Torn

Chapter 37

"I need a doctor! You can't have us sit in this room all damn day!"
"Calm down Lydia. Look at Collin."
"Why?"
"Because he is not dying and he is the only thing that keeps you sane." I took a look down at the still sleeping baby in my arms and pushed some of his curly hair out of his face.
"Please just let it be a fever and how are you still sleeping?"
"He sleeps like his mum. Nothing is going to wake him unless he wants to."
"Hi I'm Doctor Archer. What's his name?"
"Collin." She smiled at me and walked over to the crib to look at him.
"How old is he?"
"8 months."
"He's a little small to be 8 months."
"I would say he's a premie but he wasn't born early, he was just born really small and I'm probably rambling now but I'm really nervous because he's my little baby and he's the one I always have to protect from his brother and sister. There can't be anything wrong with my baby, please tell me there's nothing wrong with my baby."
"I will do the best that I can for him. Let me run a couple of tests and I'll let you know."
"Thank you." She took out the needle to take some of his blood and Michael turned my head away so I wouldn't see her stick the needle in his little arm.
"I'm done." I turned back around and grabbed his hand.
"Hey Lyd, Luke's on the phone."
"I'm not in the mood to argue with him."
"He says he doesn't want to argue, he just wants to talk about Collin."
"Oh like he cares about Collin."
"I do care!" Michael put Luke on speaker and set the phone down.
"Whatever Luke. You probably think I'm just overreacting."
"No I think you're being a mother."
"Ok." I picked up the phone and took it off speaker.
"Did you take me off speaker?" Before I answered I walked out of the room and sat on the floor outside of the door.
"Yes. Luke-"
"I'm sorry Lydia, I'm so sorry that I've been distant and that I don't show how much I really love you and the triplets. I'm so sorry Lydia."
"Luke I need you. Being mad at you takes so much out of me and all I want to do is just hug you and hold you when i see the pained look in your eyes as I yell at you. I can't do it anymore. I need you sitting right here next to me to tell me that Collin is gonna be fine and I'm worried for no reason. Just be here Luke. Just be here."
"I'll be there as soon as I can but you really don't have to worry about anything. It's probably just a cold."
"Okay, thank you Luke."
"It's what I'm here for. I'll be there soon. I love you."
"I love you too." I hung up the phone and curled up into a ball.
I was out into the hall for about an hour and I had almost fallen asleep when the doctor came and tapped my shoulder.
"Ms. Irwin."
"Just call me Lydia." I stood up off the floor and faced her.
"Ok Lydia, I ran Collins blood and all he had is an ear infection. Babies get them all the time and usually it just goes away."
"So he's gonna be okay?"
"Yes he's gonna be okay."
"Thank you."
"You're welcome." She handed me some papers and walked away. I went back into the room and say down next to Michael to sign the papers.
"He just has an ear infection."
"That's good."
"Yeah."
"What did Luke say?"
"Nothing."
"I want a baby." Niall was standing over Collins crib and staring at him.
"Really?"
"Maybe, I don't know."
"I think you'd be a good father but you kinda need a girl to help with the baby making process."
"Thank you captain obvious."
"Just saying."
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"Wake up Lydia. We have a plane to catch."
"What?"
"Get up."
"I'm not leaving Collin."
"It's just an ear infection Lyd. Your mum can take care of him. You need a break." I took the pillow from behind me and hit Michael in the face with it.
"Go away."
"We have to take the triplets to Liz's house and then catch our flight."
"I'm waiting on Luke."
"He said he'll meet us at the airport."
"I'm not leaving Collin."
"Yes you are." He threw the covers off the bed and put me over his shoulders.
"Put me down!"
"No. We are leaving in 30 minutes, get the babies dressed."
"You can't make me do anything."
"I knew you were gonna say that's so I already got them ready and dressed to go. That's why I'm carrying you out to the car."
"What? Michael put me down!"
"We're at the car already."
"You sly asshole." He put me down and shoved me into the backseat of the car.
"I really hate you."
"I know you do."
I fell back asleep in the car and didn't wake up till we were at the airport.
"Come on gorgeous. Let's go to Germany." Michael helped me out of the car and with my suitcase.
"When do I get to see Luke?"
"In about 5 seconds." We walked into the airport and Luke was sitting on bench. He stood up when we walked through the doors and smiled. I walked at a normal pace up to him and then wrapped my arms tightly around his waist.
"Hey pretty girl." I started crying because I've been waiting for so long for him to say those words and for him to hug me the way he was hugging me right now.
"Please don't cry. I'm sorry."
"Don't say your sorry anymore Luke."
"Okay."