Catch My Breath

Life will never be the same again

Its been a few months since I gave birth to JJ and he is looking more and more like Shane  and Nicky everyday. I knew something was wrong with Nicky, he was my best friend. Shane was putting JJ to bed, Nicky was on the sofa, I came down from my and Danny's room and sat next to him. 

"What's wrong?" I asked, Nicky wasn't looking at me he was just staring. 

"Nicky!" I shouted, Nicky turned around and looked at me. 

"What?" Nicky said 

"What's wrong?" I asked 

"Nothing" Nicky said 

"Nico, you are my best friend, I know when something is wrong....so what is it?" I asked 

Nicky didn't say anything, he just burst out in tears, he didn't want to tell his husband that he might have....cancer. 

"Nick, just tell me what's wrong" I asked again. 

"I think...I might have cancer" Nicky said 

"What?" I said 

"A couple of weeks ago, I went to the doctors, they did some test on the part that they took for a biopsy and I get the results today...I haven't even told Shane.....I haven't told my husband...."Nicky said, Shane was walking down the stairs. 

"Told me what hon" Shane said, I looked at Nicky and smiled, Nicky smiled back. 

"Sit down babe" Nicky said, Shane sat down, Shane knew something was wrong. 

"What?" Shane said 

"Please don't hate me, but a few weeks ago, I went to the doctors because I found a lump, the took a biopsy and I get the results today, I know I should've told you but we literally just brought JJ home and I didn't want you to worry....I love you and..."Nicky said, Shane gave Nicky a kiss. 

"I don't hate you....I love you and I want to be there when you get the results....Sophie can you babysit?" Shane asked 

"I would love to and Nicky good luck....I'm sure it will be fine" I said and with that Shane and Nicky left to go and get the test results. 

Shane and Nicky arrived at the doctors, Shane could tell his husband was nervous. 

"Honey, look whatever the outcome is...I will be there with you every step of the way" Shane said. 

"Lets just say it comes back that I do have....cancer....I'm worried you will leave me....you'll take JJ and I will be all alone without you and JJ" Nicky said 

"I am never gonna leave you....I love you too much and I would never ever take JJ away" Shane said, they went inside the doctors, got checked in and sat down, Shane continued to hold his husbands hands. Nicky was called to the doctors office. 

"Please sit" 

Shane and Nicky sat down, Nicky gripped onto Shane's hand tight. 

"I'm Doctor Storm" Doctor Storm said, he got out Nicky's test results and Nicky knew by his face it was not good news. 

"So, we have the results back and its not good news I'm afraid....we have found traces of cancer...."Doctor Storm said, everything went silence. 

"So what's the next step?" Shane asked 

"Well, we want to start chemo as soon as we can so we have booked Nicky is tomorrow, I have already sent your notes through to your oncologist and they will do tests on you" Doctor Storm said. 

"Honey" Shane said 

"Yep" Nicky said 

"Did you get all of that?" Shane asked his husband