Torn

Chapter 35

I woke up the next morning to Collin running his hands all over my face. I opened my eyes and he smiled at me.
"Good morning baby."
I slid out of bed and brought him over to the changing table.
"Let's get this nasty diaper changed sweet pea." I got him changed while I hummed him a little melody.
"Can you unlock this door Lydia?" Luke was knocking on the door and trying to coax me out.
"Not until you go away and leave this house."
"That's not happening."
"Then we're not coming out."
"Michael's on his way."
"Then we'll come out when he gets here." He banged on the door on last time, really loud, and walked away.
"Your daddy has changed and I don't like it. Maybe it's cause I had you and your siblings. Or maybe it's cause he doesn't want to settle down. Screw him I have to get you down stairs to eat." I picked him up and brought him downstairs.
"Lydyia-"
"Nope, you don't get to talk to me, I'm tired of you always apologizing and not even meaning it."
"I-"
"No Luke! Do not talk to me!"
"Alright." He walked out of the kitchen and up the stairs.
"Hi babies. How did you sleep last night?" I got a whole bunch of smiles and giggles from them.
"They really are morning people." I felt Michael wrap his arms around me from behind and kiss my cheek.
"Hi Mikey."
"Hey gorgeous. Where's Luke?"
"I don't know and I don't care."
"Wow, you guys are having problems."
"I don't want to talk about it. Can you feed Logan?"
"Sure." He picked up the bowl and started feeding Logan.
"I'm going home in three days and I was wondering if you wanted to go with me?"
"I would love to but what about the babies?"
"They can come with us and your mum can watch them while we have a well needed vacation."
"Vacation?"
"Yes, you need a vacation really badly. You're starting to get frown lines." He poked my forehead and smiled at me.
"Ok. Ok we'll go with you but I can't promise I won't have a hard time leaving them."
"I know Lyd, I know."
-
"So you're leaving me?" I was in my room packing up a bag to go with Michael and Luke stood at the door.
"No, just going on vacation. Without you."
"You're taking my babies."
"Your babies? Really? Your babies? Who carried them for 9 months? Who has watched then every day of their fucking lives and who loves them right now and doesn't regret them!"
"I do NOT regret my kids! What the hell makes you think I regret my own kids?"
"You sit on the couch all damn day and when I ask you to watch one child for one fucking minute you throw a fucking fit. When Dylan called you daddy you back away from here and went to the fucking bar! Yes you do have your moments when you show you love but I can always see the regret on you face. So yes we're leaving you and I don't really want you here when we get back."
"You can't do that! I pay for this house."
"Then we won't come back. I don't give a shit if you pay for this damn house Luke." I pushed him out of the way and walked out of the room. I went downstairs and watched Michael play with the triplets. I sat down on the couch behind him and let him lean back on in between my legs.
"I love them."
"And they love you." I started to play with his hair and putting it into different styles.
"What's going on with you and Luke?"
"Nothing."
"Don't you dare tell me all that yelling was nothing." I jumped out of my seat when I heard the door slam, making me knee Michael in the head.
"Oh my god! I'm so sorry!" He got up off the floor and walked over to the kitchen.
"It's fine. It's just a little blood."
"Bring some napkins and I'll clean it up."
"Fine." He came back with the roll of paper towels and sat down on the couch.
"Now move your hand."
"There's gonna be blood."
"Shut up and move your hand." He moved his hand and it was just a small cut with a little bit of blood coming out.
"It's not that much blood mikey."
"That's good. I'm not dying." I hit him in his chest and put a bandaid on his cut.
"Don't talk about dying again, okay?"
"Okay."
"So I heard that there's gonna be this pretty young mum on our tour and I wanted to see how hot she was before the other guys got her first."
"Niall!" I jumped up of the couch and jumped into his arms.
"Hey gorgeous."
"That's my line!" I wrapped my legs around his torso and hugged him tight.
"Sorry bro." I heard Niall laugh into my hair and then he moved it out of his way.
"What are you doing here?"
"Michael said you were coming on tour so I came to come with you to bring the triplets to your mums house." I put my feet back on the ground and let go of him.
"Wait, that's my vacation? Another tour?"
"Yeah. It was really to only way to get you away from Luke an the babies for just a little while."
"But if I want to stay and explore a place you'll stay with me?" I looked at Michael on the couch.
"Yes, I'll stay with you."
"Ok. I have to put them to sleep an finish packing."
"Do you need any help?"
"Yeah mikey Dylan likes you so take her and give her the bottle, she'll go right to sleep. Niall you do the same thing with Logan."
"Got it."
-
"You really do have a schedule." Niall came and sat on the end of my bed while I finished packing my suitcase.
"I like schedules. They keep me focused."
"I can tell. So where's Luke?"
"The bar probably."
"I'm sorry."
"What are you sorry about?"
"About how unhappy you are."
"I'm still happy Ni. I've got three amazing reasons to be happy every single day. I don't let him bring me down."
"You're very strong."
"Can we stop all the serious talk?"
"Yeah it's kinda weird."
"Yeah so where are we going after Australia?"
"I think Sweden and Germany."
"So I should pack warm clothes?"
"Yep but I could always be your jacket?" He winked at me and raised his eyebrow at me.
"Just shut up weirdo." I threw my sweatshirt at him and watched him fall backwards on the bed.
"What time do they usually wake up?"
"Three."
"And our flight is at 6."
"We'll be ready by 4."
"Do they walk yet?"
"Logan walks but he won't walk to anyone when you call his name, just whenever he feels like it. Which is very frustrating when you want him to stay in one spot."
"Oh wow."
"What?"
"You're a mum. The party girl I met two years ago is a mum."
"I was not a party girl."
"You were a party girl." Michael came into the room and sat on the bed next to Niall.
"Nope."
"You went to every party there was and were drunk every night."
"Whatever
"We're just saying, don't get all defensive."
"I'm not!"
"You seriously are."
"Ok whatever. I need a nap before they wake up."
"Then sleep. You don't need our permission."
"You're taking up my bed." They made room in between them and patted the spot.
"Fine but if anyone kicks me I'm kicking them back." I got into the bed and made myself comfortable.
"Do you want me to sing or turn on some music?"
"Sing."
"What do you want us to sing?"
"Anything that Luke hasn't written."
"How about little things?"
"Sure."
"Your hand fits in my like it's made just for me but bear this in mind it was meant to be."
"And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks and it all makes sense to me."