Kassidy-
Sunday, October 5th 2014
So now we're back. You're surprised about Genesis aren't you? Yes, I was pregnant and she's only a baby right now. She's beautiful and healthy. Me and Matt moved into a larger house and have Oreo and a cat, named Vega. Basically, we extended our family.
It was so much fun at Bora Bora. Yes there were problems, but over all, it was the best thing ever. I got married to Matt and all our friends had come to visit. Ever since our marriage, two weeks ago, Gianna and Taylor haven't spoken. I miss them, but not as much as I miss Jill and Taylor. Kian and Gianna are extremely happy and so is Jill and Taylor. Taylor still glances at Gianna at times but Kian is super protective over her.
As I said in the previous chapter, being a fangirl is tough. I'm not lying either. You may be the girl who fangirls over Nash Grier or the girl who fangirls over Justin Bieber or the girl who fangirls over One Direction or maybe even the girl who fangirls over 5sos. When you're a fangirl, it's hard for you to control how you feel. You're so in love with them that you wanna marry them. Well I'll tell you honey, keep dreaming and chase that dream because you'll achieve it. Just as Peter Pan said, just a little bit of pixie dust. Just a little bit of pixie dust....sounds ridiculous right? Well you're pixie dust is your faith in believing that you'll achieve those goals. Good luck girl. I wish you the best.
Before you worry about your dreams of marrying your favorite celebrity, I'm not saying forget about it, but before worrying about it live in the now. Send risky messages, talk to your crush, tell someone you love them, or try to meet your celebrity crush. Because one day, you might get hit by a bus or your crush might get hit by a bus.
Maybe it's weird. Maybe it's scary. Maybe it seems downright impossible to just be--to let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you'll die if you don't see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether it's your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands.
But their is nothing more beautiful than being desperate.
And there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care.
We are young and we are beautiful and we are human and we are not as in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans.
We never know when the bus is coming...
xoxo Kassidy
