Nurul Qalbi

chapter thirty-six

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We arrived at his parents house.. But because on the incident that happened the twins were very skeptical to open up to people... I was very surprised they did not meet us with scorn on their faces like some myopic people that think they can hate a woman because she is divorced and have kids, they treated us like a newly married virgin bride.. I smiled forcefully and tried as much as possible to register peoples name without having to ask them again and sound rude..

We distributed the gifts to everyone and surprisingly he accorded the gifts to my name and i had to start listening to a earful of thank yous..after eating lunch his mother beckoned on me to her bedroom.. I was scared of what was going to transpire between us..

"Halima.. I beseech your forgiveness...we acquired a new tie from a way that is not the best of way.. Please forgive us.. Dont blame him wallahi..i myself was so surprised when he told me he was getting married on the day of the marriage.. No prior notice"

I squirmed as i felt uncomfortable..

"my daughter look up at me dont be shy.. I know how you are feeling right now but look up at me.."

I managed to raise my head and let out a small smile..

"words cannot express how much i was happy when i heard Muhammad got married...it has been years and i lost all hope thinking he will never find happiness..but Alhamdulilah it can see he has with you and your kids.. He has not been this way for so many years now.. Please Halima take care of him for me as a mother to another mother and also her daughter.. He is my happiness and i always languish in pain whenever he becomes distant with me.. Please Halima, dont call me selfish i just want the best for my son"...she finished holding my hands tightly

"in shaa Allah...i will try"....so many things were raving through my mind.. So many unanswered questions.. I swallowed it...after getting to know each other more, i followed her back to the sitting room.. After spending some few hours more we went back home.

He managed to take care of the twins needs and put them to bed without them fussing.. I also took mine and changed into a night dress and walked back to the sitting room.. He was sitting there in all his glory.. Switching between channels.. Slowly lowering myself on the sofa next to his..

"arent you tired"..he asked looking up at me..

"i find it difficult to sleep.. And am also not sleepy"...i said fidgeting with my fingers..

"you know Halima.. Call me a stalker but i have already read you and i know when you have something to say.. So spill it out"..

I slowly looked up at him debating on how to start or whether to start at all... I was prying and being inquisitive in his private life and me guilty of closing mine away from him.. But i needed to know.. I needed to know who i was spending the rest of my life with..

"uhmmm... I was wondering.. Umm..please dont take it the wrong way"..

"you know you can always speak to me koh.. Am supposed to be your better half.. Someone you can share all your deepest secret with, ask the stupidest of question, be on your best or your worst.. So spill"...he looked at me wit an am all ears look..

"i was wondering... What happened to your wife.. I saw a picture of her the other day in your room.. Why did you seperate"...

I could see him tensing.. Halima you have really blew it this time around.... You cant shut your loud mouth up.. He slowly looked up at me.. I could see raw emotions..pain, regret, anger and so much more..his lips began quivering..he buried his head on his hands..

"am so sorry.. I never meant to pry into your life.. Curiosity got the better of me.. Please forgive me... Am so sorry"...tears started streaming from my eyes being the big baby i was.. I quickly stood up and made my way upstairs when something held my hands..

"please.. Stay.. Please stay Halima.. I need you"..

He slowly dragged me down on the sofa.. He laid his head on my laps and closed his eyes.. I was apprehensive at first.. But seeing the pain he was in, i let myself go.. The least i can do after opening my big mouth is to grant him solace this once.. I slowly began running my hands in his full hair..

With that gesture.. He broke down into tears.. I have never seen a man cry.. Not to talk of him.. He allowed me see him in his worst.. This really say a lot about our relationship...

I continued cradling him till he was a little subdued..

"its okay.. Am very sorry.. Forget i asked you anything.. Let play a game or watch a movie.. I got it lets watch how i met your mother.. I could slowly see a smile forming at his lips..

I gently shifted his head and picked up the remote..i swiched it to the series..

"you know.. You are just like her.. When am tensed or worried she always lay my head on her laps.. Stroking it.. Reading some Qur'anic ayyah till i fall asleep"...

I smiled and looked at him... He looked so vulnerable right now.. It look like i could see right through him.. But still i couldn't phantom what could make someone of his calibre cry..

"when i first saw you.. I saw her in you thats why i wanted you at all means.. I am so sorry for being selfish.. For destroying your happiness and jeopardizing your future.. Can you forgive me"

I sighed...what was the purpose of still holding a grudge when i have already been tied to him.. the sooner i accept my fate the better..i closed my eyes and took a deep breath.. "its okay"

He smiled... "now i can live in peace knowing the two women i loved have forgiven me.."

We sat there for a long period of time watching the series.. Laughing at the jokes and living the moment.. He was still lying on my laps and i stroking his head..

"halima wallahi i really admire your courage.. You have been through a lot and still you are standing strong.. Here i am still refusing to acknowledge the past and move on"...

"you know its ok.. I also am not a superhero...i did worse but with my loved ones by my side i came through it..you dont have to open up if you are not ready.. I will always be here for you anytime you need me"...

"may God bless you Halima.. But no.. I need to embrace the past for me to live my future.. I am ready but i dont know whether you are"...he looked up at me

I nodded my head for him in confirmation giving him the go ahead..

"it all started five years ago... "

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