Stronger As One

Guardian Angel

I spent the next few days in the infirmary to ensure I was strong enough. The nature of what happened was caused by my body trying to protect itself from what occurred and to prevent trauma. Sadly, It didn't help much.

The Alpha visited a few more times during the duration of my stay. He talked about what the next months would be like to help me assimilate into the pack. I didn't speak much to him, his face and aura was too closely matched with his son, but I did listen. I would be learning privately from him and the Luna for the next few months. The Alpha still needed to figure out where he wanted me but It seemed I would be a hunter and eventually would train the younger wolves how to properly hunt and what is expected of it. The thought of getting to teach and contribute did spark something inside of me, but I knew I wouldn't be ready for awhile. 

In regards to what happened.. I'm going to visit the young wolf I attacked and try and make amends. Last I've heard he was making great progress thanks to the help of being young and the extra healing bonus of being a wolf. He should hopefully be out with in a week or so.

The last dreaded thought involved Jason. My wolf and I decided to fake forgiveness and hope that will help solve his anger. If we didn't, he could very well eventually kill us. He sent a small package to me this morning with a note. Finding the strength to open it was incredibly difficult.. this was something he touched..he wrote.. he put his thoughts down.. I wanted so badly to rid every aspect of him but it was near impossible now. 

As I left the infirmary I clutched onto the little package. I would open it when I got to the refuge of my own room.. which was one good thing that happened.  Due to everything.. I won't have to share a room with Jason. They're letting me stay in my own space to recover and learn. Sadly though, the room is still attached to Jason's but I will be keeping the lock on at all times. 

The walk back toward the pack house was strange. Both events were kept hush from the rest of the pack to make sure I wasn't viewed poorly from everyone and they wanted to keep Jason's record clean. 

Snow covered the grown and the air had a crisp bite. My wolf and I cherished this weather and the crunch of the snow beneath our feet. We longed to feel it sift through our fur to roll around in its odd warmth. If I didn't have this package I would shift and bathe in it. 

I gritted my teeth and walked faster. I paused before the back door. Panic began to fill me and I feared that he would be inside. What would happen if I saw him? What would I even do? I'd freeze up.. or run.. maybe panic. 

I can't do this. 

I backed away from the door, its handle felt burning hot and the door felt giant. I gazed at it with wide eyes as my breathing picked up. Tears forced there way down my face as more images swirled about in my head. I dropped the package and jumped away from it, staring at the soft white wrapping and the note that held things I didn't want to see or know.

Dustin.. every things okay. He's not here. I need you to take a deep breath... My wolfs voice was soft. It spoke through the thoughts and imagines. Focus on me right now okay? We just need to get to your room. 

I didn't respond, but I took a few deep breathes before picking up the package.

I can do this. 

I walked up to the door again and rested my hand on the handle. I took one final deep breath before twisting it and pushing it open. The house was quiet and calm. It was still early in the morning and most were still asleep.

The Alpha took Jason for an early run this morning to allow you an easy time getting in. My wolf spoke again

That's good to hear. I responded. 

I carefully shut the door and took the slow walk to my room. I didn't know what to expect when I saw it. Part of me was afraid I would break down again and another half just wanted to be in a place that was somewhat familiar.. or at least something that's mine.

The familiar door came into view and I stopped before it. I felt panic starting to rise again but I fist my hands and pushed it down. I reached out and pushed open the door.

The room was different. 

The bed was moved and adorned a different comforter. The room features soft white colors and new decorations were upon the walls. Many of the paintings features a beautiful wintry landscape. I walked forward and set the package on the bed before I ran a hand across the comforter. It was soft and a beautiful white with gold accents, the colors were beautiful. 

I felt a smile tug at my lips as the new layout washed away the panic I felt. 

I quickly found myself sitting upon the soft bed and gazing around at the space. It was good to be somewhere that felt safe despite what occurred here. 

I sighed softly and looked to the package that sat waiting on the bed. I needed to open it and get this over with or it would sit unopened for who knows how long.

I reached out and grabbed it again, tearing off the note that was taped to the top. I carefully opened it and began reading.

Dear Dustin,

I don't know how to begin this or where to even start in regards to everything. As our mating bond strengthens with each day I find myself seeing things much more clearly. 

I made a mistake.. a mistake that I can never take back.

I failed to gain your trust, I failed my job as a mate, and I let my own selfishness control my actions. There are many things I didn't take into account and I took everything way too far. 

I disregarded everything about you and didn't take the time to learn about the wolf you are and I kept this perfect image of what a mate is supposed to be in my head.. Its what I've seen other wolves have.. a mate that listened and immediately just fell to the stronger ones feet. But you didn't. You fought back, and took control, and proved what strength you have. I didn't realize how special that was until now, and how lucky I am to have a mate who can achieve what you can. 

I know that our relationship has a ton of building to do, and I know how hard I will have to work for you. I hope this small gift can be the start of repairing what I have caused. 

I hope we can speak soon.

Jason 

Tears slipped from my eyes as I dropped the note onto the bed. I didn't know how to feel with this.. since the mating he suddenly sees things differently? I can't trust that. Words can mean nothing. I need to see an improvement.

I wiped away the tears and moved onto opening the package. 

It was a small package that hid a small velvet blue box inside. My nerves spiked as I ran a hand across the soft material and pondered what was inside. He said it was the start of repairing what he caused..

I took a deep breath and opened the box.

Inside sat a bracelet thats only charm was a golden angel. It was beautiful. I gently touched the wings and ran a finger across the chain. 

There was another small piece of paper tucked inside. 

This bracelet belonged to my great grand mother as a gift from her mate. She gave it to me to do the same. 

It is now your guardian angel.