Memory Lost

Memory Lost Chapter 4

Ryan's P.O.V.

I can't believe I got angry at Rose and I can't believe that I fucking told her than I hated her and that I will never love her. Truthfully I was already in love with her, ever since I saw her and I fucked up my chance to tell her my love. I had to leave the house for a bit, because I was just angry at myself.

I wanted to run back to Rose, apologize and confess my love to her but I couldn't, she needed time alone without me hovering over her. Three hours had past and my wanting to see Rose grew to the point where I needed to see her now. I ran back to the house, got inside and I could see that Marie looked scared.

"Where's Rose?" I ask.

She tells me that Rose is in my room I ran in there to see her sleeping on the bed. I smiled at her sleeping form; walked over to her and I stroked her cheek gently. I went back into the living room to see that Marie was still here.

"I need your help." I tell her.

She looks at me with shock written in her eyes.

"I need advice...I fucked up with Rose and I need your help to fix things." I say.

Marie and I both sat on the couch.

"I wouldn't rush into telling her that you love her..." Marie began.

I knew that much, I just told Rose that I hated her.

"Why don't you apologize to Rose, tell her that you didn't mean it, that you were angry and then maybe you could help her regain her memories." Marie finished.

"Sounds like a good plan." I say.

Marie smiles. "I'm glad, is it okay if I buy Rose new clothes?" She asks.

I nod my head. "Of course it is." I reply.

Marie hands me a notebook and a pen. "When she wakes up, have her write whatever she wants and I'll come by tomorrow to pick it up." She tells me.

I place both things on the coffee table. "Alright thanks." I say.

Marie stands up off the couch. "I should get going." She says.

I stood up too and walked her out the front door and she stops just in front of the door.

"I hope everything works out for you and Rose." She says.

Then she walks out the house so I close the door, walk over to the couch and lay down. I didn't want to disturb Rose or even make her angrier and upset at me. I shut my eyes and fell asleep. I woke up...I think an hour later, wanting to check up on Rose so I did. She was still asleep so I bent down and I kissed her cheek. I went back to the couch and fell asleep again. I woke up hearing the television and I felt a blanket on me.

Rose's P.O.V.

I was half awake when Ryan came in and kissed me on the cheek. Why would he do that if he claimed he hated me? Although when he kissed me, I felt sparks, what the hell was that about? I got off the bed wanting to confront him about kissing me but when I arrived in the living room I saw he was asleep. I grabbed a blanket off a chair and draped it over him; I sat against the couch and began watching television.

I felt somebody touch my back so I turned slightly thinking that Ryan was awake but his eyes were closed. I shrug my shoulders thinking it was nothing and went back to watching television. A few minutes later I felt a pair of lips pressed against my cheek. I waited to move my head because I didn't want to kiss him. When his lips left my cheek, I turned my head to face Ryan.

"You see that notepad and pen on the coffee table?" He questions.

I moved my head to see what he was talking about and I saw them.

"Marie wanted you to write down what you wanted her to buy." He says.

I grabbed the two things and placed them on my lap.

"Why did you kiss me after you told me you hated me?" I ask.

Ryan sat up. "Because I don't hate you." He replies.

Then why would he say that he hated me.

"I just got upset when you said that you hated me." He says.

I laugh a little. "I don't hate you either. I was just upset when you said that you would never trust me." I say.

Ryan gets off the couch, sits down beside me and he pulls me onto his lap.

"I will trust you one day. Just give me some time alright?" He questions.

I look up at him. "Okay." I whisper.

I feel Ryan kiss the top of my head. "In a few days I will take you out to see if we could regain your memories." He tells me.

I don't say anything back instead I snuggle into him and I lay my head on his chest. I felt Ryan tense up but then I feel him relax and he wraps his arms around me. I close my eyes.

"I don't deserve you." I thought I heard Ryan whisper.

I look up at Ryan. "What was that?" I ask.

Ryan looks down at me, kisses my forehead. "Nothing...you tired?" He asks.

I nod my head and then Ryan stands up with me in his arms and he takes me into his bedroom. After he puts me on the bed and puts a blanket on me, he began to walk out the room.

"Don't go." I say.

Ryan turns around comes back over and he gets in bed with me.