Can't Get Out

Chapter 21

Ash POV

"Gusto kung sabihin sa kanya na bakit ka pa bumalik? Masaya na ako kasama si Tan eh, masaya kaming dalawa until you came"

Those words napaiyak nalang ako habang narinig ko ang usapan ni Sheena at Ate Ky kanina...

"Bakit mk pa kailangang bumalik? diba iniwan mo siya? I fix him! I love him!"

Tama pa ba itong ginagawa ko? I'm happy while my bestfriend is broken because of me? Sheena is right I already left but why I came back? Oh god help me with this? I don't know what to do anymore, please god I need your help...

"Please God help me..."bulong ko nalang habang nakamasid sa dagat

"Hey!"napatalon naman ako sa gulat at pinunasan ko kaagad luha ko

"Why are you crying? Hmm?"tanong niya at yumakap sa akin, umiling naman ako at ngumiti

"Don't lie to me Ash..."he said so I faced him

"Tan what if di pala talaga tayo?"tanong ko kumunot naman nuo niya

"What are you saying?"tanong niya

"I am saying that what if pinagtagpo lang tayo? but we're not really for each other? what if there is someone is deserving than me? what if---"

"Ash what are talking about? I can't understand you? just tell it to me straight to the point! Why are---"

"I'm sorry I....I....I...I can't love you back this time Tan... sorry di ko masusuklian ang pagmamahal mo ngayon..."sabi ko at napayuko habang umiiyak

"Ash I told you I'll wait..."sabi niya at hinawaka  mukha ko tsaka pinunasan luha ko. Umiling naman ako

"Tan please... Just let me go..."sabi ko at tiningnan siya, I saw pain in his eyes...

"What the hell are you saying Ash? Hindi madali ang sinasabi mo! Your torturing me!"galit na sabi niya

"Tan pl----"

"Is this because of Sheena? Is this because of her?! Ash! Kailan ba ako magiging priority sayo?! I lost you five years ago and then eto na naman? Ash sana pinatay mo nalang ako!"galit na sabi niya kaya mas napahagulgol nalang ako

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

"Ash kailan mo ba ako ipaglalaban? kailan mo ako uunahin? Sheena is just our friend! If she really true friend she will understand! I already told her that no one can replace you, I will choose you! only you! so please don't beg to let you go"sabi niya at hinalikan ulo ko

"Please Ash... don't do this, I know Sheena is your best friend but how about me?"sabi niya

"I love you Tan and God knows how much I love you, but... Sheena is my best friend and I don't want see her crying while I'm happy, I'm sorry if I am not strong enough to fight you, I'm sorry if I am weak... I'm sorry Tan... But I just can't please just let go of me I don't want to hurt you anymore..."

"I don't want to ruin my friendship I had with Sheena, and I'm sorry for that... Please don't blame her it's my decision, I know God will make a way for us to see each other again and if that day will come I promise I won't let you go. I love you always remember that..."

"I'm sorry Tan, I love you..."sabi ko at hinalikan siya sa pisngi at nuo at sa kamay tsaka umalis na ng hindi siya nililingon. God I'm sorry for the wrong decision again... I just did this for our friendship...

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"I'm sorry kung di ako nakapagpaalam Tan..."

Nagpaalam na kasi ako kina Ate Ky na di ko matatapos ang extended one week reunion kasi kailangan na ako and naawa na ako sa mga kasamahan ko kasi kinukulit na sila ng ibang management

"It's okay I understand sinabi sa akin ng kambal mo and I already read the letter, anyway you're stressful I can see it in your face. sunod sunod ba ang ganap mo?"tanong niya tumango naman ako

"Later I have a photoshoot with McCoy company and then meet and great and then photoshoot again"sabi ko at inaantok na sa sobrang pagod

"Maybe I should out now? You need to rest"sabi niya tumango naman ako

"Pahinga ka na? dapat tama palagi ang tulog mo at dapat kumain ka ng masustansya para di ka magkasakit, I want the old you yung medyo may laman ngayon kasi ang payat payat muna"sabi niya natawa nalang ako

"If we see each other again aasahan mo babalik na ang katawan ko dati"sabi ko tumawa naman siya

"Good, Love you take a rest now"sabi niya tumango naman ako at inend na ang VC

Nagbihis muna ako bago bumalik sa kama at nakatulog na kaagad

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"Thank you for coming..."sabi ko sa isang fan ngumiti naman siya

"Oh my! finally I meet you in person Lallaina I'm really a fan of your! can I hugged you?"sabi ng isang fan ngumiti naman ako at yinakap siya tsaka pinermahan ang magazine and then we take a picture

"Hi? Good morning"sabi ko habang nakangiti, nakita ko namang naiiyak siya

"Hey why are you crying?"nag-aalalang tanong ko at binigyan siya ng tissue

"I-I'm just h-happy..."sabi niya habang na nginginig pa kaya naman pinaupo ko muna siya at tinawag ang security para tumawag ng medic

"Hey just relax..."pagpapakalma ko sa kanya

"Ma'am here the medic..."sabi ng guard tumango naman ako at pinacheck siya sa medic baka tumaas vital ni nako mahirap na...

"Hey... hey... just relax don't need to panic, calm down sweetheart"sabi ko habang pinipermahan magazine niya

"Her vitals is okay Maam and she's fine now..."sabi ng medic tumango naman ako at pinasalamatan siya, tsaka nilapit ang fan

"You okay now?"tanong ko tumango naman siya at tumayo

"Yes...ahm... can we take a selfie? it's my b-birthday today..."sabi niya ngumiti naman ako

"Oh... Happy birthday to you, let me take a picture"sabi ko at binigay niya naman cellphone niya sa akin and I took four selfies before I gave it to her

"Thank you Miss Lallaina..."sabi niya ngumiti lang ako at hinubad suot kung denim jacket at kinabit sa balikat niya

"That's my gift for you, guard guide her baka she's not still feeling well"sabi ko tumango naman ang guard at inalalayan ang isang fan

"Thank you so much miss Lallaina"sabi niya ngumiti lang all at nagpaalam tsaka naupo na ulit at nagsign na ng mga magazine from fans yung iba may gifts pang binigay sa akin and some of them ay birthday nila and mabuti nalang I prepare handkerchief and scarf to give them as my gift syempre thankful din ako kasi special days nila to and pinili pa nila pumunta at mageffort para makita lang ako....