ATEEZ social experiment

Part 40

                              Play it Cool

      I don't know how to react to Seonghwa's words. I look down at our hands, his warm touch.

      He pulls my hands towards him and i take a step forward has he puts his arms around me. Seonghwa buries his face into my neck. I tightly hold to his waist tears threaten to fall again. I've missed this so much.

      "I want you to be happy," He speaks still holding tight to me, "that's all i want you deserve to be happy and if that means you being with Yunho then i'll back off. I don't want to hurt you again.... When Mingi told me what you did I blamed myself. It's all my fault. I shouldn't have treated you that way i never should have let you walk out that door. I should have talked to you first before going after him." he pulls away and cups my face in his hands. His beautiful eyes look into me. I see the whole galaxy in his eyes.

      "I love you Hana and i don't want to force you into a decision. As much as it hurts me to say it all, I just want you to be happy,"

      "I don't know what to do..." I pull an arm away to wipe the pool of tears from my face.

      "We can work this out but you need to take time and think about what you want," he holds me by the shoulders forcing me to look at him.

      "How do you always know what to say," i slightly smile to him through the tears.

      He smiles back and grabs the sides of my head as he bends down and gently kisses my forehead.

      "I'll wait for you. I'll be here for you whenever you need me, i promise."

 

      I stare up at the white ceiling in my empty bed. My mind is running wild thinking of all the past events. Death will find me before i will ever fall asleep.

      "Mingi?" i peek my head into his room and see the light of his phone through the sheets.

      "Hey everything okay?" he sits up and gives me a concerned look.

      "Can i sleep in here?" I step fully into the doorway.

      "Of course." He grabs an extra pillow and blanket as i find my usual spot on the floor.

      "Thank you," I curl into a ball next to his bed.

      "Thanks for asking this time you scared the crap out of me the last few times," he laughs and i think of all the weeks i slept on this floor when I got back.

      The sound of his breathing soothes me as i can feel that i'm not alone. Finally a light dreamless sleep welcomes me.

      The next day i spend at home with Mingi and Hongjoong. They wanted me to have a stress free day with all i've gotten thrown into. Seeing how much they care makes me begin to feel better.

      Hongjoong has really changed. He's opened up more I guess he just really worried about me going through that. He's seen a lot it can't be easy going through everything he has.

      Before we all knew it it was Wednesday night. The day before our first step to freedom. Joong wanted us to meet with our groups in the morning to prepare for what's going to happen. Honestly none of us have a clue on what will come from this.

      "Hey Hana," Hongjoong pops into the doorway of Mingis room.

      "Hey," i roll over on my pallet and face him.

      "Wear something nice tomorrow Choi is an intimidating guy and you need to impress him. Look tough not like a girl that has to sleepover in her bffs room every night," he had a point it's very child like of me to do this.