The Mysterious Hazel [Previously known as "My Secret"]

(23) The Call

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding...
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Karoline's POV

It was 11 pm and I still hadn't got out of the room. The boys tried knocking several times but eventually stopped as they didn't get any response from me. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I am supposed to tell them. I don't know how I am supposed to act. Ahhh. I don't know anything!! It's so frustrating.

After a while someone knocked again but just like earlier I didn't open my mouth but the knock continued and as time went by it only got louder. Out of annoyance, I shouted "What!!??"
"The food is ready so just come out and eat a bit." Max replied from the other side of the door. Honestly I didn't even have an appetite. "I don't want to eat." I replied. "Do you plan on starving yourslef." He said in a slow and steady voice. I wish I could just do that.
"You can't lock yourself in there for eternity." He said which made me realised that he did have a point.

I need to get out of here but I don't want to face them. I need to let my anger out too before it kills me from within. The only thing that came to my mind was that Jay had a gym in his house. What a better option than the treadmill and punchbag? Luckily I had my sports bra so all I needed was a lose t-shirt which I took from Jay's wardrobe.

The knocking had stopped so I could easily get to the gym without being noticed as they would be busy eating. Thus I slowly opened the door but much to my disappointment, they were all there. Max leaning to the door, Mason and Jason leaning on the opposite wall, Jax, Aiden, Alex were chatting among themselves while Blake sat down on the floor with his legs wide open. "We didn't think you were gonna come out." Max said. "See, I told you to use the food idea and tada!" Mason said.

I ignored them and faced Jay and asked with a poker face "do you mind if I could use your gym for a while?" To which he replied "um..okay.." therefore I walked faster in order to avoid them and made my way to the gym. I decided to do the treadmill first.

It had been 1 hour maybe, that I was still on the treadmill removing the frustration stuffed within me, all that anger that was burried deep down. I had felt warm liquid running down my cheeks but it didn't bother as I was more concentrated on LOUIS MENDES. I decided to now move onto the punching bag.

Not caring about the eyes that were on me all along, I got off the treadmill and made my way to where the punching bag was. With every punch I reminded myself why I am doing what I am doing. With every punch I remind myself why I fight, for who I fight and with what I fight.

I fight for my family that he destroyed. Punch

I fight for the people I love. Punch

I fight for the betrayal that he gave my family. Punch

I fight for the freedom I want. Punch

I fight for the justice I deserve. Punch

I fight for my mother. Punch

I didn't realize that I was crying until a hand stopped me and another wiped my tears. I looked at the owner and unexpectedly it was Blake. I was at a loss of words. I didn't know what to do so out of the blue, I cried my heart out in front of him. I had never felt this helpless ever in my life. I was then surrounded by all of them. Each one telling me words that would comfort me but it all went in vain.

I didn't want thir sympathy or pity but I didn't even have the strength to say anything. My energy was all lost. My eyes were shut and I didn't want to open them, I didn't want to face the reality, I didn't want to replay those images all over again, I didn't want to fall in that pit of darkness just when I got out, I didn't want to live that life again without her. I really wished this was just a nightmare and that all of it would disappear once I wake up and we will once again be the happy family that we were.

I was brought back to my senses by Aiden voice as I heard him saying

"it's better to let her be for a while. Just take her to the room and let her have some rest."

Which made me realize that I was being carried and soon I opened my eyes to see Blake's face. His eyes were looking forward, he might have noticed that I was looking at him thus he faced me and for a split second I could see a few emotions in those blue eyes but soon they went blank and his face held an emotionless look as he continued to carry me to the room.

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"Please don't do this, I will do anything that you want me to. Just let her go." I begged infront of him, crying my eyes out but it was not enough thus he instead laughed at me. "Please... please... I swear I will do anything. I will even marry him if that's what you want but please don't do this.." I pleaded which caught his attention as he replied "hmm.. that's not a bad idea. You should marry him which can possibly make your life a hell and even help my empire and break your father too."

"Nooo.. don't do that sweetie. Don't worry about momma, I am gonna be okay. Don't worry -- " she didn't get to finish her sentence as she was hit by him again. "Shut up!!" He shouted at her which made me flinch and worried about all the things he could do to her.

He grabbed her hair and pulled hardly and slowly slid his hand under her top and another in her pants and she kept on screaming at him, telling him to stop, saying that he will regret it. "Close you eyes sweetie. Don't worry everything is okay. Just close your eyes. Don't look at me, alright?" She told me and I obeyed as I closed them...

A gunshot was heard and there her body was, lifeless..

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I was panting as I abruptly woke up by someone. I was grateful to whoever that was. My nightmares have started again which means no sleep till god knows when. I wonder how I will survive. I heard whispers from beside me and I slowly moved my head to that direction to see most of them there. I am sure I looked like tomato because my swollen eyes and red nose.

Max was beside me with a look of concern on his face. "Are you okay?" He asked to which which replied with a nod. "You guys can go sleep. I will be fine. Thank you and sorry for the interruption." I said. "Since when did you start being so formal Hazel?" Blake said which made me smile and others giggle a bit.

At times I really wonder if they are actually the bad boys the way they try to show.