The Mysterious Hazel [Previously known as "My Secret"]

(22) Memories

Nothing kills you more than your thoughts...
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Karoline's POV

I came back down to find everyone seated on the dining table but hadn't started eating. I actually went up to get a shower, AGAIN due to all the flour that was on me. Blake and I had to clean up the kitchen as we were the one responsible for that disaster. Being the leader, I expected Blake to be all bossy and quickly deny that "punishment" but he actually did it after few years of whining.

That made my heart flutter a bit, seeing how comfortable he is with them. Everyone was present and they looked all fresh including Max which means that he had a shower too. Jax's words replayed in my head. Could I possibly be attracted to him any way? Now that I think of it, I wonder how Blake and Max are such good friends. That's because Max is know as the GOLDEN BOY and Blake is known as the BAD BOY. Well that's what I was told by Ty.

I shouldn't be attached to anyone, completely excluding infatuation and that too never with one of these guys. . You never know when the tables turn. Everyone looked at my way as I neared the kitchen. "Come on we were waiting for you." Jay says and that reminds me that I still have to thank him for carrying up and letting me sleep in his bedroom thus I launched myself on him.

I mean I gave him a bear hug and said "thank you for carrying me up and letting me sleep in your bed room." "Your welcome. However, it wasn't me who carried you up. I think you should thank Blake." He said with a smirk. Well seems that they filled him with the details.I looked at Blake to confirm who had a smirk on his face as he said "I think a kiss would do." I rolled my eyes and said "thanks Blake."

We have been eating each other's heads, changing the channels, eating and watching movies because we literally didn't have anything to do. I told Nate that I am stuck at a friend's house so he would let my dad know because he wasn't picking my calls. During my call with Nate, he seemed down and for some reason he wouldn't tell me and it has been very disturbing because we share almost everything. Like you know when I am down, I talk to him and when he's down, he talks it out to me.

I just hope everything is ok. My phone rang and Nate's name popped. I answered the phone in the first ring, happy that he decided to tell me and by the way it was a video call. I expected Nate to pick it up but it was Harry.
"Heyy! Where's Nate? And why did you call me using his phone?" I asked and Nate appeared still with a down face. "What's up? "
"Let me put it far so she can see everyone" someone said and that voice belonged to Gray. I wonder what was going because it's kinda rare for everyone to be together. By everyone I mean, my dad is there too. I didn't really see him but heard him mumbling.

"Ok, listen. We..umm..have something to tell you." Gray said. "I am listening " I quickly replied as I was getting annoyed. Nate and Sophi stepped aside to reveal Harry. What shocked me was that his left arm was wrapped in a white bandage, right hand kind of clutching his stomach which was also full of bruises. This has never happened because he has never gone to a fight or do any of the dirty deed unless someone attacked him. He does know how to fight so there must have been many that attacked him.
"The fuck happened?"
"He was shot." Noah replied
"when was it?" I asked trying to be calm.
"You remember the time I called you before your fight? So.."
"And you didn't think it was important enough to tell me?!!" I almost screamed in the phone. Suddenly reality hit me and I realised that I was with them.

I looked at them and all eyes were on me. Deciding not lash out my anger infront of these guys and reveal myself, I quickly rushed out of the room and headed towards jay's room anf locjed the door. The worst was that I didn't even have earphones which means they must have heard what Noah said.
"What happened?" Gray asked as he must have noticed I wasn't listening to them. "Nothing."
"We wanted to tell you but.." Ashton tried to explain which angered me even more. "But whattt!!!??" I shouted. "You know what I am coming there this instant." "You won't do any stupidity like that." My dad finally said. "But how..--"
"It was done by Louis' men so your definitely not coming here and I don't want to hear any further arguments. Am I clear?" He said

But those words were enough to bring my world crashing down. The name James brought back those horrible memories.
My mind got filled with thoughts, memories and questions. All this happened because of me. Harry wouldn't have been shot if it weren't me. These guys wouldn't be targeted, they wouldn't be in danger if it weren't for me.

"Hey, it's gonna be okay." My dad said in a softer voice as he realised what I was going through. "I am fine." I replied after a while once I assured myself too. "I am so sorry harry. It all happened because of me and I wasn't even there to protect you. I am so sorry."

"Why can't I just come there. We can sort this out. You know as well that we have enough allies, men and weapons to take them down so why don't we just finish it? Then we wouldn't have to be in fear, no one would be in danger and I don't have to hide either. Why can't we just put an end on it!?" I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.

"We will, once the right time comes but for now we need to keep it going. I know how difficult it is for you and we are involved in illegal matters which means that we have thousands of enemies and will have even more in the future that can be even worse than James. You cannot protect all of us and nothing has happened because of you so you can throw that thought outta the window." He said as he tried to cheer me up but only if it was that easy.

I sighed and replied with a nod as it would be a waste arguing with him. I cut the call and laid on the bed with my eyes wide open as all those memories came back...