Detour

18: Movie Da(y)te

I quite had some date experiences (if you call it) back in high school. Back when I haven't met Vince yet. This guy, he and I would go to movies after getting permissions from Mom, go to a carnival, have multiple rides until we'll both have major dizziness. I even remember myself vomitting in front of the hotdog stand. Not really good to reminisce that part. We're having usual that usual date what couples mostly do except for all the touching and kissing.

Because Adrien and I was never a couple. At all. Not even before. Not even a chance.

It's never really a date, but just something fun to do with a friend. Adrien's company is very pleasing, and I always remember Harry from him. After Dad kicked my brother out after he graduated High School, I've been lonely and Adrien was the guy who helped me back in sunshine valley.

Adrien is awesome, full of happiness and fun to be with. We've been friends for a year and half but I never really expected our friendship will end. And that I'll lose him that very same day.

Sophomore year, Valentine's day. This day is boring as playing chess for me so I decided to walk away as the program has halfway started already. I only came here for attendance, you know. As I turned my back, my steps halted as I heard my name was called on the stage. Speakers were booming with my full name. Completed. So I started to look for whoever wants a fight with me— and saw Adrien, coming up in front of me with flowers.

And starting talking.

It wasn't really a problem to me on how he talks to me but what i'm worried is why does it have to be here, to be in public and to be said in a microphone!

He started confessing about how close we are, how we met, how we go out to carnival that night, and I think, that moment, that fleeting moment, I felt my heart stopped pumping blood the second he confessed how he loves me all this time.

He's in love with me!

Never really saw it coming. Stunned that I am, I can't look at the crowd who are now cheering for me to speak and cheering for him to kiss me! Kiss?! What are we, four? To kiss my mom's bestfriend's son in his birthday? I mean, what is wrong with him today! I'm young and I don't know about these kisses and love! I just know kiss is for adults and love is for those who are matured! What is this?

I was speechless and I don't want to talk to him about my feelings in public. Especially how I'm so provoked to give a statement now when I can't even lift my finger. I looked at him to tell him I want to talk to him in private because he's my friend and I don't want to embarass or reject a friend in front of so many people!

But he ruined everything. He ruined me first by kissing me on my lips! (Of course that scandalizes everyone)

Everything that held my senses in place snapped on what he did just now. He took my fucking first kiss when we're not even together, he took the fucking innocence in everyone's eyes when I never really enjoyed the play he was implying, and he made everyone think that I'm fucking in love with him when all I wanted is to be friends with him!

Little Jess gone mad. I badly wanted to punch him in his face but I'm looking up to him as my brother and I see Harry in him so I just can't.

I'm so angry that I cussed at him and told him everything that ran in my head why i'm angry at this moment. In front of the crowd. I felt embarassed too but we didn't have to do it here, we didn't have to go this far, yet he made me do it.

Our friendship was officially cut off when I decided to transfer in Cambridge. The incident is sad for me too and I felt sorry for Adrien. Since it happened in Pre-historic Era, I never really told Mom about it and good thing she never really heard any story of it. Or so I thought.

And there I met Vince. Because of what had happened to me in the past, like how Adrien fell in love with his bestfriend he can't have, I so long realized and admitted to myself that I'm somehow cursed in love, for not giving Adrien a chance when I still got the time. The reason why Adrien's case happened to me.

"You okay?" My bubble of thoughts popped when I remember someone really did invite me for a movie today. His eyes are playful but concern is drawn in his brows. "I'm sorry if we didn't made it to the last tickets of Endgame." He apologetically smiled.

We got here soon but the tickets for Avengers Endgame were sold faster than I could blink. "Don't worry 'bout that, i'm fine in everything." I gave him a shrug and we started choosing another movie to watch. "And besides, thanks to spoilers, I won't have to pay to watch how Avengers end the game. Psh." And we both laughed.

"Expect Astrid to be that spoiler." He grinned widely that made passerbys, most especially women, turned their heads to look at him shining like he came from heaven.

Yeah right. I'm watching a movie with this guy! Ha!

I don't want to sound in my head like i'm a lucky bastard in having Cole with me right now but I just felt like a... lucky bastard today anyway. "How 'bout we watch this?" I pinpointed Toy Story 4. "We're kinda old for this but—"

"That's perfect." He smiled at me like North Pole has gone warm.

No, you're perfect.

This feeling is getting weirder everyday but this feeling feel like haven to me. I expect myself to be disappointed in everything because nothing felt right in my life to be happy—like happiness is prohibited but, here I am, still up to this day, willing to make myself happy piece by piece everyday in every ways, yet unsure if happiness is what i'm getting or another heartbreak waiting to happen.

I looked away after he stared at me longer than three minutes! I can even hear my own breathing and heartbeat at this moment. My hands are clammy too! "S-so, you go ahead line up for tickets Andy, and Woody will buy us our foods."

He laughed at my retort. "Oh no, Woody should be the one carrying light things because he's small and..." His words hanged in the air for a second. "Gorgeous." My face heated in his last word. "Let me buy us our food and get our ticket. After all, i'm the one who—"

"No, no. I won't let you do that. Well, at least let me get our tickets even though getting our foods aren't that heavy." I chuckled and went to the line. "I'll wait by the entrance."

He smiled and just shrugged his way to the popcorn store oblivious of the stares the girls were giving him.

I say being gorgeous with a perfect body and personality must be fucking hard. Tsk.

And even harder for girls who can only watch this guy wiggling his brows at me with his boyish grin plastered all over his face.