The Story of Steps

Work and meetings

Faye:

We just returned from a successful meeting with Pete and his mates. For our new album we plan something special: each one of us will co-write a song where we specifically will sing the lead. Its no lie how fond we all are on this great idea! These guys who work on this new album with us are fantastic, finally the rest of us get the chance to be on the lead too - especially Lisa and me are singing a lot in our new songs. We also celebrated with them since our latest song was so good in the charts! The song is called 'Here and now' and was really entertaining to film. Yes, we weren't travelling this time as it was filmed in a simple studio again; in fact it was filmed in some sort of field - but we liked it. There also was a part two called 'You'll be sorry' and now we're working on our own songs.

"Lost in your thoughts again?"

I shrug slightly when H kicks my foot, as he always uses to do when sitting next to me. I frown at him, irritated, before answering. "Yes. What did you say?" I ask, knowing that he probably asked me something I didn't give answered him to.

"I asked you if you're secretly admiring this guy who's writing your song."

Well. This is something else great in our band. As previously mentioned, we're all co-writing a song for our album with a singer working on it with us. Lisa for example chose Johnny of course as he was in a band himself and knows how to work on a song. 

I met a singer, a rock singer yet again to be exact - despite it's not going to be a rock song but rather a ballad. Nevertheless we get along fairly well and it's no lie that I like him a lot. In fact I would even say that I might be in love with him - but I don't intend on telling the others, considering the fact that I don't know what they would say. Maybe things like 'Why a rock singer?' or 'Do you really think he's nice?' or things like that. They probably would talk him down, still being a bit worried when it comes to me fancying someone. Also, maybe it would truly be the best idea to just ignore my slight feelings for this man - knowing how my last relationship was. However, and surprisingly, it's H who seems to know that my thoughts are somewhere else.

"Faye!" he says, now waving his hands in front of my eyes.

"What?" I ask confused.

"Were you even listening to what anyone of us was saying?"

"No. No, I wasn't listening and I'm sorry for that." I admit shyly, looking somewhere else and knowing what H must be thinking now. Obviously he loves to tease me about this guy.

"Look, she's thinking about-" H starts to talk, but I interrupt him.

"No, I dont!" I say angrily, my cheeks blushing from being so angry.

"But you're blushing. I knew it, you like him!"

"Shut up!" I shout.

"Faye!" Lee warns me. "That wasn't nice."

"Sorry. I'm sorry H, that was really rude." I say, surprised by my own outburst. H gladly seems like he doesn't mind and also we arrive with the band car at my house; meaning that H or the others could ask anything else. I quickly wave them, seeing them waving back, before I make my way towards the house.

I close the door, brushing over my still slightly blushed cheeks. Why do I behave like this? That's the question I can't answer. H is saying the truth, I was thinking about this guy and in fact, I still do think about him. I like him, yes. But what if he's like - I bit my lip when thinking about this question - what if he's like Travis? 

Now I can literally feel the smile dropping from my face, as I seem to finally understand my own thoughts. The thoughts I don't want to talk or think about. Yes, what if he's like Travis? Who acted nice when we met, who seemed like the perfect guy - a man I wanted to be mine and who wanted me to be his. I remember how cute he literally was when Steps and his band met at this tv show and how we were flirting with each other. How he was literally spoilinh me and wanted to buy everything he wanted me to have. Or how he wanted us to move together after we litetally just met and how suspicious Claire was about Travis when I told the band about this relationship. I thought that Claire was just jealous.