Can Divit, "Kendini Bil/Know Thy Self"

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Author's Note:  What happens after Can sees Sanem in the Movie Theater?

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"This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.
Farewell, my blessing season this in thee!"

(Hamlet, Act-1, Scene-III, 78–82)


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I'm docked in Kayseri and getting on land to buy a part for the yacht. It's been about a year, it's spring again and I've floated back to Turkey. Why am I back? I don't know! But I don't want to be anywhere near Istanbul... near her, to be precise! I've cried my eyes, heart and soul out.... and don't have any more energy or will left to see her, be in her vicinity and yet not be loved and accepted wholeheartedly by her! That boat has sailed, wrecked and sunk to the bottom of the deep abyss!

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I knew it was going to rain and that puts me in a somber mood, oh well, more somber than I could possibly become! As I look for cover, I see a poster at the movie theater "Kötü Kral" (Bad King), it says, my curiosity is peaked and blinded! Wow... she thought I was the "Kötü Kral" of all sorts.... didn't she? She called me a total liar, a potential abuser and destroyer of her dreams! It simply can't get any worse than that.... I had fallen into an irredeemable dark and unending void of nothingness!

 I had fallen into an irredeemable dark and unending void of nothingness!

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I should quit while I'm ahead.... but I'm just a glutton for punishment and cannot not watch this movie. I'm drawn to the movie theater like a rock rolling downhill, as though a moth to a flame and akin to a reluctant fish caught in a net. Go with the flow being the paradigm I've always followed, I go where I am lead!

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There's a girl in a hoodie in queue ahead of me and I stand at a respectful distance behind her. Said girl, removes her hoodie and runs her fingers through her damp hair and fluffs it heavily closing the space between us! I'm blinded for a second by a tornado of reddish chocolate brown curly hair that is sprinkling droplets of rain water on my face! 


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