Patrick's POV
After a long drive around town I finally went home. I walked in the door and saw a note on the coffee table.
Hey if you get home before I do and see this just thought i'd let you know I went out for a coffee. Be back soon.
Xo, Alex
I set the note down and head up stairs to the home studio I set up back when I did the solo album. I just go there when I need to think or when I get bored or when I get an idea for a song. I spend half of my time in this room. It holds some great memories. I smile as I sit down at the piano and just start playing.
Alex's POV
Phil just kinda stands there as I stare. I try to make my mind and body work but nothing happens. I know he's starting to get uncomfortable I can see it in the way he's fidgeting. slowly I'm able to make my mind work again and force out what supposed to be an apology but just sounds like an old man trying to get out of bed.
I try again and this time it sounds like an apology.
"I'm sorry" I say quietly "I didn't mean to run into you."
"No it's alright," he says with a smile. "it's not your fault. I wasn't paying attention to where I was going. Sorry."
"It's okay."
An awkward silence fills the air.
"Well," he says after a few moments "I have to be going. See you around, maybe" he smiles
"Yeah, see you around, I guess." I say and wave as I turn and start walking home. I look over my shoulder to see that he has started walking to where it was he was going. I quickly look forward so that way I don't run into anymore people. I put my headphones back in and allow the words to Alone Together by Fall Out Boy to fill my thoughts.
Patrick's POV
My fingers float across the keys of the piano. Music surrounds me. I can only hear the piano and see the image that is created with it's sweet lullaby. I didn't realize she was home until after the song had ended. She was sitting cross legged on the couch. She was the first to break the silence.
"That was beautiful." she said with a smile. "But it sounds so sad. Is everything okay?" her eyes full of worry.
"Yeah, everything is fine." I say and lean in to place a sweet kiss on her soft lips. She kisses back and our lips separate and she places her forehead against mine.
"I want to show you something." she says and goes and sits down at the piano.
"What is it?" I ask
"Just listen."
She places her hands on the keys and starts to play. I immediately recognize the song. It's Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls. I sit next to her on the bench and listen. Soon her voice starts to fill the air. It's beautiful and wonderful and it makes me want to sing along. So I join her at the chorus and she smiles at the sound or our voices mixed together. It gives me goose bumps. The song comes to an end. She let's the last chord hang in the air which gives it a lasting effect. Almost eternal like it's not going to end but you know it will and when it does you'll only want to replay it.
She lays her head on my shoulder. I felt her smile.
"This could be our song." She says
I smile back at her "yes, it can." I say.
Iris was our song and it will always be our song. She leans up and kisses me. I kiss her back. Her lips are soft and move in sync with mine. I pry her lips apart with mine and slip my tongue in. I felt the heat between our kiss. Her arms wrapped around my neck one hand in my hair sending tingles down my spine. One of my hands on her back and one in her hair. Our bodies crashed down to the floor. Her on top. I held her close. Every touch, every kiss was electrifying. I realized how much she made me forget. All my troubles melted away the moment she kissed me.
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We just laid there on the couch afterwards. We were snuggled close together with the blanket thrown over our bare bodies. She traced small patterns on my chest and hummed softly. I recognize the tune and chuckled. She was humming 'Hum Hallelujah.'
She stops humming for a sec to ask me something.
"How did it go with Pete today?"
I had completely forgotten about him and immediately gulity.
"Yeah, it went fine. He's okay." I say but not all to convincingly.
"Did it really?" she asks.
"Look there's something I have to tell you. It's about me and Pete." I take a deep breath before starting.
Alex's POV
"Look there's something I have to tell you. It's about me and Pete."
When I heard that my mind automatically went to Patrick leaving me for Pete. There was nothing that had prepared me for what he was about to say.
"It was a few months before I met you," he says "you know that meadow I took you to?" I shake my head yes "Me and Pete found it on a walk one day. My mind was in a bad place and Pete helped me get it back in the right place. We talked and walked and suddenly stumbled into a clearing. The meadow was so beautiful. We just stood there and took it in.
"It's so beautiful," I said to Pete
"Yeah, it is." He said
He turned and looked at me and I looked at him. I don't know if was just the heat of the moment or if there was something between us, but he leaned in and I leaned towards him until our lips met. It was so long since I had been that close to another person. One thing eventually led to another and by the end of the day after we got home to our separate houses I didn't know how to explain it. I was left questioning myself. What had happened in the meadow? Did I love Pete? Did he love me? All these questions were racing through my mind and I had no idea how to answer them." he finished and my mind drew a blank.
What? I was silent for a few minutes and I got up and got dressed and so did Patrick. It was quiet and neither of us wanted to be the first to break it, but it had to be broken. I turn to him.
"Do you love Pete?" I ask
He sits there in an awkward silence before answering.
"I don't know... maybe." he says
I sighed. I didn't know what to do. Should I stay or should I go. What do I do? I stay quiet for a few moments not really sure of what to say.
"Your confused right now aren't you?" I ask.
"Yes, I am." He says and looks at me with sad eyes.
"I'm sorry," I say "I think until you make up your mind I should go... stay somewhere else.. For a bit." my voice catches at the last part and tears start running down my cheeks.
"No, please you don't have to leave. You can still stay here I-"
"No it's okay. I'll go. I just don't think it's fair to me or to you. You need some space to sort this out." I turn to leave the room and go grab my bag I didn't bother to unpack. He catches my hand and turns me towards him. I look up at him and see he has tears in his eyes.
"Please don't go."
I look away. "I'm sorry." and I let go of his hand and walk out and grab my bag and walk out the door. I get in my car and drive. I don't know where I'm going all that matters is that I'm away from here.
Patrick's POV
I watched her leave. I didn't try and stop her I just let her go. Why? because I love her. She's right it's not fair to her and it's not fair to Pete. I need to sort this out. I sit on the couch with my head in my hands. At the end of all this, I'm left wondering how did it end up like this?
