Randomness

December 18, 2018

This was a message I sent to RedBlue115 a long time ago on the BPS Discord server to ask if I could use his skin.

     I was planning my next anmation and I was thinking of a character that would fit in the story as the main character. Then I remembered your skin.
    
     "Perfect!" I said to myself silently in my head.

     I then decided to ask you to send me your skin. But how? It is a risky move on this server to ask for someone's skin so I can put it in an animation. The last time I did so I regretted it quickly. I had asked for two skins to be a couple characters and I was suddenly sent 10. I had to pick carefully from them, narrowing them down to the two I needed. The thing that made it even worse was that right after asking that dangerous question, I had just found one that was perfect on Nova Skins. So then I could only choose one. I squinted carefully at each one. I would have to choose If I was going to finish my render, but I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

     Soon I decided to choose the person who had given me the kindest compliment lately. But I didn't want everyone else to feel sad or left out. So after The render was done, and I had written his name into the story, I showed no one. The guilt coursing through my veins felt as If I had just taken the last cookie from the cookie trey. I still haven't told anyone who I had chosen and I am not sure if I ever will. :]