Endlessly ( A Dean Ambrose Story)

Chapter 27: Fallout

***Dean's P.O.V***

I did not sleep well. The conversation between Tyler and I played on repeat all night. I decided to get up and get ready for the day.
"Whoa! Dude, you look terrible!" Seth said as I walked in to the room.
"Yea? Well I look how I feel." I fired back.
"Guess you didn't get much sleep?" Roman chimed in.
"Nope."
"Bro, you need to have that checked out. That's not normal."
Of course it wasn't normal! None of what's going on in my life is normal. I'm not a normal person.
"So?... Hello?... Jon you in?" Seth asked pulling me back from my thoughts.
"What?"
"Do you want to go bowling later tonight? We're going after our workout. You can bring Annaleigh."
Annaleigh. I had almost forgotten until he brought it up again. I had to talk to her.
"Jon?! Earth to Jon! Snap out of it man!"
"Sorry! Uh...maybe later. There's something I have to do first."
"Everything okay?"
"Yea, yea. Just have to take care of something. I'll catch up with you guys later." I grabbed my phone and my car keys and texted Annaleigh.
Me: Hey
Anna: Hey!
Me: You busy?
Anna: No. Just watching the boys play video games.
Me: Okay cool. Pick you up in a few.
Anna: Okay :).
I sat my phone down and made my way towards Annaleighs apartment. I could feel my heart pounding. I tried talking myself out of this but in the end I knew this had to be done.
***Annaleigh's P.O.V***
"Let me guess... Dean?" Joe teased. I guess he noticed my smile.
"Yea. He's coming to pick me up."
"Where are y'all going?" Tyler asked.
"I have no clue."
A few minutes passed then I heard the doorbell. I answered and there he was: Dean. I smiled and although he returned my smile, it wasn't the same.
"You ready?" He asked
"Yea. See you later boys!"
"Bye!" They called.
And we headed out.
"So where are we headed to?" I asked.
"I was thinking our favorite spot."
***Dean's P.O.V***
We pulled in to the desert and I turned off the car. Annaleigh opened the door and started to get out but I grabbed her hand.
"Annaleigh, we need to talk." As I said that, I noticed her facial expression change from happy to worry.
"...okay." Was all she said. I didn't know where to go from here. I didn't know where to start!
"Annaleigh, I care alot about you. You've made me unbelievably happy these past six months. You completely accepted me when no one else did and opened up a part of me I never knew existed...but it's been one sided this whole time. It's not fair for you to put so much effort into it and not receive anything in return." I look over at Annaleigh and she's very still. So I continue,
"I can't give you what you want; what you deserve. I don't want to hurt you, but if I hold on any longer that's just what I'll do. I want you to know that none of this is your fault. You've done nothing wrong, it's just that I don't see this going any further than it has. I think it's best that we end things before we get any more serious." I glance once more at Annaleigh. She's still remains silent and very still.
***Annaleigh's P.O.V*
I can't believe it. He's breaking up with me! I don't understand! What did I do wrong?!
"Annaleigh? Say something. Please?" Dean pleaded. But how could I? The lump in my throat was growing bigger by the minute that it hurt to even speak!
"So...you're breaking up with me?" I asked turning to face him. He looked at me with what looked like sad eyes and nodded.
"Why?" I asked.
"Annaleigh...I just can't give you what you need."
"And what exactly is it that I need?"
"You deserve someone that can give you what you want."
"Like?"
"Like a house."
"I have a house."
"You have an apartment." He corrected.
"So?? It's a roof over my head! It's keeps me warm and dry at night! That's close enough."
"Jewelry."
"I hardly wear that."
"Someone who can take you out to fancy dinners."
"I'm highly capable of cooking my own fancy food."
"Someone who can take you anywhere at any given time."
"I have a career that does that for me."
"Why are you fighting me on this??"
"I'm not!"
"Yes you are! Every time I say something, you have to come up with an answer that goes against what I said."
"Because you're talking about material things!"
"They matter! They're important!"
"No they don't! And not to me! Jon you know me better than that! I can get those kinds of things on my own!"
"Someday you're going to want kids. And a family..."
"Okay?..."
"I can't give you that, Annaleigh. I don't want kids. I don't think I will ever want kids."
"Jon, you act as if we're going to have kids tomorrow! Yes! I want kids. I want a family. But not now! I don't even know when exactly I want them! Where is all of this coming from anyway?!"
"I don't know... I've just been doing some thinking and I've decided that I don't want to be in a relationship now. I thought I did but I don't. Like I said. You deserve someone who-"
"Stop! If you name off one more material thing I swear you're going to get slapped in to next week! I don't want any of that!"
"Then what do you want Annaleigh?"
"You. I'm not a hard person to please Jon! You want to know what I want? What I REALLY want?" He nodded.
"I want you. Not just because you're a WWE Superstar. Not just because you have money or because you're famous. I want you because you make me feel something again. For the longest time I just wanted to find someone who was just as tired of getting it wrong as I was... and I found you. I didn't expect you, Jon. You were not a part of my plan. My plan was for my best friends and I to follow our dreams: THIS dream! And to go as far as we can! To be honest I wasn't ready for you at first. It wasn't until we talked and hung out and started to get to know one another that I realized that I had fallen for you. The way we were in California sorta sealed the deal for me. I felt close to you. In my past relationships, I've never felt as close with them as I have been with you. Those were the one sided relationships! I had to dress a certain way, act a certain way... I had to be a completely different person with them. But with you... I was myself. Am myself! For once I'm comfortable in my own skin. You sit there and say that you can't give me all these material things such as a house, jewelry, blah blah blah... but what you don't realize is that you have given me so much more. You've given me my identity back! You've allowed me to freely be who I am and now you're about to change all of that. All I want... all I REALLY want... is to be enough to somebody for once. To mean everything to someone. To love me..." I said my voice cracking.
We sat there in silence while tears began to form. I can't believe I'm about to lose the best thing to ever happen to me. Why does this always happen to me?! Finally he spoke.
"I'm sorry Annaleigh. I'm just not that guy for you. I don't want to be involved with anyone right now."
"So that's it? We're done?" I asked dumbfounded. He just shook his head. Right then my world had come crumbling down. Tears began to gradually fall down my cheeks. I didn't want him to see so I turned to face the window.
"I'm really really sorry Annaleigh. I should have never led you on like that. You want me to drive you home? I don't mind."
"No I'm just going to hang out here for a while. Thanks though."
"You sure?"
I nodded and got out of the car and watched as he turned on the car, reversed, and disappeared.
I walked down to our hidden trail. My head was spinning. I couldn't grasp what had just happened. I felt myself falling apart like I did that night many years ago. I collapsed and just let myself cry.
***Dean's P.O.V***
I broke up with her. The one good, positive thing that has ever happened in my life and I let her go... I'm such an idiot. Not to mention I just left her there in the desert. I felt like turning around and going back for her, but I didn't. She needed her space. Why did I do that?! Why did I say those things that I know hurt her?!
'I didn't expect you...'
'You were not part of my plan...'
'You allowed me to freely be who I am and now you're about to change that...'
Her words kept repeating themselves. I loved her dearly. She was meant for me. She was mine and I let her slip through my fingers.
All of a sudden I felt something wet on my face. I was crying. I have never cried in my life!
(Honk) (Honk) (Honk)
A car's horn pulled me from my thoughts. I pulled over to let that person pass who had a few choice words for me. I lost it. I let everything out. I'm glad Joe and Colby weren't around otherwise, they'd probably make fun of me.
After my meltdown, I just headed home. I didn't feel like bowling... much less be around people.
*** 4 Hours Later***
"Man I'm starving!" Joe griped setting the remote control down.
"Ditto." Tyler agreed.
Just then Jacob and Lexi walked in.
"Hey Lovebirds." Joe called.
"Hey! We're starving! What's for dinner?" Jacob asked.
"A whole lot of nothing." Tyler answered.
"What? Where's Annaleigh?"
"With Dean."
"Well damn. Guess we'll wait here til' she gets back."
*** 3 More Hours Later***
"Have you guys heard from Anna yet?" Tyler asked drying his hair as everyone shook their heads no.
"This isn't like her." Jacob stated.
"She's probably still with Dean." Lexi said trying to reassure the boys.
"She would've called to let us know." Joe said, "No. Something's not right."
"Anyone know Dean's number?" Jacob asked.
"Let's give her a little while longer before we start to panic." Tyler suggested.
The boys started playing games once more while they waited for their friend to come home.
***4 Hours Later***
"Okay. She's not answering her phone and now it's just going to voicemail." Lexi said becoming concerned for her friend.
"Guys I think it's time we went looking for her. Something must have happened to her." Jacob said.
"I agree. She would've called by now. Or Dean would've let us know if her phone had died. Jacob, where is it that she likes to hang out?" Joe asked.
"The desert."
"Then we'll start there. Let's go guys." Tyler said grabbing his keys and heading out the door, followed by Joe and Jacob.
The boys made it to the desert and began their search party.
"Annaleigh!" They called. "Annaleigh!" No answer. The boys grew more worried by the second. They each tried calling her, and everyone got the same answer: Voicemail. Each decided to split up and cover more ground.
Tyler went one way, Jacob the other, and Joe decided to try the trails. As Joe walked along one trail, he noticed a small figure lying on the ground. As he slowly approached, he realized who it was.
"Annaleigh!!!" He cried as he rushed by her side, "My God! You're freezing!!" Joe pulled off his jacket, wrapped Annaleigh in it, and dialed Tyler's number.
"Tyler! Hey man I found her. She's freezing! We may need to take her to the ER."
"No! Please don't!" She pleaded.
"What?! Why?! Anna you could get really sick!"
"I don't care." She replied as she buried her face in her hands. Joe sat down beside her. He didn't know what to say much less what was going on. Finally she broke her silence.
"Joe what's wrong with me?"
"What are you talking about? Nothing is wrong with you."
"Then why am I not good enough for a guy to stay?" She asked as tears fell from her eyes. She didn't have to say anymore.
"What happened?"
"He just broke up with me. He kept saying that he wasn't good enough. That he couldn't give me what I wanted."
"Like what?"
"All these material things... but I don't want any of that."
"Did you tell him that?"
"Yes! Joe I pleaded with him to stay! I told him none of those things mattered to me. That all I wanted was to be with him... and he just let me go. Just like that!" She said snapping her fingers.
"Then he's an idiot."
"No Joe! I'm the idiot! I was fooling myself thinking that a guy would actually love me! That I'd be good enough to be with..." She burst out crying. All Joe could do was hold her as she cried out her pain.
Just then Jacob and Tyler appeared.
"Anna? What's wrong?" Jacob asked kneeling beside Joe and Anna.
"Dean broke up with her." Joe whispered to both Jacob and Tyler.
"What?! Why?!"
Joe just shrugged.
Seeing Annaleigh this way hurt. Especially for Tyler. He wanted Dean out of the picture but not at the expense of hurting Annaleigh like this. It killed him. Maybe what he said to Dean was a mistake...
"Let's get her home guys." Tyler said solemnly.