playlist ; im changkyun

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Jiyeon's POV

I drive my car to the park, again. It was our favourite place after all. That's the only place I can cry my heart out. Although my room might be the best place, but I just want to feel everything for the last time. I made up my mind. All I need to do is to discuss my choice with Jimin later. I will tell him everything, from A to Z.

I look around and see nobody. Kind of expected because it's only 2 p.m. No children would go to the park at noon. I take out my phone, and plug in my earphone. Tapping on the song title 'Honestly', the familiar music blast my ears.

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You were wondering why would Changkyun write this kind of song when he promised to stay. When he promised to love and treasure our relationship forever. I guess his forever ends here.

'Truthfully, I was just hoping
you would melt my heart.'

Is this what he meant all this while? Our relationship is just a game to him? You honestly can't understand the point of this song. You shed tears again, hearing his voice. He sounded so sincere. Did he planned all of these before too?

You sighed for the nth times. You sit on the swing, touching the other one. You can see Changkyun there, smiling, while looking at the stars that night. The memories of him and you would sneak out of the dorm came back. You guys would enjoy the night breeze while writing songs together on the swings.
Sound like a drama-like kind of date. But now, your eyes become blurred by your tears. You couldn't imagine he would do that to you. Changkyun was nice to you.

You open your lyrics book and tear one paper from the inside. You started writing.

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You arrived at your house by 5 p.m. You could smell the food that Jimin is making from the living room. Home-made mac n cheese. Jimin's food tastes like our mom's. You smile and head to the kitchen.

"Ooooooo smells good. What time did you arrive home?" you side-hug him.

"Actually not long ago. Around 4.45-ish?" he smiled but then it fades away. You can expect what question he will ask, so you explain quickly by saying that you cried earlier because you were having period pain. You wanted to talk to Jimin later at night, not now. You don't want your dinner become a tear-filled dinner. Your mac n cheese would be soaked and salty with your tears, you don't want that.

You talked with Jimin while having dinner. Having him here with you is much better than those times you would be alone without your parents. He is a good brother. He understand you well, and he is a good listener.
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After a warm bath, you called out to Jimin. He's not responding so you head to his room. You knock and heard him saying come in. You step in his room and saw him with his glasses in front of his laptop. You kind of feel bad for disturbing, but this is your final decision to move on and start anew so you think, you would want to ask for Jimin's opinion.

"Bro, am I disturbing your work?"you asked carefully.

"No. I'm almost done. 2 minutes more." Jimin said, while his eyes still glued to the screen.

You decided to just lie on his bed. You were arranging your words in your head. You were hoping Jimin would not respond by wanting to punch Changkyun after he heard my story.

"Kay, I'm done." finger tapping the Enter sound, loudly. "So, why are you here? Wanna talk about something?" he asked, smiling, looking at me.

"I don't know how to start.. But, actually me and Changkyun broke up. Almost 4 years ago.." you said, while waiting for his reaction. Then it came.

"JIYEON? ARE YOU SERIOUS? WHY? WHERE? HOW? DUDE?????", there it is, Jimin and his annoying American remarks.

"Chill out. Listen to me first, Park Jimin. So, I wanted to tell you long time ago but I just can't. I'm afraid. We broke up, right before he made his decision to become an idol. Our relationship were left hanging just like that. No news from him except from the media. I sent them food but he didn't even touch the slightest when Kihyun could easily recognize my cooking. On my way back to Korea, I met him at the airport but we just bumped into each other. Nothing much. Fast forward to last year, there was an article saying that he got a girlfriend, a non-celebrity girl. I told you, I got a job to replace my sunbae (senior in korean) right? The work was to handle his solo MV and Monsta X's upcoming comeback MV. I met him again and things got worse. It happened a few times and today, I just snapped out. I told him what was on my heart. The other members heard it too. I was embarassed, Min. I don't know how to control my emotions that time," you let out tears after that, and Jimin hugs you.

"Shh, Yeon. It's okay. Continue, I'm here to listen. Let it all out," you nodded and Jimin let you go.

"I wanted to move on. It hurts, a lot. He confessed to the girl with our song. We wrote many songs together and he used that song. I was so sad, Min. So, I decided to travel far away from here. I wanna get my mind off of him. I want to move on, like for real. Do you approve my decision? You can follow me if you want to. Please? Do you let me?" you asked with pleading and moist eyes.

Jimin sighed and that is when you knew that he might don't approve your decision. But then, he took your hand and hold it,

"If that's the only way you can be happy. I approve. I love you so much to see you wrecked like this. Go, Yeon. I want to see you happy when you come back. But promise, facetime me EVERYDAY. Understand?"

I smile wide at his words. Then I engulfed him into a tight hug.

"I promise. I love you too, Jimin." he smiled and pat my head. "How about you watch a movie and sleep with me on the couch today? This might be the last time" he said, making me pout. I admit, it saddens me to leave him, but like he said, that's the only way.

"Why not?"

We spent the night cuddling on the couch till the morning comes. We watched a lot of cartoons and being with Jimin is the best feeling. He is indeed the best brother I could ever had.

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