Behind My Smile

A Poem with No Name

Seeing my reflection,
I wanted to be independent and strong
I said I'd make it when I'm alone
But now I know I don't want to be alone for long

Tears are streaming,
For mistakes I've never made
I keep on blaming myself
Till all my memories fade

I'm left with nothing to hope for,
Because everything will make me a disgrace to them
I'm forced to do what I don't want to
I figured out the reality of myself, I'm such a dumb

I don't want to be alone
I don't want to live alone
Even if the ones I'm surrounded with
Will leave me or turn to stone

I don't want to be a disgrace
I don't want to live in such a maze
I can't cope with everything I'm in
Yet I'll always live in this phase

I scream and I cry,
Until all people look and stare
I think anyone will show some sympathy
But they go away and never care

All I ever want, is to never be alone
I want to be surrounded with anyone
I want to know if I can reach the sunlight
But in the end, I walk and reach none

I don't want to feel lonely
I want someone to listen even if they're faking it
I don't want to feel rejected
But I give up and I eventually quit

So I write what I feel,
In a poem with no name
Because no one will notice it
No one will feel the same

Sometimes, you can't just speak up about what's bothering you. As for me, I just let poetry break the chains around me.

Hope you like it!!! 😊