The Writer (AU)

Chapter Twenty Six- Face your fears

Songs: Ed Sheeran- I'm a mess

Still Harry's POV:

She ran her hands over my chest, fumbling with my belt and unbuttoning my pants. Her breathing was calmer than I expected and I shrugged my pants off onto the floor. I placed a kiss on her lips before moving to her jaw, neck, and torso, leaving a small love bite below her collar bone. Hearing her breathing accelerate, I slightly smiled and kissed down her stomach, stopping just above where her leggings clung to her hips. Slowly pulling them down her long, tan legs, I relished in her perfume that filled the air. Running my nose along her skin as I made my way back toward her face, her long fingers entangled in my hair and I kissed her with all my might. My hands unclasped her bra and she shrugged it off before I tossed it on the floor. Softly kissing just above where her heart was, she pulled my face up.

"I hate my boobs. Just ignore them," she blushed a fierce red.

"Why do you hate them?" I laughed.

"Because I just do. My nipples are weird," she groaned.

"You're crazy," I chuckled, shaking my head before slowly placing my mouth around one of them. Placing a kiss to the other one, I continued to chuckle. "They're not weird."

"Nice undies," I teased, inching my fingers into them before removing them as she gasped and her eyes closed; hoping she'd lighten up a little bit. Hearing her giggle, I knew my mission had been successful.

"Nice boner," she replied. "Keep teasing and I'm not gonna take care of that."

"I love you," I laughed. I just couldn't stop saying it. She kissed me with a muffled chuckle and she had visibly calmed. Feeling her hands at the top of my boxers, I thought I was going to burst. Finally pulling them down my legs, she kept her eyes closed. Kissing her forehead with a laugh, I looped my fingers in the corners of her underwear and slowly pulled them off. Things had slowed down once again and nothing felt rushed. Rather, it felt right. I watched her sigh shakily as I pressed my forehead to hers and kissed her as tenderly as I could.

"Do you have a condom?" I asked, my voice sounding almost childlike.

"We don't need one," she whispered.

"What?"

"I'm on birth control. It helps with my period because I get bad cramps," she explained.

"Oh." Silence filled the air around us and nothing but our breathing could be heard. My eyes closed and I could feel her heart beating against her chest hard and fast.

"I'm not going to hurt you," I whispered, genuinely meaning it. It was her first time and I'd have to control myself.

"I know."

"You have to tell me if it hurts."

"Okay. Taking a deep breath, I pushed into her. She inhaled sharply and I opened my eyes to see her chest quickly rising and falling.

"It hurts," she whimpered.

"I know, baby, I know. It'll all be okay in a few minutes. I've got to move," I replied as comfortingly as I could.

"Okay." Pulling back from her, Ellie again inhaled sharply and I kept my pace slow until her facial expression finally relaxed.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes." I laced my fingers with hers and kissed her passionately, just to let her know that I was there with her and everything was going to be okay. Remembering my first time, I was worse than she was. Looking down at her, her skin was flushed and her mouth slightly agape.