Protector || Min Yoongi ff ||

Chapter 15

She just lay there in bed. Everything was quiet and she just heard the breath of her sleeping boyfriend next to her. She stared at the ceiling and her mind was full with thoughts. Her body felt heavy and she wasn't relaxed like she should be at midnight. Well actually she should be fast alseep but for some reason she couldn't although she wanted to. Usually she used every second of sleep she could get but that night was different. Her mind was working, her body felt heavy and everything was just uncomfortable. Her head hurt and she needed fresh air so she slowly and not waking up her boyfriend she stood up and went out of the room making her way to his balcony. It was a warm night and she could see the stars as clear as the moon and it was just beautiful. The light wind blew through her hair and she sat down on the bank hugging her knees and looking up to the sky.
Her mind got lost and she thought about the day Yoongi and her met for the first time. The feeling in her stomach came back as she thought about his eyes that hers met that day for the first time and how she couldn't forget them until now and actually she could never forget them.

The time passed and she forgot how long she was sitting there but after about an hour Yoongi spoke behind her. "What are you doing here babe?" She turned her head to face him and smiled. "Actually I have no idea..." Her voice was so quiet that he almost couldn't hear her but he did so he sat down next to her and pulled her body into his chest.
"Are you okay?" His soft but still sleepy raspy voice send chills down her spine and she completely lay down against his body. "Yeah...I just couldn't sleep and I had a light headache so I came here. It's a lovely place tho..." "Tonight is a beautiful night isn't it?" True, it was. She nodded. "I was worried as I woke up and you were gone...Why didn't you wake me up?" "Because I know that need your sleep. And to be honest, I wasn't sure why I couldn't sleep so I just tried to get tired." "You could have woken me up anyway. I'm still a bit worried..." "Hey, I'm fine babe. Okay? I just can't sleep tonight...Maybe it's the moonlight or something I haven't got an idea either." "Maybe you are becoming a werewolf and this is just the beginning..." She chuckled. "Well I guess that is the last thing that could be the reason." "Who knows? Maybe I'm a vampire in real life and we both have been caught in a lie." "Yeah just keep thinking that silly..." His light giggles made her smile against his chest and her eyes went back up to the sky.
"Have you ever thought about what is up there?" "You mean besides the moon and the stars and the sun?" She nodded. "Not really...Did you?" "Sometimes...When I just look at the sky or when I'm on a plane...Sometimes I even think of the endless sky when I listen to music." "Wow I never knew you were thinking that...deep." "Me neither. I don't really think about where my mind is going. But isn't it strange? What things that are always there and don't really change can cause such actions?" "I love you Y/N. You know that? I really do. Even if you are like a little moonchild that is hypnotized by the moon and being all crazy sometimes, but I love you." Her heart started to beat faster by his words and she smiled against his chest. "I love you too Yoongi. With my whole heart and every inch of my body. I don know how I deserve you to be honest. You are so caring and lovely and I don't know, like my personal goodluck charm. Like my protector." "You really feel that way to me?" "No, actually I'm just saying that to make you happy...Of curse I feel that way silly." He chuckled. "I've never heard such lovely words. Really I have such luck to have you. I...I have been on my own since I'm 17. My parents separated, my brother moved and my situation wasn't that easy." She lifted her face up and looked at his. "You never told me that." "I never told anyone...But I want you to know who I am." "I know who you are Yoongi. I don't need to know the whole story of your life. But I'd love to hear it and if you want to tell me I'll listen." He nodded lightly and she smiled looking at his face being curious about what he's going to tell her. "My parents fought a lot when I was young. About the most simple things and my brother and me weren't just brothers. We were best friends. He was my best buddy and when my parents screamed at each other down in the house, we just went to his room and sat on his windowsill and enjoyed the view over Daegu. He helped me with so many things I couldn't make myself and I would have done everything for him. But then my parents separated and everything changed. My dad moved to Busan and since then I haven't heard anything from him; I hate him. My mom started to drink. Not much at first but it became more and more so she freaked out faster, didn't go to work anymore and my brother couldn't handle it so he left us too. Well actually he left me, there alone with my drinking mother and I haven't heard anything from him since then either. So it was just me and my mom but luckily I was 16 and not like 12 so I could help myself by looking for a little job to get some money for mom and me. I had to hadle everything on my own since then and first of all I searched for a smaller flat because we didn't need such a big house for us two and I found one so my mom signed the contract and we moved. We selled the house and I kept half of the money. I contacted my aunt and she came to help my mom out of her depression because she didn't want to listen to me and my aunt told me to go my own way and so I did. I discovered my love for music and started to write songs and to learn how to play the piano while I lived in different places. It was hard. To be honest, it was the hardest time of my life but I think, that if everything of that wouldn't have happened I wouldn't be here with you now." "Yoongi, I-..." "Don't apologise now, please. I don't need any apologies from you, my love. My family should apologise but to be honest I don't really expect that...I want you to know that I don't hate my brother or my mom but I haven't heard anything from them...Since many years...But I have a new family now..." He looked into her eyes and she smiled and nodded."Thank you." " For what?" "For telling me that. I mean it's something very personal and I think it needs lots of trust to tell someone that." "It does...But I trust you. I would give you my life Y/N. You are everything to me and I want-" She pressed her lips against his cutting off his words. He placed his hands on her cheeks and pulled her closer to his body. "Oh god I love you so much.", he whispered brushing a string of her hair behind her ear placing his hand on her cheek. She leaned in his hand and closed her eyes enjoying his touch against her skin. "I love you more." He slightly pulled her back into his chest and started to stroke her back and arm while she smiled looking up to the sky.

"You know what I appreciate about you?" "Tell me." " That you are mine since almost 6 months but that there is always something new about you." He smiled at her words. "Well, I think that must be the vampire inside me." He smirked but she slightly hit his chest and giggled soft. Oh Jesus how much he loved that giggle of her. They just were there on the balcony in the middle of Seoul looking into the night sky enjoying each other's touch.
After some time she slowly started to feel sleepy and leaned more in his chest before her eyes fell close and she fell asleep. He sat there for some more minutes and thought about his earlier life when his brother was still with him. God how often he wished that he would come back. But he didn't.
He pushed the thoughts away and stood up taking his loved girl on his arms and carried her to his bedroom where he lay her down very gentle, lay down next to her and kissing her head before he hugged her from behind and then drifted back to sleep.