𝑨𝑫𝑫𝑰𝑪𝑻𝑰𝑽𝑬 * c.b

CHAPTER44; You.

After the meeting, and when everybody finally decided to leave, it was just Colby, Jasper, and I. I still had no idea where our next trip was going to be, and I couldn't wait to find out and be back with the boys.

"Val," Colby says, coming out of the bathroom, fully dressed, but with wet hair. "Will you come with me, just on a walk." He says, grabbing a leash for Jasper. I nod, getting up following him out the door.

We walk for a few minutes, until Colby leads us to a park. It was empty there, only a few kids were there playing on a play set. I look up at the sky. It was nearly dark. We sit on a bench, and he ties the leash to a pole next to us, so Jasp wouldn't run away.

"You said when I got home that you wanted to talk." Colby speaks, clearing his throat. "I don't know what last night meant for us, but that definitely wasn't us talking. And I agree with you, that we need to talk."

I look down at the ground. "It's been so long" I blurt out. I can feel Colby's eyes on mine. "Since I found you, at the party. It really hurt, seeing you and another girl there."

"I'm sorry Val, you know I am!" He explains. His voice cracking.

I look at him. "I just don't know, Cole. I don't know what I need anymore." I say, tearing up.

Colby sniffles. "But I know what I need, V." He says. "I need you. I need you! You're like a drug, you're just so addictive. And I was stupid and I didn't realize what I was losing when I did what I did. I regret it, I regret it so much and if I had one wish it would be to redo that night and not go to that party. Valarie Beau, I love you. I am so in love with you, and I don't want anything else except for you, and for you to love me too. You're perfect, like, you're everything I've never had, and if you leave me then okay, because maybe that's what's best for you, but what's best for me, is you. You're my drug."

Tears were running down both of our faces, he was so pure and all the emotion was spilling out of his heart.

"I-" I stamper, "I love you, I love you so much. I can't get away from you either." I mutter, grabbing his neck with both of my hand and pulling him in to hug.

"I love you so much baby" he whispers. "I love you"

There was forgiveness in every situation. I believed in forgiveness a lot. Even the unforgivable, could be forgave. And that's why I forgive you, Colby Brock. Not just because I believe in forgiveness, but because I love you.

Not only was I your drug, but you were mine too. You were always there to make me feel high on love. I was addicted.

You were addictive.