The Ghost (LOT Reader X Leonard Snart)

one last second change

A/N: it took me way to long to write and publish this chapter due the fact of work and health issues. but donut worry (i know lame joke) the chapter is here so enjoy and feel free to share or comment your thoughts it will help a lot in creating future chapters.

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Everyone in the waverider faced a decision. It was either to give me one last chance or to consider myself the enemy. To be honest, I no longer deserved a second chance, what I had done, manipulating the thoughts and memories of the members of the waverider was wrong and I knew that. Now I had to live with the consequences that it brought with it. I should have known better and kept my distance.

Everything went downhill the moment I started working at Star Labs. I should never have made the choice to stay. What would my life have been like then, had I met the Legends, would I still come face to face with Leonard.

Walking through the streets of an abandoned city, I searched for answers. If only there was one way to correct this. I had already done too much damage. Even with all the powers I had, I couldn't reverse this, or could I. Maybe I could somehow stop myself, stop myself from going to Star Labs. That way I would never come in contact with Leonard and never with the Legends.

The plan was simple, go back in time and stop myself. Now that I had a plan it still had to be carried out. I jumped back to 2017, an hour before applying for a job at Star Labs. Behind a nearby bush I waited for myself. My heart started beating faster and faster. How did you handle something like this. It was best to transform myself into the Ghost and thus confront myself. In this way I didn't attract unwanted attention from potential passers-by and my former self knew what was going on.

The time passed and it was time that I would walk by. The moment was there, the moment that I could correct my mistakes. The mistakes that changed my life for the worse. I stepped out of my hiding place to compromise myself but I was not there. My former self was nowhere to be seen. Multiple thoughts filled my head, I was wrong, it was another day, another time. I didn't get it until it suddenly became clear to me.

I did not exist in a timeline, although I had been here there was no physical connection that I could go back to. If Barry or Leonard traveled back in time or into the future, they would always come across a version of themselves. They existed in every variation of the timeline, but not me. I did not exist, I was there but I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't be anywhere. My birth was a mistake of the universe. A gift from the heavens and a curse of life.

I existed in people's minds, there were no traces of my existence. If I went to Star Labs now, they would know who I was because I had them remembered. If I had also erased their thoughts, it would seem as if I had never been there in the first place.

With tears in my eyes I fell to my knees, despite my intentions I failed again. All the emotions I felt at that moment came out at the same time. With my face turned to heavens, I screamed. It was so hellish that it could still be heard five miles away. The ground quivered and the windows from nearby cars shattered and fell on the street like rain. The pebbles on the street hovered just above the asphalt, street lanterns flickered violently and electronics dropped out.

My outburst caused a time deviation. So strong that the Legends and the Flash were notified. People in the street ran away because they were scared. The fear was so strong that even someone without powers could feel it. The Flash was soon on the run and stood still a few meters in front of me. "Those eyes." He said quietly, but just loud enough to hear for me. I didn't bother responding, it was useless. "Who are you?" He asked when he took a step closer in my direction. "Does it matter?" I asked, almost whispering and defeated. I looked at him not knowing what to expect or what the situation would be like.