playlist ; im changkyun

13

-You can listen to In Time-Monsta X while reading this chapter because the song matches this chapter's mood and situation.
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Changkyun's POV

It is my off-day for July. Because I contributed a lot for the company, they gave me an off-day today. But actually, I feel nothing. I don't know what to do, I just want to lay in bed all day long and cry. But instead, I go to my own studio. I keep my belongings there because I'm afraid Minhyuk would steal my precious things. Sorry hyung.

On my way to the studio, I stopped by a flower shop. I asked the florist for a bunch of white roses and asked her to wrap it nicely.

3rd of July. Today is Jiyeon's birthday. I want to send this to her. The article is wrong and I still love the same person, from 5 years ago. People may heard things and all but I can proudly say that I am still missing and only want my first love.

After I asked the deliveryman to send it to Jiyeon, I continue walking to my studio. I wanted to make a song for her. It became my habit to write songs for her from time to time. Maybe because we used to make songs together.

Reaching my studio, I took out my notebook. A notebook with baby blue cover and drawing of planets, moon, and stars on it. Jiyeon drew it for me.

"What do you think? I think I have gold hands."

"What? You're so full of yourself, Yeon. Let me see"

"Just look at what I draw. This is a masterpiece"

"Wah, it's pretty. Maybe I can agree with that. You made the cover cuter"

"I told you. What do you want to do with this book? You better use and treasure it"

"How about..... I write songs in here and you can see it whenever you want. We can make song together too. Also, you can write your own lyrics into the book that I gave you. Do you still have it?"

"Yes. Okay, deal? Don't lose it, don't let anyone touch it. It's our own secret couple thingy"

"Alright, Ji. Don't worry"

Memories flashed at the back of my mind. Jiyeon never left my heart eversince. I'm little afraid that she would find someone else, truthfully. Although I know Jiyeon is a nice person, a loyal one, but the world out there is dangerous. I was supposed to protect her like the members protect their girlfriends, but I'm not there with her.

How I wish I can turn back time, Jiyeon.

You would be smiling while playing with my hair. We could bake together again. We can go on a walk at Hangang River, the place that witnessed our first encounter after meeting each other at the library. We can make songs together. You like hearing my rap, aren't you? We can do many things together. It was my fault. If only I didn't ask you to let me go for this stupid business, we would be happy next to each other.

A tear escaped my eyes as I started to blame myself for things that happened. I opened the notebook. From our first song together ; sky moon, to my latest song ; horizon. I picked up my pen and started to write a title for the song.

In Time

Jiyeon, this song was made for you. I've always wanted to have you back here with me. We can be happy like the old time. I regretted what I did, Ji. I don't deserve you, really. All I wanted now is to hold your hands, and engulfed you into a tight hug.

I miss you, Jiyeon. I really do.