BONDS • k. hatake

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Months of pasted and I still had the ring on my finger, everyone wondered why and asked me daily.

I always told them that it was special and I had no time to return it to him yet, I wanted to keep it safe with me until then, but the truth was I couldn't bare to give it back.

I walked around town buying some food for my apartment and when I was paying something dropped out of my purse. I finished paying for my things, picked it up and walked out of the store.

I looked at it in my hands, it was the keys to the Hatake compound.

My heart shatter even more, if it was possible, seeing it, I looked around before running off.

I walked to the compound, wanting to leave the keys there. Knowing kakashi would be there some day and find it.

I unlocked the door, I walked in seeing it clean.

I place the keys on the table.

I looked around what could've been my future home. Where I would've been playing with my children, where I fed them.

Where kakashi would be reading his stupid icha icha as I scolding him, the kids playing with each other.

I smiled at the future that would never come.

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The rain hit my window as I woke up.

It was fitting.

The anniversary of Kakashi's father.

I wore what I would've worn to work, tied my hair in a low ponytail, the shorter pieces falling out and framing my face.

I picked up some flowers and headed to the cemetery with an umbrella.

I was here pretty early, knowing Kakashi wouldn't be here until later because of his hokage duties.

I wiped down the gravestone and replaced the old flowers that had withered.

"I guess Kakashi's been too busy to visit you, huh?" I said quietly, tracing the engraved words with my fingertips. "Don't blame him though, he's the hokage now. He had a whole village to look after." I smiled sadly.

"Kakashi is a great man, though he has trouble admitting he's scared or wrong or if he lost." I gazed over to my engagement ring. I slid it off and placed it on his grave. "Here's your wife's ring back, thought you'd like to have it near. I hope you're back reunited with her."

"Goodbye, Sukumo. Kakashi missed you, please look after him for me."

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After a long day at work, I thought I would go out. Grab a drink, maybe try to take my mind off everything.

I took a long hot shower, did my makeup real nice, I straightened my now shoulder length hair and fluffed it out with a side part. I put on some light wash ripped jeans, a white v neck T-shirt and a black leather jacket. I slipped on some black pointed toe heels and walked out.

I headed to a bar and order some tequila shots, wanting to numb away the pain but I guess I couldn't get drunk anymore.

I had a whole round and felt nothing, I was t drunk or tipsy at all.

I sighed before my pager started beeping. I sighed heavily, paying the bartender before rushing to the hospital.

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"Who paged me?" I said, my voice monotone.

"I did, ma'am." One of the younger doctors said. I placed my hand out, waiting for the chart but it didn't come. I looked at her expectantly.

"Well? What's the hold up?" I said sternly, she flinched.

"Uhm... the Sixth Hokage has been admitted to the hospital due to a failed suicide attempt."