Coldmess

Forever 21

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{Asher's Pov}

"It was Cason you were avoiding, wasn't it?" A low growling voice said behind me.

I froze as I heard the unsubtle growl in that voice. I felt too shocked to react and blood drained from my cheeks as I kept staring ahead into nothingness, the question repeating in my head again and again but more importantly I felt afraid of the accusing voice I had heard.

I don't really know what I was afraid of, there were too many things to fear, would I get beaten, had anyone else found out, had my parents found out, had Cason told everyone and if he did, did he reciprocate me but of all these fears, the most prominent was, would I loose Zeus's friendship.

I know, I've only been friends with Zeus for a really short time, though we've known each other since almost a month, we'd actually become friends less than a week ago and I cursed myself to feel so attached to someone who I didn't even know much about. But again, I'd fallen for someone who though an old friend, was still a mystery to me.

I took a deep breath, feeling the heavy tension in the air. Though I didn't turn back, I could feel the boring gaze of Zeus on my head. I gulped slowly as I unwillingly began to turn back. It felt as if all the noise from the hyper crowd, not too far was blurred in the background. All I could hear was the silent whistle of the winter wind and the loud thumping of my heart.

A thought crossed my mind that very moment, How did Zeus know? I finally turned around as goosebumps rose on my hands.

Zeus stood there, looking at me intensely, waiting for a reply. His face masked by the shadows that the backstage lights behind him caused. It reminded me of the time I'd seen Cas around midnight while dropping off Armond. The memory made me clench my jaw and I groaned pushing the thought aside.

I had to do this, if Zeus was so desperate to know the truth, he'd find it out directly from me. Yes, he was a good friend to me and I didn't wanna loose him but if he really was a good friend, he'd accept it the way Ive and Faith had, if not, I wouldn't care less cause then I'd know that he never really was worth the trust.

My recent experience with Doris had broken me initially but it also strengthened my spirit. I wasn't going to be ashamed of who I am, it was my decision to pursue Cason eventhough it was a lost cause. I never knew that doing so would only reveal my true feelings to me but I was done repenting.

"Yes, it was Cason I was avoiding" I said in a flat tone. Though my shivering body betrayed my resolve to take this situation strongly, I was thankful to have so expressive eyes for the first time, cause they definitely wouldn't.

I had cried incessantly too much over my one sided love and a lost friendship, no more. I was gonna let every person close to me know if they asked henceforth.

Yes, telling my parents would still take me sometime but I resolved to tell them eventually if it were needed. No, I wasn't ashamed to tell them or afraid of being disowned, this thought had already went through me after the reunion and I'd accepted it. I wasn't going to tell them just cause I'd try to postpone the eventual hurt they were gonna go through.

"Why were you avoiding him?" Zeus asked in a demanding tone. I had been used to be a meek person almost all my life since third grade. Before that, though silent, I'd been a fairly agressive person and I didn't really know what snapped in me, but something did and I was shocked to hear the menace in my voice, of which I was unaware until now.

"Why do you wanna know..." I had intended it to be a question but I came out more as an statement. The nervousness in me was slowly fading away and in it's place, I could feel anger pulsating through my veins.