TW!!! SUICIDE
I give up in my life
In my school
In the world
I give up on my grades
All the A's
Never pleasing
The hunger inside
Never leaving
Always eating
Never being happy
Or joyful
Or content
Always on my own
Always sad
Never vent
Keping my emotions
Bottled up inside
Always pushing
Always screaming
Never wanting to hide
Away in the darkness
Never seeing light
Always trying to fight
I keep them down
I act
Always seeming fine
I brush them
Off my shoulder
In one ear
Out the other
Every time i feel
Im thinking
"Oh,brother
Another thing to hide
Another one inside
Another trying to fight
Another eating happy feelings
Another one to bring me down
Another to try and drown
Another and another and another one
Its always so hard,
Keeping up my appearance
Keeping up with trends
Keeping up with my friends
They are popular as heck
And I am such a wreck
In comparison to them
I am no one
I am a ghost
Never worthy of attention
I am invisible
Never enough to be seen
I am not a person
Not worthy to be heard
I am not alive
At least,thats what i heard
Thats a joke
Im just kidding ish
People have to talk
And they dont
Not about me
Maybe if i was pretty
Maybe if i was witty
Maybe if i was confident
Maybe i had made a dent
Maybe if i broke the mold
Or maybe if i was more bold
People might notice me then
But then when
When would they deem me worthy
When would i be-
When would people notice
When would they just notice
Worthy enough to notice
Why do they not notice
Why cant they just notice
But,those days are behind me
Im finally important
I showed all those people
After torture and all of that
Theyre talking about me daily
Only speaking good
I showed them
Even after all it got to me
I can be the talk of the school
But i just wish
I wish it wasnt cruel
I climbed to the top
But my biggest regret
Is the way i had to do it
I miss my sacrifice
Now i just want to be alive
No more death
No more hell
I wish i didnt kill myself
But oh well
I gave up on my life
And now im just wondering
Was it worth it?
By: gotohelltoburnwithme
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