The Boy In Blue - H.R

Chapter 55- Unkept Promises

*Harrison's POV*

I broke down as soon as she left slamming the door behind her.

I lost her. I have officially lost her because I couldn't put her needs and wants before mine. She deserves the best. She deserves more than what I could've gave her.

"Fuck... dude" Maxi stammered out.

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I sobbed loudly into my hands.

"Go talk to her... y-you can try sort it out" he spoke as he attempted to get me to move.

"Dude it's over... she doesn't want shit to do with me. I've constantly fucked up over and over again and she deserves someone who can give her the best. Didn't you hear her? She fucking hates me! And I just lost my child. My own fucking blood will hate me" I said pulling at my hair in frustration.

I felt the cushion on the couch beside me dip down as Maxi took a seat.

"Look... I know I haven't gone through what your going through and no one could ever begin to relate to Lilly and your situation okay? But... I love Kenzie and if this had happened to us I wouldn't stop fighting for her and proving to her that I loved her and that she was the one for me" He spoke making me rethink my whole stance on this situation.

What was I doing? Was I just going to sit around for the rest of my life and be upset and regretful that I didn't fight for her? That I didn't prove to her that she was the one for me?

"Fuck... thank you man" I said getting up patting my pockets to double check my phone and keys were there.

"Go get her dude" he said shooting me a smile.

I smiled back before racing out the room and into the elevator. I pressed her floor number multiple times until the doors finally shut and headed down to her floor.

I tapped my foot impatiently getting annoyed with this slow elevator, it soon finally opening on her floor. I sprinted down to her room banging my fist on the door. The door swung open to a confused looking James. 

"Harrison? Uhh- Lilly's in her room. She won't let me in? Do you know what's-" he spoke but I couldn't stand to listen anymore once I knew she was in her room.

I ran down the hall and into her bedroom that was wide open. I skimmed the room not seeing Lilly anywhere.

I heard a smash come from her bathroom. I quickly swung the door open to see Lilly, both palms holding herself up on the sink as she stood in front of a smashed mirror.

"Lilly..." I whispered.

She turned to me before quickly turning the opposite way once realising it was me.

"Harrison... please leave" she whispered loud enough for me to hear.

I shut the bathroom door behind me locking it so James wouldn't hear and listen in on our conversation.

"Please Harrison... I don't want to see you" she spoke with such emotion it broke my heart.

"Lilly. When you left my apartment a few minutes ago I broke down and was coming to terms that I had lost you..." I started a she turned around to face me.

"But I realised that I love you. And I never ever want to loose you again. I'm so sorry I haven't been there for you the last year and a bit. I'm so sorry that I didn't give you the best you deserved... I'm so sorry Lilly" I finished before breaking down into more tears.

I didn't want to cry in front of her but I completely broke.

"Harrison... you keep saying sorry over and over again and making promises you can't keep. What makes this time any different?" She said looking down in sadness.

I thought she would say this. No. I knew she would say this.

"I know. I know I've done that so many times and I'm so fucking sorry I promised you things that I couldn't keep..." I started.

"Please come on this date with me tonight and if at the end of it you don't want anything to do with me... then I guess I'll back off" I asked hoping she would agree to this so I could finally prove to her that she was the only one I wanted to be with. Not just right now but for the rest of my life.

I saw her eyes scan my face as silence hovered in the air.

"Okay."

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A/N- this story is ending in a few chapters