ATEEZ social experiment

Part 8

Questions With Nonsense

Another restless night. As much as I want sleep it won't fully come to me or will lead me into nightmares worse than the one I am living.
I can feel the warmth of a back against mine and I remember I am not alone. These past nights being surround by this feeling is what's keeping me alive. I know for a fact if I were here alone that I would have been long dead already.
Snapping out of my midnight slump I think of home. I think of everything good in my life. Even meeting these two guys is a blessing.
Finally I calm myself down. I snuggle into the broad back that lies peacefully in front of me. This is the only place I feel safe, the only place I let my guard down and eventually drift off into a light but much needed sleep.
Now only if tomorrow wouldn't come.

Once again I am the first to wake. It has been two weeks since we have lived like this. It almost feels normal, almost...
There is not much to do here. I spend most of my days writing or drawing in the atrium. San tries his best to stay in shape he has been forcing me to learn some dances haha. It should be easy but without music its difficult and lifeless. How does he do it so easily, watching him you don't even need music. Also if it's a song Seonghwa knows he will sing along and sometimes even dance. I have a nice voice but I've never been in good enough shape to dance.
Being here. Living like this. I feel like we are the only people left here. For all we know we could be drifting through space. So many questions.
I get startled as a half awake San sits across from me at the bar.
"Where do you think we are?" I ask as my curiosity gets the best of me.
"Good morning." he props his head on his hands. "Isn't that what people are supposed to say first this early?"
"Ugh, good morning San. Now answer my question, please," I drag out the please trying to be nice to the tired boy. I felt him toss around a lot last night.
"I don't know Hana," he sternly says.
"Come on, any ideas or guess. Reasonable or not."
"Fine, Mars." He stands and goes to get breakfast.
"What if we were. What if we signed up for something and they made us forget for it?" my mind keeps wandering.
"Mhmm."
"Just think some government people could have offered us a butt ton of money to go through this experiment and they wanted it to be accurate so they made us forget about it."
"Do I hear conspiracy theories?" Seonghwa wanders in stretching.
"Yep. Where do you think we are? San said Mars," I learn up and smile at the happy sleepy boy and the depressed one next to him.
"Probably in some underground bunker in a mountain in North Korea," he casually says in his deep voice, "Mars is bit far fetched haha."
     I suddenly realize something.
     "Your name-" i point at Seonghwa
     "No." he cuts me off.
     "Backwards."
     "No."
     "Is Mars!" I begin dying and San lets out a random hyena laugh (a/n he learned it from wooyoung lmao).
     "I hate you." He gives me a death stare.
     "Mars, that's cute," I smile at him and eventually he smiles back.
     "Just don't over use it, please," he begs.
     "No promises," I wink and begin our breakfast.
     Another day in our little bubble passes as we sit together on the couch.
     "This may sound bad," San speaks up into the silence as he is lying down, "but I actually don't mind it too much here." Seonghwa and I sit waiting for him to say more. "My life outside of here isn't the best. I lost someone. Just before this happened. And my mom left my dad and I and he couldn't handle it. Ha I don't even know where she is. What kind of mom just leaves her kid." my heart hurt for him. I know the feeling. Does my family feel that way too.
     "Here, nothing feels real. It's just a dream and someday I'm going to wake up and my mom will be back, my dad will be alive and everything will be normal again," he says not breaking eye contact with the ceiling.
     "I lost my mom two months before this happened," I'm shocked as Seonghwa steps up, "I dropped out of school after to support my family after my dad became a drunk. I found out just before this that I got accepted into medical school. I had to give up my dream to make sure that my family could survive. I worked three jobs and we barely scrapped by," a tear rolls down his cheek. "I'm not there anymore. What if they are living on the streets, what if they are dead just because I wanted one night out with my friends..." the pain on his pain scares me. Those are the eyes of a person who would kills someone with their bare hands to protect who they care about. Something I failed to do.
     "Being here is hell. Waking up every day here makes me want to rip the walls apart until im free or dead." The fury in him radiates putting San and I on edge not knowing what he can do with it.
     Do I speak up. Do I dare tell them the horrors I live. They would be scared of me. They would hate me just like everyone else.

     " One year ago my sister died," i take in a deep breathe, "I killed her."

A/N

SORRY I couldn't help myself ;P What do you think is going on where are they??? I hope yall liked this chapter I will try to post again tomorrow while I can remember what happens next lol. Have a great holiday everyone love you all! Don't forget to vote and comment!💕💕💕