aksara tanpa suara

dear, mother

mom, i haven't been so honest before about this. not even to my friends.

but, i'm writing this because i wanna tell you that you were so strong, that i wish you didn't have to look at your daughters and knowing that you'd never see them get taller, wiser, or even get married.

it hurts too much having nobody to pack my lunch, or to do my hair, or even just to ask where i am, or what i'm doing. it's hard not being able to see you at home after school, watching your favorite tv shows. it's hard having nobody to share my days with. but mostly, it's too hard not having you around anymore.

mom, i am so sorry for all the fits i threw, the i love u moms i never got to say when you were still here. i feel like i'm missing out a huge part in my proccess of being a grown-up girl because you're not here.

i am writing this cause i wish you were here, i wish you could see the person i've grown into. im writing this cause i'll never love anyone as much as i miss you. ❤️🌹