I had been asleep for so long that when I finally woke up I felt so detached from reality. It felt like a dream just like it had been when i found out I was pregnant. My eyes opened to see my daughter who was sitting on a chair in the room. This time when I made an attempt to speak, the words actually came out.
"Christy! Christy!"
She sleepily answered and when her eyes opened, she jerked up from the chair and threw her hands around me.
"thank God you recognized me mom, I was afraid when they said something happened to your head again"
It felt good having my daughter in my arms again. She withdrew and ran outside to get the others. I could hear her yelling "she's awake! she's awake"
The ruckus behind the door made me understand that they all had been waiting outside my room. Mother barged in, followed by Christian, his wife Justina and my sisters. It felt weird but that was the thought that came into my mind.
Aaron stood behind his mother and only then did I think of his connection to my daughter. My daughter now had two cousins. Looking at them hurdles together staring at me made me realize how unlucky I had been.
My baby would have had two aunts and an uncle who liked betting against children. A grandma with a good sense of humor. He would have felt loved, but I had lost him.
After all the years it took me to get pregnant, I had lost my baby because of my husband's infidelity and a psycho. I couldn't fight the tears that left my eyes, the heartache was too much. My baby died and there was nothing I could do about it. What was the point of coming back to life just to go through pain much worse than the first time.
The reason for all this was no where to be seen in the room. Something deep inside me felt so much rage towards him and his absence made it worse. It was because of him that I lost our baby.
"Vicky stop crying inugo" my brother bent down to grab my hand and Christy sat beside him.
"I lost my baby!, she watched me lose my baby!"
It's okay mom" Christy whispered
Tears began to form in Christy's eyes and she reached out to wipe mine.
Mother and Christian exchanged a look and I knew immediately what they conversed with their eyes.
"I know, I know daddy didn't make it too, I was there when h.. he died". The statement came with another flood of tears and this time, everyone joined in.
Where is Charles?, I questioned after the tears stopped flowing.
I looked for him, I couldn't find him mom"
"he was so scared for you, he didn't take the news about your condition well" Christian added
I only nodded and kept quiet. My eyes began to stare at the ceiling and somehow I became sleepy again.
Mother sat close to me and held my hand. While Christian and the others exited the room. Mother had been crying, I could see that from her puffy eyes and red nose. Mother was in pain just like I was, everyone was in pain.
" nne, forgive me for not telling you all these years. I just couldn't get myself to do so"
"it's fine, it's not your fault, there's nothing to forgive" I gave her a weak smile before she stood up.
A nurse came to check on me, the blood that was being transfused had finished and the plasma was what I could see in the plastic bag.
"she needs to get enough rest" the woman voiced out after mother turned to leave. But as the two women found the door another man entered the room. Someone I didn't even know, knew that I was in the hospital.
"how are you feeling Mrs Victoria?"
"not dead" I replied trying so hard not to cry. He in a way reminded me of so many things, I dove into storm but ended below the sea. There were no islands just darkness.
"I am supposed to retire next week but I just had to help out with the rescue. You've become a friend that I've grown so attached to. You made my job easy and I apologize for the mistakes on my part. My boys and I should have been more vigilant.
If not for the overwhelmingly annoying weakness, I would have laughed so hard.
Mr Ajayi was sounding very strange.. "how is your wife?" I asked him hoping to draw him back to reality.
"she's very well, even better now that I'll be retiring"
"does it mean I won't be having any more sessions with you?"
"affirmative Mrs Victoria, you see I have never been a therapist. I am a force man in easy terms. My job had been to protect you after the incident of your shooting and when we couldn't get more information we decided to try something else, to see if we could extract useful information from you. Our sessions were not for healing, they were for extraction of information. I had been chosen to handle the sessions because we couldn't find a suitable shrink at that time. I started out with you and even when we did discover a good therapist you had become comfortable with me. Funny enough the sessions also paid off. You also appreciated my hobby of collecting artwork and I started using them to also reach out to you. Staying in that office and helping you solve your problems made me realize how useful I could be in that area. So I want to thank you for giving my life a meaning. I plan on going back to school become a psychologist maybe I can help more people. Thank you for also appreciating my paintings Mrs Victoria.
My ears absorbed all he said but I just couldn't believe it.
He brought out two packages he had been holding. One was a painting I knew so well. A painting of the butterfly from the caterpillar which brought back memories for me.
My wife insisted that I give you a painting from my collection. She says it is a gift for helping us get to this point. The retirement would have been worse on me.
"I should be the one giving you a gift, the angel who rescued me"
He smiled"i am no angel Mrs Victoria, but maybe you are. You seem to always survive"
"your wife gave me one gift, there's two here"
He squeezed my hand before walking away. When he turned the knob of the door he turned back and spoke.
"a souvenir from the past and a present for the future Mrs Victoria"
He walked out leaving me puzzled.
I woke up again much later and I felt the presence of someone I knew too well. All the rage and pain that had momentarily subsided when Mr Ajayi came were aggravated and all I could think of was how much I hated the man in that room.
The man who's infidelity and psychotic baggage almost got me killed twice.
He reached out for my hand and held it and at that moment everything felt different. I could see his eyes but I felt nothing this time. My hand withdrew from his and he sat beside me. I just couldn't say the words in my heart, there were too many things I wanted to tell him and all I could think of was how cold I felt on the inside. There was nothing left inside of me, atleast no feelings for him.
It wasn't the weather or the chilly room that made me cold, it was the fact that an emptiness was deep in my soul, a vacuum had been created in my heart.
Mr Ajayi was right after all, I did need my past to make the decision I was about to make.
A decision I should have made a long time ago. Charles should have received this Ice parcel from me.
Charles... " I began
The thought of the things he accused me of and the thought of our baby that he had doubted his paternity resurfaced and made me even more convinced that I was doing the right thing. He never believed the baby was ours maybe that's why God took him back.
I stared into those eyes that made me love this man so much and I could see nothing.
"I want a divorce"
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