . I felt like I should change out of my old clothes into some clean ones so I went into Luke's suitcase . I pulled out his red and black flannel and some black sweatpants . I didn't grab a t-shirt cause I felt like my belly need to breath after being in a tight shirt all day .

When I had finished changing there was a knock on the door so I buttoned up the top three buttons on the flannel and opened the door . I thought It was just Regan but I was wrong .