Disconnected

Chapter one (When the truth was revealed)

Chapter one: When the truth was revealed.

 five years earlier. 

(Carmen's POV) 

I don't remember too much about that day, I was only thirteen and my family never talks about it. It's the silent rule, don't talk about what happened on December fourteenth. My family never talks about anything though, maybe that's why I'm so messed up.

I call December fourteenth: The day when the truth was revealed.

I don't know if I had ever cried so hard in my life, I thought that day was the worst of my life maybe it was, maybe it wasn't. I still don't know, because even though the pain of that day haunts my memories I have others that haunt my thoughts in general.

It was just another day for me, I got up at six-thirty-two AM. I took a quick shower, ate my breakfast and went to school. The day wasn't a particularly cold one, so I just threw on a light jacket and ran out the door. My sister, Brittney was driving me to school she was wearing a turtleneck, it was long sleeved, naturally. She was silent the entire drive to my middle school, which wasn't strange for me. But I think it would be for any two normal sisters.

I got out of the car mumbled a thank you. I was too focused on my stupid crush to realize something was wrong, I was that girl who had a crush on the impossible guy, I was convinced he'd become prom king one day. But how wrong was I on that one is sad. His name was his downfall of popularity, Kent Clarkson. figured it out yet? Yes his name was backwards to super man's; Clark Kent and Kent Clarkson what were his parents thinking? Yeah the name wasn't so cool after middle school.

I watched Kent cross the parking lot, instead of watching my sister's car pull away. Kent was smiling even though he had a lot of friends at school. He was basically the school biggest joke the amount of bad puns that were made for his name was unreal. But somehow I liked him, somehow I thought he might like me back; this was before I learned you can't just like anyone, and you should never put your heart out there. This all was before I learned the goal was to be "popular". I often wonder what would have happened, if I had said something to Kent, if I tried to at least be his friend, but the thing is; I didn't, I didn't even try. He treated me like dirt didn't even know me well when he treated me like dirt in a year to come.

Anyway the day went on slowly, I said, "Hi" to all my friends I had an English test, I totally flunked. Pretty much nothing happened it was seventh period when I knew something was wrong, my oldest sister picked me up not Brittany, Ashley.

I got into Ashley's car. Then, I knew something was really wrong, her massacre was all over her face like she had been crying she was supposed to be at soccer practice, and finally she was biting on her lip like it was a freaking piece of gum.

"What's wrong?" I asked, my voice breaking with fear.

"Mom will--" Ashley's own sob cut her off, after a minute she tried again, "Mom," deep Inhale, again, "will tell you." Another sob, "When we go home." is sounded more like a sob then a sentence.

I was worried she'd get in a car crash, she was driving so fast. "Okay," I said calmly, even though I was the exact opposite. I was scared, I was freaking scares out of my mind.

The drive lasted an eternity, but we didn't go home we went to the hospital. "Why are we ... " I trailed off seeing my sister, Ashely's face I knew better than to ask her. She parked the car I felt a sinking feeling in my chest, I couldn't even breathe correctly. We made our way to the hospital's entrance, as we walked through the doors of the emergency area it was there I saw mother.

I ran up to her, "Mom what's wrong?" I asked, I could hear the fear in my voice.

"Brittany tried to kill herself." My mom said in a voice that was calm, disconnected like it wasn't her life right now, like she wasn't experiencing this. it scarred me I was only thirteen. I didn't know what to think.