Detour

32: Beautiful Escapade

My heels clicked on the tiled floor as I went out of the convenient store holding my bag of chips, some bread and drinks. I wonder why the staffs stared at me like i'm some kind of a wildling lost in King's landing and realized it's because i'm the only teenager ramping around this whole store when it's past midnight.

Yup, that's right. I didn't went home or went to my flat. I'm up for roadtrip tonight till morning. Wanna come?

I went inside my car just across the store and scrambled on my clothes in the passenger seat. I took off my uniform after I turned my light off and put on my sweater and jeans before I tied my hair in a ponytail. It's not that long because some hair at the upper back of my neck is still draping which makes me look like a choreographer.

Damn, let me dance this feeling I can't control.

I ate my chips in silence and think about what happened earlier this morning. I felt...strong—and independent woman. Even though I didn't manage to break Therese's bone or what, i'm glad I fought back without regrets. Even though I haven't bid proper goodbyes to Vince, it felt like it doesn't even matter anymore. It felt like i've been itching to get-out-of-that-bubble kind of feeling—like letting yourself free you know? I know it's really late to realize some shit but it's not that hard to turn my back from them anymore. Even to Vince. Though I had the good times—great times with him for two years of friendship, it's like i'm not regretting to leave him there like that. This right here just felt so right.

My lips formed a satisfied smile on its own but was cut off when my phone on the floor lits up with mom's face on the screen. I forgot to pick it up after I threw it there. On why I threw it there? It's because when i'm hoping for a call from Astrid telling me she arrived at Scotland now, I was greeted with Cole. I don't want to talk to him. After that day.

I can still recall my lines saying how much I missed him, thinking maybe we got something, and that he missed me too—but he didn't. He didn't say anything and excused himself to go. I mean, how rude is that? How much pain does that costs you? I...I just can't believe I settled for something like that...like a flirtationship?

Fuck. I don't want to think about it anymore.

"JESSIE SHAY WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU RIGHT NOW?!" I stopped munching the chips as I realized how she maintains a restraining voice when it's obvious she's worried as hell. "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I can't sleep because i'm worried of you! I'm not worried if you broke one of the school's premises today or you not going into class, but i'm worried because when I asked Vince earlier, he told me you're not in your flat!" She exhaled and I can feel how tired she is. Now i'm upset about myself for not telling her about my plans. "WHERE. ARE. YOU."

I sighed. Now i'm stuck in making sure mom's okay or making sure a safe place for me before mom's search and retrieval operation could take place. "You don't have to ask Vince about my whereabouts mom—"

"I'll give you five minutes and if you're still not there—"

"I'm fine, okay?" I bit my lip. "Our trio friendship is over." I started. I heard her steady breathing and thank God for that. "And I don't even feel bad. I..." I paused, hesitating. "I'll just tell you everything when i'll get home. I promise—"

"Oh no, you're not dumping me—"

"I love you mom." It's really hard to end this call so I just put my phone down on the seat, waiting for it to end. Once it ended, I saw her 32 missed calls flashing on the screen. 5 for Vince, 4 for Astrid and... 3 for Cole.

So I see what kind of guy you are Cole.

I turned my phone off and finished my chips. Once I finished it, I get my eyedrop and put it in my eyes so I can't sleep for the whole drive. No one's stopping me to where i'm going now. Everyone who'll stop me will have to make contact with my car.