Nightmares and Fantasies | L.H | supernatural au

Ch. 31

| Luke's pov |

The next day;

I sit on my bed not moving. What have I just done? I was more than stupid to wait this long...and now I lost her. I don't know if she will come back and realising this makes me so angry. I finally get off my bed as I'm shaking but I try to get ready for school anyway. I should've seen it coming, that she was going to slip out of my arms so easily. I can never hold on to something good for too long. I go into the bathroom and I see my demon staring at me from inside my mirror. But this time as I move his dark figure moves also. This is what's inside me, just darkness. Who would want to be with someone who is wicked like me?

"How many times have I told you to keep your nightmare close?" He asks.

I clench my fist as heat rises to my cheeks.

"I heard it enough damn times!" I yell slamming my fist on the counter.

"Then why don't you listen! Why do you keep driving her away!"

The voice echoes through my bathroom and I narrow my eyes at him. I'm no longer afraid of this demon. My jaw tightens as I grit my teeth.

"Just shut up!"

I bang my fist into the mirror making it break into many pieces across the floor. I take in a deep breath as I unclench my fist. Blood trickles down my knuckles but I don't do anything for them. I shake it off then get ready for school. My blood is pumping through my veins fast and I just hope no one testes me because I'm not in the mood and they will get hurt badly. I walk to school hoping I will blow off some steam but I don't and I'm still as angry as I was this morning. I go into the school and go straight to my locker. I'm no longer sad about what happened with Noreen, I'm angry, with myself that is. I should just die, but this demon won't let me. It says I should but every time I try, I end up staying alive. I take out my book that I'll need for my classes and instead of going to Homeroom I walk around the school for a bit. I see Noreen with Calum and that's when I stop my steps.

"You okay? With Luke and every thing that happened?" Calum asks her as he puts his hand on her shoulder.

"It's his fault, but I love him, so I won't blame him," she says.

Those words are loud in my head. I heard them before, but a long time ago, before I liked Noreen. Then it clicks. It was all in my head. I heard those words when I was laying in my room after going to her mother's grave. I always knew she would find out, I just didn't prepare myself and now this happened.

"It will be alright soon, just talk to him, I'm sure he meant to tell you, just didn't know when..."

"I wish it was sooner,"

I walk away at that point and go to my first class early. I see Tracy standing at the window seal and just seeing her makes me more frustrated than I already am. She smirks at me and walks towards me.

"I heard what happened, are you sure you didn't rape her?" She asks.

I don't answer and bite my lip to stop myself from yelling at her.

"Then her daddy came and told her the truth...she can't even stand to look at you, can she?"

I sit down as my hands start to shake. Don't do it Luke, I tell myself, don't do it.

"She sees you as the monster you are, she hates you!" This times she shouts and as I get up I flip over my desk.

Tracy backs away from me as I come closer to her. She hits her back against a wall and she has no where else to go.

"Shut up! You don't know shit! She doesn't hate me and I'm not a monster,"

Tracy crossed the line and I can't control myself and that's when terrible things happen.