Deacury - School Of Loverboys

Memories

"John" Brian said, snapping me out of my daze

"Hmm?" I shot my head around to look at him

We are in the middle of our maths class and I'm staring out of the window. I'll give you one guess who I'm thinking about. That's right, that boy who's stolen my heart. It had finally sunk in that he isn't here when I need him. I didn't want to be here, at school, I wanted to be with him - wherever he is.

"John Deacon have you been listening?" Our maths teacher, Mrs Spokes voice boomed

"Sorry miss" I rubbed my head

"Will you see me after class?" She gave me a stern look

"Yes" I did a single nod

"Right let's carry on, algebra!" Her chalk squeaked across the blackboard

"What's wrong with you?" Brian asked, sounding really concerned, "you're always focused, I've never heard you being told off"

"I've just had a bad morning" I wasn't lying, I've been really grumpy

"Do you want to talk about it?" Brian asked in a very low, quiet voice

"I'm ok" I said, not very convincingly

"If you change your mind, you know where I am" Brian leaned back on his chair

"Thanks Bri" I smiled

At the end of class I stayed back as of Mrs Spokes's request. A great start back to school.

"Do you know why I kept you back?" She quizzed

"Yes, I was unfocused" I replied

"Is everything ok John? This isn't like you at all" She interrogated

"I've just had a lot on my mind, but I'm fine. Thank you" one corner of my mouth formed a smile

"Ok then. Off to your next class" she dismissed me

"Bye" I said as I walked out of the classroom

Next lesson, Geography with Mr Vale. He came on the trip with us. As you know, Mr Vale has taught me since the start of year seven and knows me the best. I trust him very much, we have a weird kind of understanding of each other. Brian and Roger don't take Geography as a subject so in this class I am by myself. I sit at the back of the class in the corner so I am out of the way.

"Good morning everyone. Today we will be discussing India. Some of the people who went on the trip could tell the others about the landscapes and nature and I will show some photos I took whilst there too" Mr Vale explained

India. So many memories. Memories of me walking in and meeting Freddie. Memories of me looking around Freddie's dorm room. Memories of me and Freddie having our dinner together. Memories of me and Freddie at the lake. Memories of Freddie in class. Memories of Freddie kissing me. Why can't he escape my mind!?

I was staring at nothing in particular, letting my thoughts rush along. My eyes began to water. Maybe because I was emotional, maybe because I was staring and haven't blinked in a good few minutes. I'm a mess. What has Freddie done to me?

Surely it isn't supposed to be like this, I've lived without him before - why can't I do it now?

"John?" A soft voice called out, bringing me out of my thoughts again

"Hmm?" My usual response. Yet this time I was more shocked. I was sat there in my own in an empty classroom with Mr Vale crouched down in front of me. Thinking of Freddie has already landed me in trouble once, I can't let it happen again.

"The bell went 2 minutes ago" Mr Vale smiled, I'll admit it is kind of humorous

"Sorry. I don't know where my mind is today" I looked down and sighed

"Holiday blues?" Mr Vale questioned

"Something like that" I raised an eyebrow

"Speak to me John" Mr Vale pulled up a chair to sit on

"I miss Freddie" I blurted out. As soon as I realised what I said I covered my mouth with my hands as my eyes widened

"You two really got on" Mr Vale stated

"Yeah. You know don't you?" I asked

"Haven't a clue" The teacher winked, obviously knowing exactly what I was talking about

"Yes you do" I smiled

"Yes I do" Mr Vale confessed, "Freddie told me"

"What?" I was in shock

"Yeah, he told me to make sure you're happy when you came back to school. That boy is bossy" Mr Vale laughed

"He's stubborn, but he cares. A lot." He we go again, the Freddie talk

"I can tell. I saw a different side to you in India. I was a more comfortable side, you were more relaxed and you allowed yourself to have fun" The teacher explained

"That's what Freddie does to me" I mumbled

"He's good for you" Mr Vale said

"Thank you. I can't wait until they come here" I changed the subject. It's slightly odd talking about your love life with your teacher

"Yes. We have a lot planned" Mr Vale smiled

"Oh great" I smiled too

"You best be getting your break time John. You don't want to be sat here with me all day" he joked

"You treat me well Sir, I wouldn't mind it at all" I said truthfully

"Good to hear" he stood up

"I'll see you tomorrow Sir" I waved as I left the room

"Bu-bye John" He called out

I walked outside with Freddie still on my mind. I decided to go and find Roger, hopefully he could shift the black haired boy from the front of my thoughts.