I Found What I Was Missing

Chapter 58: Everything Was Going Great, Until It Wasn't

Everything Was Going Great, Until It Wasn't

He hated their new base, it was dark and smelt quite terrible. He never thought he'd miss their little bar hideout, but it was so much better than the warehouse they were staying at now. At least the place had electricity, that was one positive thing, he supposed.

Dabi sighed, tilting his head back to look up at the stars, the summer's breeze ruffling his hair. He had heard rumours that his mother had been discharged from the hospital.

At first, he had worried that she had gone back to their shitty old man, but after he stalked through his siblings’ social media, he found out that she had moved in with Fuyumi and apparently Natsuo had a girlfriend.

He was a little disheartened when he saw how little Shoto posted things online, so he'd decided it was only reasonable for him to stalk Shoto's friends. That kid, Shinso Hitoshi; posted even less than Sho did.

The kid they kidnapped a few years ago didn't post as much, mostly just updates on his hero career and a few selfies with his mates. Kirishima posted quite a bit, and random things, too, like food, pictures of cats and photos of his mates sleeping or when they were unaware.

Kaminari unsurprisingly posted a lot of selfies and photos of his friends. Hell, it seemed he even had a few photos posted of Midoriya's parents. He carefully scrutinized these photos; he couldn't remember Midoriya's apartment having a swimming pool.

He decided to stalk through Izuku's social media then, going quite far back and found out a few interesting facts. Apparently, his family spent Christmas with All Might, Izuku, his mates and parents as well as a blond woman and brunette man.

His mother looked extremely happy in the photo, he noted as he saved it to his phone. Fuck, even his father had a small smile on his lips. Natsu and Fuyumi looked pretty content, too, and Shoto, fuck, he can barely remember the last time his baby brother had looked so bright eyed and happy.

He closed his eyes, breathing in deeply through his nose as memories of a somewhat happier time flashed through his mind. Dabi had always looked after Sho before his quirks manifested.

He had been such a happy boy back then, his eyes and smile were never brighter, and as cliché as it might sound, Shoto could light up a room with his smile. He had certainly lit up Dabi's life.

Was it the same now? Would he feel overwhelming joy and warmth if Shoto smiled at him again? It didn't matter, because the next time Shoto sees him, Dabi will be covered in their father's blood and handcuffed as he gets taken away.

His hand clenched into a fist as he frowned. He needed to steel his heart, he couldn't lose his cool in the middle of the fight, he couldn't lose his nerve halfway simply because Shoto was there.

The last time he had seen Sho--the first time as being a villain, the villain Dabi, when he took Bakugo and taunted his little brother--he had nearly lost all of his nerve at the sheer look of panic and despair on his face.

Dabi silently vows to himself that he'd at least try not to hurt any of Shoto's friends, it was bad enough what they had planned already, so he would try his best not hurt his little brother any more.

Dabi entertains himself at times with thoughts of how his life could have turned out if his mother had just left Endeavour before the damage could be done. He'd likely be a hero now, too; at least, that's what he thinks.

Shoto was a pretty good hero, nothing like their father. His baby brother was probably trying to be a hero like All Might. Dabi was secretly rooting for him, although he probably doesn't even know, or remember that he existed as his brother.