Coldmess

Half an hour left

{Asher's Pov}

I watched the episodes of extreme cakes unabashedly though only two days were remaining before the entrance test for med school.

One might even call me shameless or careless and trust me, I myself thought so but I had no choice. With the exam due in two days I needed to gather the best of my moods that I could and keep myself level-headed. I'd dreamt oh so not joyfully about Cason.

The dream had strung too many sad notes in my heart for my liking and I couldn't help but feel cloudy as the dream mercilessly played itself in my mind again and again.

I'd dreamt of being with Cas in a train, in a compartment like that in Harry Potter, and we were happy, sharing a saffron cream icecream together, atleast I was; until Cas left me alone in the cabin to finish the too huge bowl. I kept eating as I waited for his return but my curiosity and worry for his sudden trip led me out of the cabin and my foot led me to another cabin where I felt my heart being shred to a million pieces as Cas gave me an indifferent look while he did the dirty with... With a guy who I identified as Daniel in the dream.

I remembered how I'd bursted into tears and ran away to the door, throwing the bowl outside on a platform from the racing train as I felt frustrated, angry and claustrophobic.

Finally, by grace I was able to get out of my torturous slumber. I had been shirtless and whole of my bare chest, abdomen and back were drenched in sweat. My damp hair were stuck to my forehead and my bedsheet was clammy from my perspiration. I felt a salty liquid trickle down to my cracked lips signalling that I had been crying when I sat up resting my wettish back on the headboard.

After dry heaving for a minute, I'd seen my mobile which read that it was 3:12 am in the morning and I reached to my bed stand to get some water for my parched throat. After that I had tossed and turned in my bed until the break of dawn and all I felt was hurt and numbness.

Thankfully, Nandy had called and tried cheering me up after I told her. She was worried for me since the exam was just around the corner and she motivated me enough to find a solution.

The amazing cakes that I saw being baked by professional bakers round the world delighted my heart and distracted my mind enough and after binge watching the show for five hours straight, I managed to put away the thoughts and the feelings that the tormentous dream had aroused.

The rest of the day was spent by me in eating too much food, what? I happen to stress eat alright... And if I don't do that then I stop eating decent amount of food for months together.

The next day, my mother's friend, Carole, who was something in church as a part time job, visited us. I don't exactly know what she is so eh...

She was a little older than my mother and they had become best of friends in their workplace, she and my mom shared spiritual interests and I didn't mind it unless they made it too religious for my taste. As I've said, I'm not an atheist but I don't restrict God to the form of Jesus alone, for me, every particle has some energy in it that's the part of a higher consciousness who I term as God.

Nonetheless she'd come to stay with us until my exam. Apparently, she was here to comfort and calm my mother's nerves instead of mine even if my mom said otherwise. I wasn't feeling as much pressure though as I should have, like when in my final examinations. I rather felt a bit confident but more detached than anything else. I just hope someone above loves me enough and will help me pass this test so my mom and dad are happy and I can move away to someplace where I'm most probably thinking of getting a self discovery phase or something. I mean usually when Wattpad characters move away to a new place they discover new things about themselves, hopefully so will I; but for that, I needed to qualify... I have my fingers crossed.