Plain L.H.☯

If you dont know☽

Luke hemmings-

When I took that glance at her, the make up that she wore my guess foundation and I bet it was Isabelle's because that day her face skin didn't match her body's skin color, it was a darker shade.

I could see it smearing along with the mascara she wore. I know I screwed up, and I know pointing out the oblivious on her, had her taken back, wondering how I knew.

Maybe pointing that out was just my chance to make her know she couldn't put all the blame on me, I was tired with that kind of that weight on my shoulders. Now I lay her in bed wishing the pain that seemed to increases on my chest would vanish soon.

It's been two days, I didn't even have the chance to see or asks were she was going and I know I should of chased after her. Caitlin did come back that night though, later though, really late she left along with the shirt she always took.

That day her farther woke up confused not knowing who I was. At least he didn't bug me, he did asks me a few times about his daughter but I wouldn't answer.

The year I've been away, I always wonder if she slept the same, would she still cuddle into me, or when I wake up from the kick of her feet on my rib. Did she still drool on my chest, just how it was to fall asleep next to her.

Yesteday I found an album of her, one I never saw before,

'When you miss me'

It was most of them of us kissing or laughing. One of us in the corner of the chair cuddling close into one another as the fire was taking place in front of us. Most of her being an absolute insane girl, I remember one though, the pictures I took of her sleeping some had words written on them like "stalker", creep", "weirdo".

Her dreams were of her and me in a beautiful house raising the cutest children growing old together, no fights including though. So what do I do when my friends tell me everyday to hang out with them and I turn them down.

When I hear her name from her farther, it's too early for it and it hurts to know she's probably in Blake's arms crying. Just crying, continuos tears streaming down her face, never ending.

So yeah you could basically say I wish I woke up with amnesia, cause that's what I want. I don't want to hurt, I don't want to remember her, I don't want to be reminded to make the girl I love cry.

I don't know how to find that 'romance' in me that died over the year, how can I find that guy again, he's done over with.

She can help me find him i know she can.

"I want you to want me this way,

and I need you to need me to stay.

If you say that you don't feel a thing,

if you don't know then just let me go."

Walking out with my keys in one hand and my phone in my pocket I walked out.

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"You would scream, we would fight, you would call me crazy. I would laugh You were mad but you'd always kiss me. And the shirt that I had that you always borrowed, when I woke it was gone, there was no tomorrow."

My only chance was to knock on Caroline's door, with a tap the door was pulled open. Carol at the door rubbing her eyes and yawning, when she was done, she went to push it close but I stopped the door.

"Just let me explain to her." I asked no, pleaded. I really needed this, she nodded pointing up stairs, my guess it was a guest room.

I didn't even knock I just walked in, flicking the lights on her groaning.

"I love you, I know I screwed up. I'm okay, I'm owning up to it. Your favorite songs yet hate because they always make you cry are, say something, because of you, forever and always, iris, what hurts the most, she will be loved-"

"What does this have to do with anything luke go." She said standing up, "shut up just please let me say this. I remember the way I felt when I rolled over that night only to think you were there because you came home, wrapped in my arms that night, and the way you look you had those eyes. I can't live my life wondering how it will go on without you because when I'm with you it's something beautiufl"

I moved closer with every word, she backed up, hitting into the wall. She was wearing that green day shirt she always wore, witch was gone along with all of her. "I want you, to want me this way,"

"I need you to need me to stay" I let my head lean closer placing her lips on mine, she captured my neck pulling me into her. I let my tongue slip as if her lips still weren't good enough, pushing her more into the wall, pick her up as her legs wrapped around my torso

Her hands trailed back Into my stray hair, combing through it. Finally I pulled away looking up with her, "what did you feel?"

"I-I"

"If you don't know, let me go"

When I left to drop her, she still hung onto my neck and her grip hugged tight agents my waste.

"This right here-" she lent her forehead into mine smiling and bitting her lip, "is love."