Can't Get Out

Chapter 14

Ash POV

I think konti nalang oras ko dito... habang dumadaan ang araw mas lalo na akong ng hihina like right now di na naman ako pumasok sa school because of my heart... Mommy is really worried about me they don't what to do now...

"Mom kaunti nalang ang oras ko dito..."nanghihinang sabi ko kay mommy

"Baby don't say that okay? you will live longer I promise that. I love you..."sabi ni Mommy at yumakap sa akin tsaka humalik

"Mom..."tawag ko sa kanya

"Yes my princess?"sagot ni Mommy

"Mommy I want to experience things that I didn't experience before, I want to cherish each day that I had. Please Mommy?"sabi ko tumango naman siya

"Of course princess tell me what is it? Mommy is all yours now no work to disturb us--- oh wait someone is calling..."sabi ni Mommy at kinuha ang cellphone niya, Mama isa calling

"Yes cous? Really?! Thank God! Okay when we will go to States for her transplant? Okay I'll ready now okay... Alright bye love you, thank you very much cous!"sabi ni Mommy at pinatay na ang tawag and then she face me with a happy face

"Baby you had your heart donor now and Tomorrow we will fly to States..."sabi ni Mommy

"Mom pwede ba ako pumunta sa camp? sunduin niyo nalang po ako, kasama ko naman po si Ate I twins..."sabi ko, tumingin naman siya sa akin

"Baby..."

"Mom please? And sana po di malaman ng mga friends ko o kahit na sino kung na saan tayo o kahit na balitaan sila tungkol sa akin, I just don't want then to worry about me..."sabi ko, bumuntong hininga naman si Mommy at tumango

"Okay, lets go now mommy will sent you to school but please be with your cousins all the time..."sabi ni Mommy tumango naman ako at hamalik sa pisngi niya

"Thank you Mommy"sabi ko at bumango na tsaka naligo at nagbihis. I just to say goodbye to them...

....

"Ash! Let's Jam!"tawag sa akin ni Kuya Jem tumango naman ako at lumapit sa kanila

"Sing for us Ash please?"request ni Mich

"Ahm.. Guys kasi---"

"It's okay Ate..."sabi ko at ngumiti, pero yung mukha nila may pag-aalinlangan pa rin. umupo ako sa may harapan ng piano at tinitigan muna sila

"Goodbye"

Baby, I guess I don't understand
How did we let this slip through our hands
We were so in love and then we...
Lost it all, and now it's over...
Now it's over...

I know we said that we could just be friends
But I can no longer play pretend
Because the memories of us cloud my head
And I'm sorry...
So sorry...

But, I have to say goodbye (Yeah)
Goodbye...
I don't wanna say it (Nah)
I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna say goodbye
Goodbye...
But we have to...
But we have to...

And baby I guess I can't comprehend
The fact that this could really be the end
I wish we could talk this out instead
But we've tried that...
Haven't we tried that?

I am doing my best to let this go
Cause, it's obvious that we're on different roads
You consume my mind when I'm alone
I miss you
Oh, how I miss you

But, I have to say goodbye (Yeah)
Goodbye...
I don't wanna say it (Nah)
I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna say goodbye
Goodbye...
But we have to...
But we have to...

"You're very talented Ash!"sigaw ni Ate Yen ngumiti lang ako

I'm sorry guys... Hindi ko man gusto na di magpaalam pero it's for your own good too, I don't want you to hope if I am still alive after my operation, I don't want to broke you guys if you found that I'm gone. Sorry but I have to keep this, sorry kasi dinaan ko nalang sa kanta ang pamamaalam ko, but I hope you still forgive me for doing this I hope we will still be friends even though I will leave you....

Specially to you Bam, I'm sorry for this... sorry if I need to leave you but it's for your own good I don't want you to be broke if the time come you'll see me like this, 'coz I know that feeling... Hope you understand me I will love you always...

"Hey Boo parang tulala ka?"napatingin naman ako sa kanya, I'm really sorry Bam...

"N-nothing... Anyway I love you always..."sabi ko ngumiti naman siya at yinakap ako, I wanted to cry... I can't imagine leaving him...

"I love you too always, remember that no matter what happen your always here in my heart..."sabi niya napakagat labi nalang ako para pigilan yung luha ko, I'm so sorry Bam... I'm so sorry forgive me please... hope you forgive me...

"Sygnómi an chreiasteí na se afíso Tan, elpízo na me synchoríseis ... Pánta agapás na to thymásai aftó"sabi ko at kumalas sa yakap and the I kiss him on forehead. Sorry if I need to leave you Tan, hope you forgive me... I always love you remember that..

"Yiee!!! May nanalo na!! Tara tulog!"sabi ni Kuya Al natawa nalang ako

"Matulog na mga tayong lahat for sure tomorrow malaking surpresa na naman ang bubulagta sa atin! Good night guy's!"sabi kina kuya Emjay at pumasok ma siya sa tent niya sumunod naman sina kuya Jem at Kuya Al pero niligpit muna nila yung mga instruments

I need my inhaler...

"Boo are you okay?"tanong niya ng mapansin na parang hinahabol ko na hininga ko

"I'm okay... I-I just need m-my inhaler..."sabi ko at di ko nalang pinahalata nararamdaman ko. My heart...

"Ashley! take this"sabi ni Iris at binigay sa akin ang inhaler

"I'm sorry inatake lang siya ng asthma but nothing to worry about, sige na Tan matulog ka na kami na bahala kay Ashley"sabi ni Ivy,  tumango maman si Tan

"Matutulog na ako, ikaw din magpahinga ka na. See you tomorrow..."sabi niya at hinalikan ulo ko. Sorry my Bam if you won't see me tomorrow till the next next next day or maybe year...

"G-good night..."sabi ko nalang, umalis naman siya at naglakad na papuntang tent niya, napayakap naman ako kina Ivy

"I'm such a liar..."sabi ko at umiyak

"Shh... I know it's hard for you Ash but we need to... stop crying your heart..."sabi ni Ivy habang hinahagod likod ko

"I hope he still want me... Hoping he will forgive me..."sabi ko ng hihina na puso ko

"They are all in their tent now and sleeping, we need to get out here now..."sabi ni Iris, tumango naman ako at umiiyak na umalis doon habang akay ni Ivy si Iris naman kumuha sa ibang gamit ko

"I already put the letter for Ate Ky on her bag for sure tomorrow makikita niya kaagad yun paggising..."sabi ni Iris at tinulangan akong akayin

"Just hold on cous..."sabi nilang dalawa tumango naman ako kahit konti nalang magpapass out na ako

"Princess!"it's kuya lumapit naman siya sa amin at kaagad akong kinarga

"Let's go now we don't have a time nasa airport n sina Mommy"sabi ni Kuya at isinakay na ako sa van kasama sila Ivy

I see my Ate crying because of my situation, I know it hurts them a lot seeing me like this... not sure if after operation I still alive...

"Fight princess fight okay? Don't leave us..."sabi ni kuya, ngumiti lang ako kahit hinang hina na ako...

Bam... sorry if I had to let go of you, I did this because I think this is only way to make you happy, even if it mean to be sad... I love you always. Hoping you will forgive me if we see each other again...

Sometime we need to let go people we love. Cause if it's mean to be you will see each other again...