Angels and Death

chapter 20 'HOW COULD I NOT?..."

CHAPTER 20. "HOW COULD I NOT?..."

Samantha Thomas©2010

SAMANTHA.

I waited in fear for his reply, for its huge possibility being 'No', I couldn't-I just couldn't handle that right now Tiffs life was hanging in the balance here. "Jace please, she needs you...I-please come." I couldn't say it, it was too low of thing for me to do even as these circumstances lay before us. I heard his defeated exhale, "I'm on my way." and 'click' as the phone hung up. I hadn't realized my body was strung so tight and rigid, when I exhaled hard stressing such complete relief that my body went down shuddering in pain.

I dropped the phone on the floor and went straight to Tiffany. She was still in bad shape, I mean it had been only 3 minutes tops since this all happened. What the hell was in there? Tiff coughed, and was wheezing weirdly the sounds releasing from her were not normal at all, "S-Sam!" I heard my name and quickly realized those weird wheezing sounds were Tiffany trying to speak, so I bent down to her mouth to have a better listen, "Tiff, Tiff I'm here, don't worry help is coming. I promise your going to be ok. So please just chill and wait, don't hurt yourself further," I tried to tell her to stop, she was still wheezing and gurgling, "Sh...utup and list...en damn it,"

I thought that me trying to stop her was absolutely useless, and by doing so was causing her more harm and energy so I shut my stupid mouth and let her talk, "What? I'm listening Tiff, sorry..." "Loo...kat the...package. Wh...atwas it?" "Tiff I haven't looked but, it was weird three things just popped right out of the thin air like-like magic." I knew what she was going to say next so I saved her, her breath and went to the scene of the crime to find out what they were.

At first glance they looked small and not much, but the closer I got the more fear I felt, and the discomfort just continued to grow and when I picked each of the items up and was face to face with them my heart just... stopped.

The first object was a gold feather. The next was a-a men's ring, and lastly, the very last thing was a burnt picture of my mother and my brother who passed away. The entire picture was charred except for the two of them, and out of all these objects was the only one I knew and the one that made the least sense out of all this nonsense. This was a picture of my brother right before he OD'd (over dosed) I mean literally, two hours later he was gone. I felt my eyes prick and soon the tears escaped, falling in silence in remembrance at the tragedy before me. He was gone to soon.

"Sam," I heard Tiff call my name, I went to her numbly. "Tiff none of this makes sense, I don't know what's going on, I just don't know! None of this makes any sense! It's a fricken' men's ring, a dumb ass gold feather, and a charred picture of my mom and Jamie, I just wish I knew what the hell was going on!" "AHHHH!" I screamed out in anger I was on the brink of insanity and my hold on profanity's was wearing thin, it was so hard not to swear! It was so hard not to go around smashing things, and hurting myself. It was hard to not crawl into a ball, back myself into a dark corner screaming and crying and rock myself to madness.

My life-I was normal once things were great for me just last year! How and why is this happening to me? To Tiff? "Did I do something wrong? God tell me! Did I do something wrong?" I yelled to above, it was purposeless, I'd never receive an answer, I know but didn't care. Just then I heard a car door slap shut, and smacks on the driveway getting louder as they approached my front door. My door bell sounded off and I heard pounding on the door next to, "Samantha! Its Jace open up!" with my dried, blood-encrusted hands, I swiped the tears from my eyes and they scratched the skin making more tears.

I open the door, and immediately Jace grabs a hold of my arms. Even though, he acted urgently he wasn't hurting me, and he took in his surroundings. He sucked in a huge breath in shock I suppose, and runs his hand threw my hair moving it out of my face before asking, "Are you alright? Oh my god! What the hell happened?" I sniffed and replied, "I'm alright I think, for now anyways but forget me. Tiff she's the one who needs you, come on," I tried to turn away and head towards her direction, but he stopped me and the pained look in his eyes held me still, that and his hold on me. He looked so sad, so concerned, so confused, then that look came back into his eyes, the one were he looks like he's fighting something inside and he gritted his teeth and let me go to set towards Tiffany.