𝑨𝑫𝑫𝑰𝑪𝑻𝑰𝑽𝑬 * c.b

CHAPTER31; Explainations.

The rest of Coachella went by fast. Colby insisted on matching the second and third day, which I agreed to it. We hadn't talked about the break up or what happened yet, which was tearing me up. Why were we acting so normal yet it was so different. I was hanging out with my ex boyfriend who I am still extremely in love with. How could we just be friends? I didn't want to be his friend.

"It's day four, our last day, Valarie! Get up!" Kat said, walking into the room where I laid in the bed, half asleep.

I groan. "Katrina, I don't really want to go today. Can't I just stay at this house?" I ask.

"Yeah I guess you could. I'll go tell everyone your staying so they don't have to worry." She says and shuts the door. I close my eyes again and fall back into a deep sleep.

And hour, or maybe two later, I finally get up. I grab my phone and unplug it. It was 9:50. That's usually the time Colby and I would wake up when we lived together.

I get up and go into the kitchen. I only got a little scared when I heard noise coming from that area. I walk in to see that I wasn't the only one who stayed behind.

Colby.

"Hey, good morning. I made breakfast." Colby said, smiling at me.

I give him a sleepy smile. "Thanks Colbs. Uh, why didn't you go today?" I ask.

He shrugged. "I guess I just wanted to keep you company." He told me. I stayed silent. I grabbed the plate of food Colby had prepared for me.

"Colby?" I ask, once I finished the food. He looks at me. "Why? Why are you hanging out with me?"

"Valarie, you cant just ask that question." He says, looking down. "Can I please explain myself to you?"

I nod. "Yes."

"Mike asked if I would go to the party with him, I had nothing to do so I said yes. I told you I was going, I had no clue you were going to the same party. I never was going to do anything with that girl, I didn't even know her, nor did I do anything with her." He said taking a break to breathe.

"But she was all up on you Colby, you let it happen." I said.

"Yes I know. I drank a lot because mike was, and I know I shouldn't have but I did. These two girls came along and started rubbing up on mike. Don't tell Xepher about that by the way." He said and I nodded. "The girl that you saw asked if I was single, and I obviously told her no. She didn't care though, and I tried pushing her off but mike told me just to ignore it and let it happen. Then you saw me and that's when I regretted everything." He says.

"Is that it?" I ask,

"No." He says. "I was angry. At you for leaving me, and myself for being stupid and making you leave me. I did something terrible that night. I went back, found that girl.."

"Colby," I sigh. "You slept with her?"

"No. I didn't go that far. I took her into a room, and we did things, but I didn't sleep with her. I wasn't that stupid." He said. "Valarie, I am in love with you. What I did was stupid, and I know you want to hate me. Hell, you should hate me. And I hope you do, because I deserve it all,"

I look down. What should I do? Of course, I love him more than anything, but how can this be fixed?