Can't Get Out

Chapter 19

Ash POV

Sometime you need to let go the person so you can make them happy ika nga ng nakakarami but why when I did that I didn't  feel that he's happy actually I see madness in his eyes... Totoo ba talaga yun? Hay nako...

God please give me a sign na magstay pa sa kanya please God... please God...

Even it hurt so much to let him go I will accept it kung saan siya masaya, but if ever man na bigyan ako ni god ng sign I'm still worried for Sheena. She's happy with Tan and she likes Tan, I don't want na masira ang relationship na meron kami... kaya I will choose friendship bahala na kung sabihin ng iba na ang tanga ko na na pinakawalan siya ulit...

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako habang minamasdan ang mga cities mula dito sa roof top ng building, it's so beautiful here...

"Ash..."that voice... napalingon naman ako it's Tan and he's holding flowers and bear...

"A-ahm..."

"Please listen to me first..."sabi niya tumango naman ako at umupo

"About what happened yesterday... I'm sorry..."sabi niya

"N-no it's okay I-I understand..."sabi ko ngumiti naman siya at lumuhod sa harapan ko

"Tan what are you doing... Stan---"

"Just let me okay? I need to do this Ash, I'm sorry for everything... I'm sorry for hurting you yesterday, I'm sorry kasi for the past five years galit ako sayo, sorry for the treatment that I give to you, you didn't deserve that... Sorry kasi di ko man lang nalamam na gaano kahirap ang pinagdadaanan mo, sorry kasi wala ako sa tabi mo nung kailangan mo ako, I'm sorry Ash... I'm sorry kasi di ko kaagad na---"

"No you don't need to say sorry, kasi it's my fault naman kasi di ko sina---"

"No it's not your fault it's mine, kasi kung napanuod ko lang kaagad yung video sana di kita nasaktan kagabi, kung napanuod ko lang sana kaagad edi sana di ako nagalit sayo it's all my fault sana inintindi kita but instead of that nasaktan pa kita sa kagustuhan kung makapaghiganti sayo... I'm  sorry Ash I'm sorry..."sabi niya habang nakluhod at umiiyak I just hugged him

"It's okay... I understand Tan..."sabi ko at kumalas sa yakap tsaka pinunasan luha niya

"Stop crying Ash..."sabi niya at pinunasan din luha ko tsaka itinayo na ako and then he hugged me

"I love you Ash... I really love you it didn't fade away natabunan lang ng galit..."sabi niya ngumiti lang ako at pinunasan luha niya

"Ikaw din stop crying na..."sabi ko at natawa nalang siya

"Ash... can I court you again?"tanong niya kaya napakagat labi nalang ako at tiningnan siya sa mata

"Ano na sagot na!"napalingon naman kaming dalawa sila Kuya Al, Kuya Emja, Kuya Jem, Kuya Mich, Kuya Alfred, Ate Ky, Iris and Ivy, Ate Gwen, and yung iba naming classmates namin nuon and I saw Sheena there's a pain in her eyes...

"Tan... I'm sorry I can't now... please understand Tan, I can't choose you now... My bestfriend, Sheena... She's in love with you and I know she's happy I can't just ruin that for my own happiness I'm sorry Tan..."sabi ko, ngumiti lang siya

"I already know that na yan ang magiging sagot mo but I'm willing to wait Ash I really do..."sabi niya kaya tumulo nalang luha ko tsaka hinalikan pisngi niya at nagpaalam na mauna na

I'm sorry Tan I can't just choose you over friendship, I love Sheena and I don't want to hurt her, I'm really sorry Bam...

-----

To: My Tan

Tan I'm sorry if umalis kami nina Iris and Ivy ng walang paalam sa inyo it's emergency kasi si grandma hinahanap kami kaya kailangan naming magpakita sa kanya, we will be back naman if pwede na kaming umalis

text ko kaagad sa kanya, madaling araw kasi kami umalis nina Iris ng tumawag si kuya sa amin

"Grandma sleep now you need to rest..."sabi ko tumango naman siya at pumikit na pero nagmulat ulit

"Stay here please? Don't go anywhere?"sabi ni Grandma tumango naman ako

"But grandma if you woke and I am not here it means I'm talking to someone okay?"sabi ko tumango naman siya at pumikit na

*Ting!*

kinuha ko naman phone ko, It's Tan he's texting...

From: My Tan

I already know Ash Ate Ky told me, Ivy called her earlier... anyway are you okay there? you need me? just say yes and I'll be there

Napangiti nalang ako at nireplyan siya

To: My Tan

I'm okay here, just enjoy the reunion and we can't go back na, nakiusap kasi si Grandma eh... And Tan next month I'll go back to states for my work...

"Who are you texting with Twin?"pinatay ko naman kaagad phone ko at napatingin kay Ashey

"Nothing..."mahinang sabi ko at tumayo tsaka lumipat sa couch sumunod naman siya

"Ashy who is texting you?"malambing na tanong niya kaya bumunting hininga nalang ako

"Fine, it's Tan"sabi ko ngumiti naman siya at yumakap sa akin, so what's up with him? I thought he break your heart last last last night?"tanong niya, sumimangot naman akl tsismosa din itong kambal ko eh...

"Yeah but he already say sorry and you know Twin he made an effort..."sabi ko ngumiti naman siya

"I'm so happy for you and you know you're softy, in taglog you're marupok"sabi niya imbis na mapasimangot ako sa sinabi niya natawa nalang ako, ang slang niya kasi eh

"Don't tawa nga"sabi niya at itinago yung mukha niya sa likod ko

"Lets take a selfie nalang"sabi ko and dami na kasing DM sa akin eh some of my followers wants me to update themom so ano pa ba magagawa ko?

"Psh! di man lang kami inimbita"pagpaparinig ni Iris na nakaupo sa kabilang couch malapit sa bintana

"Ito naman tampo ka kaagad"sabi ko at nilapitan siya tsaka yinakap

"Oh my gosh!! Ate Tracy is going to Thailand!"sigaw ni Ivy

"Where? saan niya sinabi?"tanong ko namin kaagad

"She reply on your post!"sabi niya habang busy sa cellphone niya kaya kaagad ko namang tiningnan Twitter ko

"Sayang naman di tayo makakasama, si Ate talaga alam niya din mang timing eh... kainis last month ko pa siya niyayaya"sabi ko nalang at sumandal kay Iris

"Ate ang daya mo!"reklamo ni Ivy ng makausap ni si Ate

"Nope I am not, gawa kasi kayo ng way para makasama kayo"sabi ni Ate at nakangisi pa, sumimangot nalang kaming lahat

"Hmp! ang daya niyo nina Ate Callie at Ate Cezaria..."sabi ni Iris tumawa lang si Ate at pinakita din sina Ate Callie at Ate Ceza

"Wait! Nasa Italy kayo?"sabi ko ngumiti naman sila

"Nope..."sabi ni Ate Ceza

"No Ate you can't lie to me I know you're in Italy I know that hotel Ate, it's Hotel Vilòn in Rome Italy"sabi ko tumawa nalang silang tatlo

"You got us, sige na matutulog na kami dadalhan nalang namin kayo ng pasalubong bye! We love you guys! Kiss niyo kami kay great grandma"sabi niya at binaba na ang VC, napabuntong hininga nalang kami apat at nagkanya kanya ng pwesto dito naman ako lumipat sa window seat tsaka nahiga

I don't want to go back in States pa... pero I need to kasi doon na buhay ko ngayon and may trabaho na ako... Hay buhay talaga...